That's supposed to be
Yeah, all the pain,
all the sorrow

In the days following, Jin-Goo spoke to Namjoon about his feelings for you. Seeing Namjoon openly distance himself from you shattered your heart into a million pieces. He even avoided your gaze, and he no longer looks at you. It seemed like he was always doing something in the library, class president/monitor jobs, or working hard in the music studio.

He doesn't want to be with you on the same bus, even taking an earlier or later bus. Because he ignores you openly, you couldn't confront him because you were so confused. Even Tala notices Namjoon's cold demeanour around you. It is hard for you to understand what you did to warrant such behaviour from him.

His name is known to everybody because he was already signed to Bighit. Between 2009 and 2010, he became more famous in the underground rap scene. He did underground rap shows.

When you and Jin-Goo visited the mall one Saturday, you saw Namjoon holding hands with his ex-girlfriend as they walked into the cinema complex. You guys were coming out of a retail music store when he spotted you.

His eyes met yours, and he looked at you with a look of regret. A wave from them returned a wave from Jin-Goo. A big smile spreads across his girlfriend's face as she pulls him inside by the elbow. He still had his eyes on you, but he quickly turned his attention to his girlfriend.

It was shocking and excruciating to watch them so relaxed and happy together. Your tears prickled at the corner of your eyes as Jin-Goo looked at you apologetically and filled with regret.

"Vic I'm sorry that you had to see that. I think it's better this way. There's no way you can let him find out. It's dangerous." He hugged your shoulders.

While you wiped your tears, you glanced up at your precious cousin, who would do anything to keep you safe.

Is it better for whom, you think?

Love stinks!

"Can we go home? I don't need anything right now...please Jin-Goo." You swallow, trying to prevent more tears from falling.

There is no point in being at the mall. It was too much for your heart. The pain of betrayal is unbearable.

Jin-Goo can see how devastated you are...but it has to be that way. Namjoon is about to debut, and he will have to break up any relationships he might have. He cannot allow You to become more deeply in love with him.

As he sat on the bus, he looked at your stoic face. No emotions describe how you feel at that moment.

You gaze out the window at the passing scenery. You could feel your heart growing colder and harder as the weather relaxed.

There is no way anyone, not even Namjoon, can make a fool of you... What did he promise you?...to love you at a distance...what a joke!

It is possible to confess to someone that you love them? However, ignore them the following day.

Like a princess, you will bear your pain with elegance and dignity. You want to be at home and cry your eyes out...dealing with the pain and carrying on with your life. No one will know how broken you are right now.

You'll see them laughing, kissing, and holding hands at school. The pain you feel will be buried deep inside you until the day you meet your soulmate. The only thing you want to do is forget him forever.

Jin-Goo looked at you sadly, "I'm sorry he broke your heart, Vic...he's my friend, and-"

With flashing eyes, you look at your best friend," How can I be broken-hearted? Joon and I never dated. Maybe he just played with my feelings... making a fool of the young nerd... perhaps it was a bet to break my heart...don't worry, Jin-Goo...I'm a big girl now...a few months from now, we'll be gone...I'll be gone."

"Vic", Jin-Goo whispers, "I hate to see you sad. Namjoon likes sexy and tall girls, I'm sorry to tell you that...but it seems like you weren't his real type because you had to disguise your personality... and the way you dressed."

"Well then, he is a narcissist, and he deserves his airhead girlfriend. I would like to forget Namjoon of this day and this incident. Let's never revisit it. I refused to listen to you. I was a fool and didn't listen. I now suffer the consequences," you cry bitterly.

Seeing how you pursed your lips, Jin-Goo looked at you worriedly. He knows you love him. However, he knows that Namjoon's actions deeply hurt you.

He had no idea Namjoon would go so far as to date his ex again. Namjoon liked his cousin, but he had to give up on her.

When you got home, you told your parents you weren't hungry and went straight to your room. A side wing of the house belonged to Jin-Goo.

When you were alone in your room, you gave in to your emotions. That night, you cried yourself to sleep. The next day, your best friend sent you a text message informing you she had the flu and would stay at home.

Feeling miserable was more intense than ever. All-day, you avoid any contact with the boys...You can't even hide in the library...You saw Namjoon coming into the library looking through the section where you always sat, so you hid behind a big, sturdy guy with a prominent newspaper in front of you.

You walk sadly to class until three girls stand in front of you. Oh no, not now!

Jin-Goo ex-girlfriend exclaimed, "Oh, so little Miss Dorkie is all by herself today... where's your partner, Miss Ugly Nerd!".

Despite the other minions pushing you on your shoulders, you didn't say anything because you don't have the strength to be sassy.

Jin-Goo's ex exclaimed, "Cat got your tongue, Dorkie, it was you who made him leave me...You wreck my relationship, just because you can't find love ...-yourself. I'll never forgive or forget you," she said. She doesn't like you.

You spat back, "He doesn't like you...get it in your head! How stupid can you be!". You felt a stinging sensation on your cheek where she slapped you. Your head jerks back. Tears well up in your eyes as you grab your cheek.

When a teacher spotted you four from afar, she scolded, "Get to class! You'll receive detention!". shoo, go back to your level before you receive detention!"

Three bullies ran back to their class in the opposite direction. While you rush to the restrooms to refresh yourself, the red finger marks already appear on your stinging cheek. After rinsing your face, you hope the best.

Seeing the class teacher wasn't there yet, you quickly slipped in undetected. After taking out your workbook, you began to complete the exercises written on the board. It was time for the home teacher to take attendance. She was working in the office.

Suddenly, a presence appeared in the doorway... The teacher beckoned the student inside. Your teacher and the student are conversing near the entrance.

As you stared at him, you felt the blood drain from your face. Namjoon simply shook his head. Several girls make naughty kissy faces and make catcall noises at him. Until the teacher calms them down, while he briefly looked at you, you kept your eyes firmly fixed on the board.

Your teacher asks, "Miss Choi, Me Chang would like to see you.". Is Me Chang looking for something?

The question was, "What for?". You won't go with Namjoon for sure.

"Come on, Vic, hurry up. It might be your third-year worksheets", she responded. Namjoon must return to class. "

You sighed, stood up reluctantly and followed Namjoon out of the classroom. After you turned left into another hallway, he abruptly turned around and pushed you into the janitor's closet.

You whisper in disbelief, "What the hell! Namjoon!".

You were quickly caged in on the wall after he shut the door.

You were entrapped by Namjoon's arms when he put them next to your head. He frowns as he sees the red marks on your face. You moved your head away from him when he wanted to touch it.

"What makes you run from me? "I ask.

You look stunned at him, "I didn't run from you...I don't want to see you...did Ms Chang call me?"

Namjoon looks deeply into your annoying eyes and sighs, "No, I want to see you and apologise."

You look at him in shock, "for what?...ignoring me for a week, not looking me in the eye, avoiding my presence...dating your ex once again. Was too cowardice to tell me in my face that your con...confession to me was just a joke... a bet!" The tears are falling from your eyes as you rant on. It's evident from your voice that you are heartbroken.

"I'm sorry, Vicsy, for hurting you like that... I should've told you that I got my ex back again... I should've never confessed to you so soon..." he looks ashamed and sad.

Looking him in the eyes, you said with a shaking voice, "You promised to love me from a distance...and you have broken your promise. You should have told me! You could've told me Namjoon. I thought I did something wrong...You said you have no time to date..yet you are dating your ex?"

A broken voice from Namjoon says, "I'm sorry; I should have told you...I realised..."  He takes a deep breath and looks down. "I realised I still love my ex more, but I do ca-"

Pain filled your eyes and  with a crack in your voice you uttered," Please save it, and I don't  need your sympathy. I tell you what...you are worse than all those bullies combined...You let me believe in the purity of love...but what you did to me made me think you loved me. You kissed me.Worse than this slap in the face, the hair-pulling, the harassment from your ex... I loved you; now you broke my trust in men.You did it to me!" pointing at yourself,with tears streaming from your eyes.

The look on Namjoon's face is conflicted and shocked at the words you are saying.
"Vicsy," he whispers the unique nickname he gave you.

Holding up your hands to stop him from talking and with flashing eyes you say,

" Do not ever call me that again!I would appreciate it if you let me fall out of love with you...please do not talk to me ever again. As long as you ignore my existence, I will ignore yours... I will forget about you, and this puppy love isn't real...be happy with your ex...that as sure as hell exist. I will be happy without you." You spat for the last time...looking deep into the boy's eyes you'll ever love, you pushed his arms back and fled out of the door.

Namjoon seems devastated. Sadly, he lost the only girl he ever loved. Jin-Goo, darn you. The moment she saw him with his ex. He could not imagine how betrayed she felt. She asked him to take her to the film they had promised each other a few weeks ago. Now they're just friends. He will never date his ex again.

In frustration, he hit the wall. It's a mess!

The last thing he wants is for her to forget him. Now she hates him. He ruined her view of love...she'll never open herself up to love again...omg, he singlehandedly broken her heart.

Holding onto his hair, he feels his eyes start to tear up, "Oh my gosh, Vicsy...I love you so much," he exclaimed.

Since that fateful day, you and your best friend, Tala, stay away from the boys at school. You don't look at Namjoon unintentionally or willfully. It was like he is erased from existence.

The decision to forget him was made. When you told your best friend you weren't in love with Namjoon anymore, she was surprised. You never saw the sad, longing look Namjoon gave you when no one was watching. You never bother to look him in the eye, and you ignore his existence as well.

You told Jin-Goo to talk to the bullies before you took them out with your martial arts.

Namjoon was constantly seen with his girlfriend.

......

A few days ago

Jin-Goo pov

It was break time. Before Namjoon and Jackson left class, Jin-Goo saw Namjoon busy arranging his books. Since you've been so busy in class with the class project, you haven't had the chance to socialise even during class.

Namjoon is about to head for the door when you grab his elbow. Namjoon frowns at your solemn expression.

"Could we talk quickly?" You asked him.

Namjoon nodded confusedly, "So, what's on your mind?"

Jin-Goo breathed deeply. "Is it about you and Vicky?"

Namjoon paled and gulped,"Vicky and me, what about us?

Jin-Goo said, sternly, "Whatever is happening between you two needs to stop, Namjoon, we are seniors. Her focus should be on completing her studies. Would you please not distract her? There is no denying that you are in love with her, and she is in love with you as well...but it cannot be. Her parents instructed me to watch out for her ... and dating is not permitted."

Namjoon sighs, "Jin-Goo, we already established that we are not looking for a relationship...we know that we can't date...you told us all she was out of the race. I respect that?"

' Namjoon, and she is distracted by you...she is hyper-aware and nervous around you, and can't even concentrate on her projects..so can you please do something about it?' Sighs Jin -Goo

Namjoon asked with a bit of frustration, "What must I do?... I told her I loved her from a distance...she knows that?"

Jin-Goo inhaled deeply." I want you to befriend your ex once more...Vicky will give up on you if she sees you with someone else...she will get over you...even if you break it to her...I will help her get over you... it's not hard...you're not soulmates, so you'll leave for the music scene...you can't date in Kpop."

In a worried tone, Namjoon says, "I don't even like my ex...but I can try...It's on you if she doesn't recover. I love her Jin-Goo . It was always her," he says. That's terrible! How can he harm her like that?

Jin-Goo hardens his eyes toward Namjoon. "I don't care...her life is already complicated. She's strong..she'll get over it."

Jin-Goo turned around and left the classroom, leaving a gloomy Namjoon behind.

A/n: Thank you so much for all the support. Don't forget to vote and comment. Please don't be a ghost. I would like to know more about you.