Chapter 5: I could do with a release

*Contains sexual scenes*
Harry

Eventually, two lines were set up and I pinched the bridge of my nose before rolling up a note and snorting. What some might not know about cocaine is that the effects appear immediately and can disappear within a few minutes or an hour. But with this, I could hardly feel anything at all. I promised Jacob I wouldn't touch the good stuff and I intended to keep that promise, so having a mediocre buzz will have to do.

"Harry sweetheart, come down, you have to eat breakfast before you leave today" my mother called down to me. Im surprised that she didn't yet our maid, Nina to come and get me.

I cleaned the remainder of evidence that there was coke on my bedside table before getting my bag and rushing down stairs. I said a quick hello to Nina before making my way into the dinning room where breakfast was already laid out.

"Good morning, mother" I said, kissing her cheek.

"Father" I nodded my head before sitting down.

"you look like a state Harold, at least attempt to look presentable at the dinner table" I ignored him and poured myself a glass of orange juice.

"So Harry-" my mom started

"You just gonna Ignore me boy?" My dad said, raising his voice.

"Looks that way doesn't it" i repiled before sipping my juice.

"Don't take that tone with me. You think I don't know what you are up Harold? Staying out all night, doing your snow, fucking any girl or boy shall I say that you come across? You make me sick" he spits, I only lean back in my chair and let him finish I have heard this speech a million times by now, it's nothing whcih I'm not used too.

"It makes you sick? I learned it all from you. Because I swear you do the extact same thing as me, only don't mind being up front about it"

"I'm adult, I pay the pills I can do what I want, You know, Those good looks are only gonna last so long boy, soon you will actually have to have to grow up and take responsibility" he counituned.

I heard Danny's car out front, he gives me a lift because my car is at the garage. I got my bag and stood up, I couldn't be bothered to listen to anything else he had to say especially when I had to grow up watching him snort lines every day and bring home a new girl when my mother was out of town.

"See you later mom" I said kissing her cheek.

"But honey, your breakfast"

"I'm not hungry"

I walked out the house and straight into Danny's car without saying a word.

"You alright man" he said, looking over at me.

"Shitty morning" I replied.

"Yeh tell me about it, at least we can have some fun tonight" he said, patting my back, and starting the car. This is what I liked about Danny, he didn't push me to talk about anything I didn't want to talk about.

"Oh shit yeh, Kyles tonight" I said letting my hands rub my eyes which were hurting due to the sun being in them.

"Dude, there's sunglasses in the glove compartment, use them your eyes look blood shot as fuck, I thought you were cutting down on that shit?" He asked.

"Yeh I am, just like I said, tough morning"

"Yeh well cut it out man. Anyway, tonight, I think Shelby is going to be there and I'm thinking tonight is the night I'm gonna make my move"

I fought the urge to roll my eyes, I knew tonight wasn't the night, he'd pussy out last minute like he always did, but I knew this was important to him and decided to just go along with it.

"That's good man" I said, attempting to make sure my voice didn't sound too bored.

"You know what you and Kyle are the same, the only one who-" all the sudden he stopped and I felt a hard punch in my arm.

"Ow what the fuck?" I asked

"That if for the way you treated Lennon" he said, his eyes showing anger.

Lennon. I closed my eyes and remembered the way her big blue eyes looked when I insulted her. I didn't mean for that to come out, let alone so harshly but it did and I couldn't take it back. Besides, I wasn't exactly wrong. For the past week, Lennon has been attempting to talk to me and get closer. Usually when a girl wants to 'get closer' to me it means that they want to fuck for flirt, but not with Lennon, she genuinely wanted a friendship, and it creeped me out.

It creeps me out that someone could be so happy and not what anything in return. It creeps  me out that someone could go around like they were living in a fairy tale. I mean, she literally skips to class. Skips! She had came to the tree that I always sat at during my free periods. I had exspeceted her to run away at the smell of smoke and tell her daddy or at least look at me with judging eyes. Instead I was invaded by the sweet smell of strawberries and warm welcoming, blue eyes as she scooted closer to me, grazing my arm and talking about my tattoos and a feeling stirring in my trousers when she said 'Daddy'. But as she got out literal flower cupcakes and looked up at me with a big smile and dimples, something in me snapped.

"Look, I didn't mean to sound like such a prick, but come on she brought me cupcakes" I said as if that was explanation enough.

"Look, I know Lennon comes on a little strong and a little much sometimes but she just wants to be friends with you" he explained.

"Why?"

"I don't know man, must be because you're so warm and welcoming" he said sarcastically as he parked his car.

"Look if you don't wanna be friends with Lennon, that's up to you, I know she's probally not your cup of tea but she's one of my best friends, So don't be a dick to her, she's soft and fragile and sensitive and what you said really upset her" he locking the door as we started walking towards the entrance.

I could just imagine Lennons big deer eyes filed with tears because someone she was trying to be friends with someone who was a knob to her and I felt like a bit of a cock. Why do I feel so bad.

"You alright you big bag of dicks, what we talking about" Kyle came up wrapping his arm around my shoulders and pulling me to him.

"Nothing" I said. "Hey what do we have first?" I asked.

"How would I know?" He repiled. "Danny boi, what lessons we got?"

"I have chemistry, you have drama and Harry has a free"

"You ditching?" I asked Kyle.

"I would but we have a new drama teacher and oh my gosh you should see her, and word around the street is she likes her men young" he said, winking.

"I'll see you guys later, alright? My house 9 o'clock" he said, walking off.

"I gotta go to mate, see ya later" Danny said.

I nodded and started walking towards the tree I always go too during my frees if I'm not fucking someone. On my way walking up, I feel something off. As I sat down I noticed that there were flowers all around me, sunflowers, loads of tiny yellow sunflowers scattered across the grass. I felt something click inside me. I felt bad. I had felt bad before of course, I had done some shitty stuff to people, but never have I ever felt bad just because of some harsh blunt words. See? This is the effect little catholic girls have on you. Without thinking, I picked a sunflower and put it in my pocket.

I knew that Lennon had the same free as me, I don't know how I knew I just did. I peeked my head through the common room, not seeing Lennon. Where do people go in their frees? Where does Lennon go? Is there a bible study on at this time or something?

I can't fucking believe I'm doing this, I looked around classrooms trying to see if she was tutoring or something and was just about to give up when I heard a familiar humming. I opened the door to the same room we were all in a week ago when he got those shitty letters. Her back was to me and I noticed there was a green bow in her hair, it went well with her dark curls.

"Ahem" I cleared my throat.

She turned around and I was meet with those blue eyes once again, I had never meet anyone who held so much innocence in their eyes before.

"Hey Harry" She said smiling, always smiling.

"Hey, are you okay?" She asked, although she was still smiling, i noticed that it didn't reach her eyes and those dimples weren't showing. She was mad at me. Or upset. Despite not being thrilled at being the reason she felt that way, I was impressed that the little lamb felt another emotion that wasn't happiness, it made her less perfect.

"You know" i started, taking a seat on the table. "You don't have to be so nice to me, i was a dick to you, you can let yourself be mad at me" I said, looking directly into her eyes.

"I'm not mad at you" she said, still putting on a fake smile.

"Yes you are"

"No I'm not"

"Yes you are"

"No, I'm not" she stomped and I saw her blue eyes getting a bit annoyed.

"Yes you are" I said, staring hardly at her. She blinked rapidly, I noticed she did this when she was taken aback by something.

"Ok, im a little mad at you" she said looking around the room, it was almost as if she felt guilty for being angry.

"It's stupid, I'm sorry" she said in a quite voice.

"It's not stupid, don't say sorry for the way you feel. I told you about saying sorry, if anything I'm the one that should be saying sorry. which is way I'm here" I stated.

"It is?" She said, surprised.  I was surprised too if I'm honest.

"Yes" I said.

"You're not just saying it because Danny told you?" She asked her eyes now turning a bit sadder. It's crazy how I could read anything she was feeling in her eyes.

I thought about it for a moment, was the reasson I was saying sorry just because Danny said to be nice to her? As I looked at her tiny body and doll like face I realised that wasn't it, I'm saying because I felt bad that I hurt someone as innocent as her.

"No. He didn't tell me to say sorry, he just told me not to be a dick" I said "and I know I was a dick, I was just having a bad day" I countiuned, felling a little uncomfortable by the way she didn't take her eyes off me or blink. Is this how people felt when I observed them?

"It's okay, Harry I forgive you"

"Really? Because I don't blame you if you don't"

"Yes"she said, smiling, this time it reaching her eyes and it caused a warmth in me. Maybe relief.

"And um I got you this" I said, pulling out the slightly crushed sunflower in my pocket. And I cursed myself at how fucking stupid I must look right about now. I really didn't think this through, all I thought was how many times I had seen Lennon wearing some type of flowery dress or flower clips, she even had sunflower earrings. I decided the best way to get her to forgive me was to give her one myself.

"I didn't think you would forgive me straight away if I'm honest, and well the cupcakes you made me was a sunflower, so I just thought I'd get you one too as a way of saying sorry" I said, stretching the back of my head and refusing to meet her eyes, fuck I must  look like such a melt.

"Harry! I love it thankyou! Thankyou so much!" She said I could literally hear happiness in her voice.

"Did you know that Sunflowers symbolise admiration and loyalty?" She said.

"No, I don't know that" I felt a little uncomfortable in all honesty.

"They are my favourite flower, mostly because they are yellow" she laughed, holding it to her chest as if it was something sacared and not something I had picked up off the floor. I already knew that it was her favourite flower from the way she almost always included it within her fashion.

"Yellow is a nice colour" I agreed. Yellow was a good colour for Lennon, it reminded me of the sun, bright and a little in your face in the morning. Yeh Lennon was the sun.

"Well I'm glad I'm forgiven" I said and meant it. I didn't like the thought of someone like Lennon being mad at me.

"Thankyou" She said and before I knew it she had wrapped her skinny arms around my waist and I felt my eyes widen and my body grow rigid at the unexpected contact. Because of her small height I had to literally bend my head to look at her.

"I'm sorry" she said pulling away, "I tend to be very touchy and huffy with my friends" I didn't know what to do, so I ran my hand town her back and I felt her shiver.

"We are friends right?" She asked, looking up at me with hopeful eyes. Those bloody eyes.

"We're friends" I confirmed, with a slight smile on my face.

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"Strip! Strip!" We all said the girl on the table.

It was 2 o'clock in the morning and I was drunk, not piss drunk, but that just amount of drunk to have a good time.

She bit her lip before taking off her boots, the dress and the bra.

"Just as fucking hot as I remembered," kyle said as he walked towards her.

He grabbed her ass and squeezed tight as he demanded her lips for a rough kiss. He moved his mouth down to bite her neck and a loud moan escaped her lips. As me and Danny watched, laughing as he dragged her upstairs.

"How do you think her boyfriend is gonna react when he sees them" Danny asks, laughing.

"Kyle will probably ask him to join in" I said laughing

"Yeh" he laughed slightly stuttering.

"She looked so beautiful tonight man" Danny said leaning on my shoulder and looking up at the wall and I already knew that he was talking about Shelby. She didn't stay for long and her and Danny didn't utter a word to one another but Danny's gaze was fixated on her all night. In his defence, she did look cut, with a short shirt showing her legs with her breasts showed.

"I know pal, you'll get her next time" I said.

"And hey, I said sorry to Lennon, you were right man I was a dick to her, and she's cool you know? But we're good now, I mean I'm not gonna sing walk in the light anytime soon but we are good" I said.

"Danny?" I said when I realised I didn't get a reply.

"Danny?" I looked down at my shoulder and noticed he was asleep. I rolled my eyes, light weight.

"Well that fucker just completely ruined my night, I had in the bag with that Jessica, Jeniffer girl and he ruined it" Kyle said walking in.

"Urgh boyfriends" I said jokily.

"Tell me about it" he said.

"Hey, ky, help me get him up to a room" I asked.

"He'll have to come into mine, there's people fucking in all the other ones, lucky for me I looked my door, you staying too?"

"Yeh sure" I said, too tired to even think about making my way home.

"I'll take the couch" I said.

"Don't be silly, share my bed" he said, to which I agreed.

We put Danny on her sofa in Kyles room and started undressing to go to bed. Who wants to sleep with clothes on? As I started undressing, I felt Kyles eyes linger on chest and smirked.

"Like what you see?" I asked cockily. Looking at his dark brown eyes which looked like they were field with lust.

"Could ask you the same thing" he said when he caught my eyes looking at his bulge, licking my lips.

We both sat in the bed, shoulders touching as we felt a familiar tension in the air. And I squeezed my thighs to release the tension, When I realised Kyles eyes were looking up and down my body.

I could remember the first time me and Kyle had watched porn together, it was straight porn, we both knew we liked girls and boys and it was never a massive deal, Danny however didn't watch it with them. We were 15 and it made us horny and hard, we couldn't hide our erections under our Pajama bottoms. We couldn't help but look at each other's. The first time it had happened they had laughed about it before taking care of it in private. but as time went on they stopped taking care of their things in private and didn't bother bringing PJs with them when they knew they would be staying over and instead ompting to sometimes even go naked.

"I didn't get any tonight" Kyle moaned running our legs together and I could feel my cock starting to harden.

"Me either"'I whispered.

"I could really do with a release" he said palming himself through his boxers.

His eyes fluttered closed for a moment, which must be how he didn't know that I had moved closer, my breath close to his neck.

"Why don't you let me do that for you," I whispered, slipping my  fingers down Kyle's boxers and feeling his arching cock.

"Oh fuckkkk" was all he managed. "Don't stop, don't stop"

"Do you like that?" I whispered in his ear, squeezing harder as i took a long, slow stroke all the way up his dick which was leaking with Precum.

"Shit Harry" he moaned dropping his hand head and I could see the vein in his neck sticking out, it made me harder and I licked my lips.

"Be quite, we don't wanna wake Danny know do we? Now tell me, do you like it, yes or no?"

"Yes, I like it." He said putting his hand over mine, urging me to go faster.

My eyes went wide when I felt him move his hand away and bring it down to under my boxers.
moving it  slowly up my dick, slicking the precum dripping from my tip down the back of My dick. His thumb pressed against my balls.

"Oh fuck!" I panted as we both worked eachother, our hands moving rapidly.

"Ah, I'm so close!, don't stop!" I kissed him to silence him once I noticed that Danny was slightly moving and opened my mouth to let his hot tongue in, silincing his moans.

Everything felt good, we leaned forward, our foreheads touching and sweat and breath mingling as our heart rates quicked and sweat pored down our heads when he kissed faster.

As we were kissing, Kyle exploded, he came  in great, thick spurts, all over my hand and all over the quilt underneath us. Kyle kept on kissing me as I felt my balls tighten and my cum explode.

"Ah, ah, ah, fuck! Yeh" I groaned, coming down from my high with my eyes shut right.

"Well that was alright weren't it" Kyle said after we'd both came down from our highs. He pulled out a ciggerate and started smoking. This is what I liked, no gooy, all we did was get off and that was it. We had never fucked, never felt the need or want too, it was just simply a bit of fun.

"Do you think he heard?" I asked laughing, pointing at Danny.

"Nah he's out, then again, maybe who cares" we laughed. Danny knew that we did this sometimes, he never held any judgment because he knew it was nothing but at the same time I don't think he'd appreciate us doing it when he was about 3 meters away from him.

" I fucked up Haz" he said.

"With what? Get a girl pregnant" I asked taking the cigarette from his mouth.

"Nah, not that bad Jesus, I just did something I shouldn't"

"We all fuck up Ky" I said thinking back to this morning, Lennon, family, Megan.

"Yeh I guess"

"Hey I don't care what you've done man, we've got eachothers backs, alright?"

"Cheers man" he said as he looked at eachother and laughed, nudging shoulders.

AN// I hope you guys are liking this so far :)
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We all love a bit of gay Harry :)