I AM SO FUCKING EXCITED ABOUT "WONDER" OMGGG!

Josiah Stuart - Trust Me, Rita Ora & Liam Payne - For You, Lil Kleine - Alleen, Faouzia - Born Without A Heart, Nina Nesbitt & AJ Mitchell - Afterhours. {< This is the song from the singing scene.}

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Shawn is putting our suitcases in the trunk of his car. I climb into his car and sit down on the big warm chair. I look at the clothes I'm wearing and I smile. I bought a new tracksuit in the Adidas store earlier today and it's really comfortable.

'Ready?' Shawn smiles, starting the engine.

'Yeah sure.' I respond.

'Don't get overly excited.' He sarcastically responds.

'I'm sorry.'

He must think I'm not excited to go with him on this trip but I am, I really am. I've just been horny all goddamn day and my eyes keep trailing to his crotch. The worst thing is that no matter what I do, I just can't stop it!

An hour later we're almost across the border, driving on the highway. 

It's already dark outside and I enjoy watching the moon, following us wherever we go. When we cross the border to Belgium, Shawn puts on some music and one of my favourite songs plays in the car. I turn the music up and sing along.

'Uh-uh-uh, uh-uh-uh...I call at two AM, and you'll be answering. Uh-uh-uh, uh-uh-uh...It's just the two of us, don't need no daylight love.' I sing with everything in me.

Shawn looks at me with a smile.

'She can also sing...' He shakes his head, putting his hand on my thigh.

'How about your voice?' I ask with a smile when I touch his arm.

He laughs and waits for AJ Mitchell's part.

'Yeah, we got the same intentions, you and I. We can skip the small talk, put your skin on mine...' My jaw drops.

Shawn continues singing.

'Don't make my heart break, just make my heart race, keep my body satisfied.'

I stare at him and a wicked grin forms on his lips. He has an amazing voice, and when I say amazing, I mean amazing. I never thought he could sing like that!

'Oh my god! You can sing!' I almost yell at him, still with that stupid smile on my face.

'Yeah...'

Is he shy?

Awh! That's so cute!

'Why didn't you become a singer?' I ask him when I turn down the volume of the music.

'I always wanted to become an actor, but when my dad told me that wasn't a real profession, I just focused on school and later college.' He responds with disappointment in his voice.

'I'm sorry to hear that.' I inhale. 'But to be honest, I'm happy you didn't become an actor, or even a singer for that matter.' I tell him honestly.

'Why?' He asks calmly.

'I wouldn't have met you.' I put my hand over his hand on my thigh.

Shawn entwines his fingers with mine and rubs over my knuckles with his thumb.

'Secretly, you only say that because of all the other female attention I would've gotten if I became famous because of acting and singing.' He laughs.

'Maybe also a little because of that.' I admit.

'Are you jealous Elizabeth?' He asks, still with a smile.

It is so weird to hear him call me Elizabeth, my name suddenly sounds so formal in his mouth. I laugh at my own thoughts. How can a name sound formal?

'No, but I would've been.' I look out of the window, trying to forget what I felt at the airport the other day.

I suddenly starts to get hot in the car and I decide to remove my Adidas jack. I'm only wearing a white camisole underneath it.

'You could've just asked me to turn the heat down.' Shawn says.

'No, because it's not hot in here.' I tell him. 'It's just my body heating up from excitement.'

'What are you excited about?' He asks, not taking his eyes off the road.

'This trip, you, Paris, Morocco!' I start to get excited even more.

'I have a question.' He says.

I've missed his questions to be honest. It feels so long ago since the last time he asked me a random question.

'Do you want children?' He asks.

I take that back.

'I don't know... You?' I'm afraid of his answer.

'Yes, someday.' He responds.

'But how can you not know if you want children or not? Most people know.' He says.

'I never thought I had the chance to choose if I wanted children.' I answer honestly.

He grabs my hand again.

'Why is that?'

'Honestly, I thought I would be alone for the rest of my life.'

'With a body like that?' He quickly looks at me.

'I know you think that's a compliment, but it isn't.' I look at him and he frowns. 'It's not like a man had to choose me, I needed to choose a man that I thought would be worthy enough to be with me. That sounds arrogant as fuck, I know, but I mean it. Nowadays men treat you like you're just a play thing and then they throw you away. I didn't want that for myself, so I gave up on finding love. Until...' I don't finish that sentence.

'Until what?' He asks.

'Until you.' I respond.

'Let me rephrase my question. Would you want to have children with me in the future?' He asks, looking at me.

'Yes, maybe, one day.' I respond.

I start to blush.

'Next question.' He says with a smile on his face.

'Okay.' I roll my eyes.

'I know every lawyer has a specialty and I know what yours is now, but I also know that wasn't the specialty you had when they hired you.' He says.

I don't respond, because I don't know what his question is.

'What was your specialty when you got out of college?' He asks.

'Finding loopholes.' I respond.

I smile when I think back to that time in my life. 

'Sounds like you.' He chuckles.

'What's that supposed to mean?' I laugh.

'The other day you told me you couldn't dance--'

'Mendes.' I interrupt him. 'I didn't say that! I said: "I can't dance to this music.".' I tell him again.

'You just proved my point. You're even good at finding loopholes in sentences.' He smiles.

I laugh and look out of the window into the darkness. I feel Shawn's heartbeat in his fingertips.

'What song do you want to hear?' He asks. 'I want to hear you sing again.'

'Faouzia, born without a heart. I know every line.' I tell him.

He puts on the song and I start to sing again.

When we stop at a gas station to fill gas, Shawn gets out of the car and I pull my phone out of my pocket. It's ten o'clock but I see that my colleague is calling me on my personal phone, just like earlier today.

'Hello?' I pick up the phone with a sigh.

'Hello? Liz?'

'You called me, of course it's Liz.' Dumbass.

'I have bad news.' He says.

I sit up in the chair and lean forward, trying to push the most horrible thoughts out of my head. My dad? Did something happen to him? No, I have no messages from Lucifer of Sheila, so everyone I love must be fine, right?

'Bakker is in the hospital, he had a car accident.' He says.

'Oh thank god!' I sigh, relieved. 'Oh, sorry, I didn't mean it like that.' I try to make it right.

'He might get in a coma, and he asked for you.'

'Is Ella there? And his kids?' I ask.

'Yes they are.' He responds.

Shawn gets in the car again with two cans of Red Bull. I point at my phone, letting him know I'm talking to someone.

'Well... if he dies, give them my condolences.' I tell him and hang up the phone.

Shawn looks at me, with a curious expression on his face.

'If who dies?' He asks.

'Bakker.' There is no sign of emotion in my voice, and I'm well aware of it.

'Are you crazy?!' Shawn says, raising his voice.

I put my phone on the dashboard.

'Why are you raising your voice at me!?' I raise my voice too.

He puts the two Red Bulls into the drink holder.

'You've worked with this guy for... like, three years, and you get a phone call that he might die, and you don't care, at all?' He's shocked.

'Why would I?' I cross my arms and sit back in the chair.

'He even told you he loved you...'

'So? I don't care about him, and I certainly do not love him!' I raise my voice at Shawn again. 'And since when do you care about him?!'

'I don't, I just thought you did.' He speaks with a normal tone again.

'Well... I don't.' I lower my voice too.

'We can turn back and I can drop you off at the hospital.' Shawn says, starting the engine.

'No, we're not doing that. It's kind of funny is it not...' It suddenly hits me. 'That Bakker, who doesn't drive a car, gets in a car accident exactly when we leave for vacation.' I narrow my eyes, thinking.

'You can't think like that.' Shawn answers.

What does he want me to do? I don't care about Bakker, not one nerve in my body does. With me it's either love, or nothing. And with Bakker it's nothing. And I'm sorry, but I can't do anything about that. I'm not an emotional person. I cry at movies and songs, but not when something happens in real life.

'I'm sorry Mendes, but I just don't care...' I feel sorry for Shawn.

I don't want him to think I'm a sociopath, because I'm not. I feel guilt and pain, but just not towards Bakker.

'I just don't want you to regret your decisions when or if he dies.' He says.

'I won't. Don't worry babe.' I grab his hand, and he drives onto the highway again.

'If I was the one in the hospital... would you...' He hasitates. 'Would you come back for me?' Shawn looks at me.

'Yes.' I answer.

Shawn's POV

She didn't lick her lips before answering me, so she must be telling the truth. 

It still scared, no, not scared me, it surprised me a little when she told me she doesn't care about Bakker. Not even one bit. I also like it in some way, she only cares about the people she loves. Loves. Does she love me?

'Do you love me?' I decide to ask her.

'I am not answering that.' She answers.

Fair enough...

Her eyes roam over my body, again, stopping at my crotch, again, for the tenth time today. Her breasts have been bouncing the whole road, watching it from the corner of my eyes gave me a boner half an hour ago.

I see another gas station appear on the side of the highway and decide to pull over.

'What do you want?' I ask her.

I've been noticing her looking at my crotch the whole day. I decided to not say anything about it, but I know she wants something, I just want her to tell me what she wants.

'A hot chocolate will be fine.' She answers.

She avoids eye contact. I drive past the gas station shop to the parking lot behind it. Beth turns around, looking at the shop.

'What do you want?' I ask her again, my voice stern. 

'I was really craving a hot chocolate.' She sounds disappointed, still not looking at me.

'Answer me.' I demand.

She finally looks at me and I look into her eyes. I know she's keeping from me what she really wants. I see the lust twinkle in her eyes and yes, of course I know what she wants, I just want to hear it from her lips.

'I want to feel you inside me.' She finally says, I hear the relief in her voice.

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