Chapter 13: is that my pen?
Lennon
"F-fuck. Fuck. Don't do that Lennon" Harry hissed, his cheeks were flushed and his voice was raspy. I felt a weird tingerling in my core, that made me gasp, it was then I felt something hard poke the inside of my thigh and I felt myself blush furiously.

"Harry, Harry is that-" I asked, unable to finish my sentence, my breathe short.

"Yeah, I'm sorry, that wasn't supposed to happen" he said, and I could feel him shake beneath me, his pink mouth parted.

"It's okay" I said, and I couldn't stop staring at him. "I think that was a good lesson, thankyou" I said,
meaning it, I've never felt anything like before.

"Yeh that's fine, anytime" he said, his eyes looking down at my lips causing my head to go dizzy again.

"Now I can see what all the fuss is about" I said, laughing. I guess what the girls said in the locker room about Harry was very true.

Harry opened his plump, flushed lips to reply but shut them as he his phone started to ring. I jumped off his lap immediately and watched as he adjusted himself in his pants before getting the phone. Did I really make him hard? I couldn't help but stare at him in wonder and touch my swollen lips, trying to remember how it felt. I had only ever been kissed once before and I think it's safe to say it was nothing like the one myself and Harry had.

"What!" He snapped, his cheeks still flushed and raking his big hands through his already messy hair, which I now knew felt like and hands that were around my waist less than 2 minutes ago. I felt myself blush further and was on the verge of smiling when I saw Harry's body stiffen and his green eyes to wide.

"Harry, what's wrong?" I asked, walking up to him and placing my hand gently on his shoulder.

"It's Megan, they've found her body" and suddenly I felt everything go blank.

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"I realise how hard this must be for you, as we all grieve in the loss of one of our own, Megan Ryan. And we all share our sysmpthies and condolences to Mr. And Mrs. Ryan today" Mr. Jensen said, pointing at them. The moment of burning hot skin and Harry's lips on mine was ruined, finding out that Megan Ryan's body was found in creek woods.

Mr Jensen's usually handsome face, was now rungid, his eyes blood shot and his suit messy whilst Mr. And Mrs. Ryan's were sitting on the stage looking straight ahead, robotic as usual, intimidating as usual.

"But as you are aware, the police have been investigating and this is no longer a missing person case but rather a murder case" he announced, looking around the room and I could feel the tension of every single person.

A lot of things have happened in St. John's. Daddy had even discussed once taking me out of the school but the high grades made him change his mind. Everything from affairs, to scandals. We had even found out just last year that Mrs. Wilmer, the head of Maths was a drug dealer. But never, ever have we had something like this, was it someone I knew? How did she die? Was she in peace? Why did they do it? Would they do it again? I felt my brian begin to hurt because of all the questions I had.

The most important one: why did someone think that me, Harry, Danny, Issy, Shelby and Kyle had something to do it? Did someone know about what happened between me and Megan?

"Len, you ok?" Tiger whispered next to me, likely noticing my worried face. Tiger was my best friend, but with everything that has been happening recently we haven't really been talking as much, and it added guilt on top of my already down atmosphere. I was a bad friend.

"Yeah, I'm fine, thanks" I said, attempting to smile.

"And now, Megan's mother and father would like to say a few words" Mr Jensen said, taking a seat in order for them to come forward.

The Ryan's were by the far the most intimidating family within the whole of the town. Even my father, who was the most strict man I knew said so. They were both the wealthiest and meaniest people and Danny has told me of the rumours of Joesph Ryan, Megan's father being corrupt for ages. But, that was nothing compared to Natasha, Megan's mother. She was part of the council and had a say in literally everything that was anything. Her ice cold blue eyes could scare anyone, and it was clear to see where Megan had got her demeanour from.

As I looked them, Natasha pulling on her glasses and Joesph literally looking at the Rolex on his wrist as if he had someone where else to be. I couldn't help but admire their courage, their only daughter had been accounced dead just 24 hours ago and yet they still looked... put together. Their clothes perfect, make up perfect and not a hair out of place.

"Megan was a bright, charming young girl. She was an amazing friend, a devotated girlfriend and a loving daughter. She had so much ahead of her, a bright and promising future. But someone has taken that away from her, some monster has robbed her of what was her and by God we will find out who it was-" Megan's mother said, looking around the room with stone cold blue eyes as her husband placed his hand on her shoulder, and the sight made me want to cry.

"As Mr. Jensen has pointed out this is no longer a missing person case, it is a murder case. And, if you know anything, anything regarding where she was on that night or any information on who might want to harm our beautiful daughter, talk to the police.
More specially to Mr. O'Neil" she said pointing to a man on the end of the stage who briefly stood forward.

"One more thing, Megan's funeral will be this Sunday. Anyone who who considered Megan to be a friend or companion is welcome to come" she said before walking off, her husband trailing behind her.

Everyone was in silence, as she walked off until we heard someone clapping loudly in the hall. I turned my head to the side to see Kyle with his hands up in the air.

"Sorry, Sorry. My bad" he said, putting his hand on his heart and I could almost feel the adults in the room giving him death glares. I let my eyes move to the spot next to him where I saw Harry who was already staring right at me, his green eyes staring at me intensely, causing me to gasp.

"Amateur" He mouthed, pointing his head to Kyle and rolling his eyes. For the first time today, I felt the corners of my lips lift up into a smile.

"Are you okay?" He mouthed again and although he was far away I could tell he was trying to read my eyes. For some reason with Harry, I didn't feel the need to put on a false facade and smile so instead I just shook my head no.

I could hear the voice in the background but barley regstiaeed them as I watched Harry. He kept his eyes on me as he took his ring covered hand and brought it to his heart and drew a cross over it. I furrowed my eyes in confusion, not knowing what that meant but quickly recovered when I saw him smile at me, noticing my confused gaze, before running his hand through his curly chestnut hair. I made a mental note to ask him what that meant and tell him to smile more, because his dimples were possible one of the cutest things someone can see.

"Lennon, Lennon, we can go" Tiger said, shaking me lightly. I took one final glance at Harry before walking off with her to notice that he had winked at me and I subconsciously blushed and smiled at the gesture. No wonder so many girls fell for Harry.

"You should stay away from him Len" Tiger said as we walked through the hall, preparing to go outside for break.

"Who?" I asked confused.

"You know who, Harry Styles that's who" she said, her voice snappy.

"What are you talking about?"

"Oh come on. You two are always together, don't think I didn't see that encounter in assembly" she whisper shouted. It baffled me how we literally just got out of an assembly regarding someone's death and this is what she was concerned with.

"So what? We're friends" I said, as if it were obvious.

"Friends my arse, he was staring at you the whole way through that assembly. Every time you did something, he did the same thing. Besides, Harry doesn't have any friends that he doesn't screw"

"That's not true, you don't even know him" I said defensively. The first comment she made had caused me to blush and I purposely decided to ignore that part of her statement.

"Oh come on Lennon, don't be so naive" she said, rolling her eyes.

"I am not being naive-" I said sternly, becoming sick of people always thinking I'm a stupid little girl
"And Harry is my friend" I said.

"He's no good Lennon, his just a user and player. I mean I no I'm not a big fan of Danny but at least he hasn't fucked half of the school" she snickered.

"You don't know him Tiger" I said, annoyed. Instead of giving her a chance to reply with another judgmental opinion, I walked towards the room where everyone usually is. For some reason, they were the people I wanted to be around right now.

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To my surprise, for the first time ever the room was silent. Issy and Shelby weren't bickering as I walked in, just completely silence.

"Pip" Danny said when he noticed, coming towards me and crashes me in a warm hug. I could smell his expensive aftershave, and I allowed myself to close my eyes and enjoy his warmth.

"You okay?" He asked softly in my ear and I subconsciously nodded.

"Yeah I'm good" i said, pulling away from him and looking into his beautiful blue eyes, which were usually bright and full of life, now looked tired and lifeless. I allowed my eyes to wonder around the room.

"Where's Harry?" I asked, before I could stop myself. I noticed that Danny looked a little taken back by my question and frowned.

"And Kyle" I added softly, noticing he wasn't here either. To be honest, it was noticeable. You would instantly be able to tell when Kyle was in a room.

"Both of them got called into their couches office, they put all of Mr. Joan's stuff in jelly again" (AN// sorry guys I've been watching The Office all week hehe) Issy answered, rolling her eyes.

"Oh right" I said a bit sadly.

"Shelby? Are you okay?" I asked and instantly regretted it. Of course she isn't okay, she just found out that her best friend is dead, and her funeral is in a couple of days.

"I think she's in shock. I just told her what my dad told me" he said, looking over at Shelby with Soft eyes and if it wasn't for the serious of the situation the sight would of upset me.

"Which was?" I asked.

"Right so you know how my dad works along side the people in charge of the investigation? He told me last night what the ortopsie showed about Megan's death" he said lowly.

"Which was?" I asked, specifically, I wasn't sure if I wanted to hear the answer.

"Well she had loads of bruising and cuts around her body indicating she might have been in a fight and the injuries around her neck suggests she had been strangled, but-" he stopped, cleaning his through and looking over at Shelby who had a tear in her eye. I too could feel myself begin to choke up at the sound of brutality, what monster would do this?

"They said that she bleed to death, someone had hit her over the head with an object and it fractured her skull" he said, lowly looking down at the floor and I could feel my breathe get caught in my throat.

We all just sat there, in silence. I noticed that Issy had her head in her hands and I was about to go over and comfort her before Shelby spoke.

"What are you crying at for god sake?! You hated her!" Shelby hissed at Issy, and it was the first time I got a good look at her all day. Her usual sun kissed face which always had makeup was pale, and flakey and her hazel eyes were red and swollen.

I could see Issys green eyes become angry and fierce as they usually did and I can tell she was about to yell something but, when she studied shelbys face and her eyes went softer.

"You're right. I did. A lot of people did, Shelby, maybe even you-" she said and I saw Shelby clenched her jaw "but I didn't want her dead, and I would never wish the way she died on anybody. Regardless if I hated them or not" she said, looking directly into Shelby's eyes, and Shelby adverted her gaze around the room in order to hide her tears.

"I have to go" she said, picking up her bag and marching out of the room. None of us, not even Danny tried to stop her, leaving us once again, in silence.

"I should go too, I'll talk to you guys later" Issy said, heading towards the door.

"Wait Issy" I said before I could stop myself "I'm here if you need to talk" I said, almost wanting to hug her, but not knowing if that crossed a line or not, did she see me a friend like I did her?

"Thanks Lennon" She said and I could see that she was trying her best to smile before she left the room, leaving just myself an Danny.

"Are you alright?" He asked, touching my shoulder, the contact spreading a warmth through me.

"Yeah, I'm fine" I answered, hoping that I sounded convincing. I could see the bags below his eyes.

"You're so strong" he said, trying to smile.

"Are you?" Okay?" I asked.

"No, Len" He answered, leaning down my I could wrap my arms around him, and I closed my eyes. Danny has always been this way since we were kids, he never lied to me about the way he was feeling and it's something I loved about him. A part of me wanted to tell him that I wasn't ok, but he didn't need that right now. He just needed me, and that was enough for me.

"It's going to be okay, we're gonna find out who did this and how is sending those letters" I said softly in his ear, hoping in some way that I was helping calm him.

"What if we don't?" He whispered.

"We will" I said looking into his blue eyes and smiling. He kissed the top of my head before he leaned back on the desk and I hoped that my cheeks didn't look too red.

"I'm just, you know-" he said, sighing, pulling his hand through his hair.

"I know, it's ok" I said, reassuringly.

"Have you told Harry? And Kyle?" I asked suddenly becoming worried, how did Harry take it? Is he ok? What's going through his head right now?

"Not yet. But I will" He said, studying me.

"I hope Harry will be ok" I said, more to myself.

"I'm sure Harry will be fine, he's a big boy" Danny snapped.

"Woh, Danny, What the hell? We are all going through the same thing here, it's hard" I said, a little taken back by how insensitive he was being.

"You're right I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I just- I'm not used to your friendship with him, and you know, you checking up on him, it's just a little weird to me" he said, looking around the room before scatching the back of his neck.

"Well, Harry is my friend" I stated, and for some reason I felt myself blush, the memories of last night flooding back in and it caused me to hit down harlshlt on my lip. "A good friend". I wonder how Danny would react if he knew about the kiss?

"Right, Yeah" He said and I felt a silence fall between us. I couldn't deal with he pressure of having to fill in the blanks and make a conversation, not at a time like this.

"I gotta go Danny, I'll talk to you later" I said and I hopped my voice sounded steady.

"Oh ok" he said, and I wanted to punch myself because he sounded so disappointed, and I leaned in again to give him another hug.

"I love you Pip" he said against my hair. Usually, hearing him say that would make my heart skip a beat and my body giddy but at a time like this I just closed my eyes and squeezed him tighter.

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"Ok, so, you have to look at it from both perspectives. You see Hardy originally called the book 'Tess of the D'urbeviles- A pure Woman' some would argue that Hardy actually Critises sexism by portraying Tess as the victim and Alec as the devil villain who rapped her and caused her downfall. However, readers who read in during the time it was published wouldn't see Tess as a victim and therefore he chooses to dipict scene in a paticular way" I explained to Megan, who sat at the table looking at me intensely with her head in her hands and her eyebrows arched. I hope I didn't come across like a nerd, but I enjoyed speaking about literature.

"Do you like Thomas Hardy?" She asked, studying my face.

"I love him, and especially this book I said holding up 'Tess of the D'urbilves to my face and smiling. Ever since our interaction in the locker room I have become even more intimated and nervous around her but, I was too affaird to cut off our tutoring sessions.

"Urgh these chairs are so uncomfortable" she said, circling her neck. Much like every other time she spoke, I wasn't sure of how to respond so I just stayed silent. Today's session was at Megan's house and when I say I my eyes literally bugged out of their sockets when I saw the size of her house, I wasn't exaggerating. Everything was huge. Everything. The table we were sitting at was elibihle for royals. But Megan has still decided to sit right next to me and occasionally shifted even closer to me throughout the session.

"Maybe we should go upstairs to my bedroom, it would be more comfortable" she said, her fingers playing with a strand of my hair which had feel out of my messy bun. I felt myself begin to panic, my heart beating fursiouly and not in the way it does when Danny said something sweet.

"Erm, I- really shouldn't I-"

"Do I care? What she said, I told you I want them in my office my the end of the day!" We heard a voice say in the hallway, then coming into the room, her furisojlt hanging up the pgone. I noticed it was Mrs. Ryan. I silently thanked her in my head but now didn't know who I was more intimated by, her or Megan.

"Hey mum" Megan said, boredly, but she revived no answer.

"Mum?" She said again, and the mother simply poured a drink and nodded at her before walking back out. I felt even more awkward.

"I should go" I said, getting ready to gather my things.

"No" she said, putting her hands on my waist and I really wanted her to take it off.

"I'm sad, you saw the way my mum was. Stay with me" she said, now running her fingers up and down my skin and I felt my eyes go wide.

"Erm-" I said, I really didn't want to leave her when she was sad, but I also didn't want to stay here. God I am such a bad person.

"You're my friend aren't you Lennon? That's what friends do" she said, silently sternly and her ice cold blue eyes stared into mine. With a sigh and a forced smile I repiled-

"Of course"

That day was the only start of the worst to come with Megan. The memories I had with Megan where not pleasant especially- especicallt not the party. Yet, I still felt tears threatening to spill from my eyes as I thought about the brutal way that Danny said she died. I felt so broken as I just stared at the walls of my empty English room.

"Of course I would find you in a classroom waiting for a lesson to begin" a voice said. I would recognise that rapsy voice anywhere.

"Harry!" I said and before I knew it I was walking up to him, smiling for only the second time today. I wanted to hug him but the second I saw him I stopped in my tracks and felt myself blush, once again remembering last night and the way his lips felt and I couldn't hold eye contact. I felt myself shift from foot to foot, hoping that he didn't pick up on my awkwardness, I'm such a spazz.

"Hey" I said and swallowed hard, looking directly into his eyes.

"Having fun without me?" He said pointing at the scattered books at the desk.

"Never" I said, and he started to laugh and rub the back of his hand. There was a silence, it wasn't awkward, it wasn't one where I felt the need to fill the gap, it was comfortable.

"Danny told me" he said after a while and the playful glint which was once in his eye was no compeltly gone and I instead saw his eyes becoming glossly.

"It's terrible" I said and I felt my voice crack.

"Are you ok?" He said, and the intensity of his eyes mixed with my already sad state meant I couldn't keep it in.

"No" I said and I burst into tears. Before I could even register what was happening, Harry had took me by my waist and pulled me in for a hug. I could smell his scent, it wasn't like Dannys, wasn't expansive aftershave, it was sweet and fresh and just smelled like Harry. I also felt a weirdly fast heartbeat against my ear but ignored everything and just let myself cry.

"Everything is going to be ok, Lennon, I promise you" he said and I felt myself unconsciously hug him tighter, something about him making me feel at ease. As I wrapped my hands tighter around his waist, I realised just how tall he actually was, his tall frame towering over me, it made me feel protected.

"Lennon, the police are going to find who did this, and when they do they are going to pay for what they've been doing to us" he said as we backed away from eachother.

"I'm sorry for crying on you" I said, laughing as I saw the wet patch on the side of his green jumper and tried to swat it away like the stain was a bug.

"What have I told you about saying sorry? You can cry, you can stain me, you can do whatever you want to me" he said and I immediately noticed that he his cheeks started to go red and he winced slightly. Harry styles embarrassed? The sight made me want to giggle.

It was then the bell went off and I swear I heard Harry let out slight sigh before smiling silently.

"Come on, let's get to our desk" he said, and I didn't miss the fact that he called it 'our desk'. It was weird, thinking that a few months ago he didn't even want me to sit next to him. As we sat next to eachother, our legs touching I couldn't help but blush for the a millnoth time, recalling the events of last night.

"Hey, you know, I started to read that book you were-" Harry rambled but for some reason my brain wasn't registering what he was saying, instead my eyes were fixated on his pink, pouty lips. Remembering the way that they felt agonist mine last night. I had never seen lips that were so-

"Len?" Harry asked, putting his hands on my arm. "Are you okay?" He asked, still keeping his hands there, causing me to blush, once again, Jesus he must think I'm such a freak.

"Yeah, I'm good" I smiled, and for the first time all day I felt as though that wasn't a lie.

"You know, lying is a very punishable sin" he teased, giving me a knowing look.

"Really?" I said, smiling.

"Really"

"And how are you going to punish me?" I asked before thinking and I saw Harry's teasing eyes change into one similar to the one I saw last night and it made me swallow loudly. I blinked rapidly and giggled.

"I'm sure I can think of something" he said, getting a pen out of this bag. I felt my eyes widen when I saw a blue pen with rainbows on it.

"Oh my gosh! My pen!" I said and I felt my insides become warm thinking about the fact that he had kept the pen I had given him weeks ago.

"Oh yeah- well it's- it's a good pen" he said, clearing his throat.

"It is isn't it?" I said smiling, "it was my favourite" I said.

"Yeah I remember"

As the class went on, I couldn't help but let my mind wonder. To Megan, to Danny as usual, and to Harry, I was so great full that it wasn't weird between us right now, I thought with a smile as I went back to doing my work.

After about 10 mins, I let out a quite yawn, I was so tired.

10 seconds later, from the corner of my eye, I noticed that Harry also let out a small yawn.

Confused, i turned my head to we both smiled at eachother before he turned back to our work.

I wasn't sure of many things, but one thing I was sure about was that I was glad I had Harry next to me, and have him as my friend.

AN///
I am so so sorry about how long it took me to update. Just loads of things going on and I wasn't sure if anyone likes the story lol. I'm sorry you might find this chapter a little boring and depressing.