"I know you are not okay....."

For a whole 5 minutes there was silence in the room I raised my eyebrows with my head from the pillow trying to speak but it was like words had died in my throat only. There was a lot to say, a lot to express but I didn't have the correct words. I didn't know how to start from where should I begin.... From my childhood since my mom died? or since my dad married someone else? I felt slight pain in my throat reaching around my nose Slightly making it red. I wanted to forget them, I never want to talk about them again. But the burden was too much to bear I didn't know should I express it and let everything out or not.

Since I met Ava I can only trust her she's my Violet, the only person I could trust. Or in front of everyone I'm just a psycho.

"Tell me... Are you really okay?"

She again asked making me snap out of my thoughts

"Yeah... Yeah... I'm fine. What will happen to me?", I tried to assure her everything is okay even if it was not.

"Adrien stop lying! It's your daily dialogue".

"I said I'm okay!!"

Here I knew she was going to say it. She really want me to express? Will she really understand me? Or it's again someone playing with me? No probably it's me stupid obsessed with her. Her Nightmare.

"I know you are not and-"

"Miss Kent? There's a phone call for you."

She was interrupted by a nurse. I took a breath in relief, I really didn't want to talk about the past right now. She looked at me once before leaving the room.
Here once again I was left in this room alone with my own thought trying to figure out many things. Since the start I have been trapped in my own thoughts not knowing what i should think there's a whole thought traffic going on in my mind just like outside in City of New York. Agh I hate these sounds these all just remind me of an accident where I nearly crashed myself and lost someone precious.

3:04 a.m

"Adrien?"

"Wake up sleepyhead!"

"It's 9 PM now!!"

"Dada is going to Italy! You won't bid him bye? Or at least look from the window."

"If you behave like a good boy he might bring you your favorite chocolates."

"Mama I'm sleepy....."

A four year old boy whispered while rubbing his eyes with his tiny hand trying to snuggle into the soft toy beside him. His favorite stuff toy! Brought by his mum on his second birthday day.

"No come on kid... It's 9 now. Open your eyes! See even Coco is trying to wake you up."

His tiny face was being licked by his pet dog a puppy named Coco a Golden Retriever.

"Uh Coco stop I'm awake!!"

He yelled while giggling pulling the puppy owards him getting up from his bed. Suddenly everything started to disappear. His mom started to step away in darkness it was like the Sun rays disappeared and the sky was covered in darkness. His puppy Coco started to vanish from his arms. Everywhere there was darkness he was left alone in a dark room. His room more like a play area was looking like a child's old room closed for years without cleaning. The toys looked broken, his teddy bear was looking dirty and torn, The teddy bear's head was falling apart just attached from some threads in the corner. Cotton was coming out from the inside of the teddy bear.

He threw the teddy bear away getting scared. The sight was not good for a four year old little guy like him.

"Adrien!!! Wake up!!! What happened!!?"

I woke up from bed breath heavily, my hand on my chest to catch breath I looked here and there.

"Where am I...?"

"In your room. In the hospital where you have been since the age of fourteen. I'm Ava. Your doctor."

"Violet?"

I finally came back in the sense looking at her she was rubbing my back to help me to catch breath. I again glanced at her she was still wearing her white coat and the Stethoscope was still around her neck. I thought my cheers feeling wet and little sticky around them.

Tears?

Again?

Again I was seeing it.

I looked in the whole room again looking at my side trying to find my teddy bear.

"Violet! Where's my teddy bear?"

"Teddy bear? What? What are you talking about? You don't have a teddy bear. A person at the age of 25 won't have a teddy bear."

"I don't have? "

"No."

I looked at her being confused. She was looking at me confused too. We both had the same expression on our faces.

"I swear I had a teddy bear he..he was looking alright then suddenly he looked so bad in the most imperfect condition." I tried to explain to her but she just kept cutting me off.

"Adrien."

"I swear he was here-"

"Adrien!"

"What!?", I looked at her being annoyed, why she's not trying to listen to me I swear it was here beside me!

"You know what? Just rest. It's 3:45 a.m I'm staying in hospital just because of you, you really need to rest... Please.."

"3:45 a.m?".

"Look out!", She opened the curtain for me I looked out it was night. I glanced at the clock and she was saying the truth it's the same time.

It was a dream?

It has to be.

I laid in bed again looking at her. She made me lay down on bed while she was sitting on a stool beside my bed looking at me whispering everything is fine.

"You will stay here right? Till morning?"

"Until you wake up again.", She gave me a soft smile I smiled softly when she assured me she would stay till I woke up again. I only need her at this time. Only her. I closed my eyes thinking about the nightmare. It was horrible. I don't want to think again. I will tell her everything in the morning. I can't handle these all now.

23rd April, 2016
11:12 a.m

"Mr Grayson.....there's a phone call for you....."