𝗛𝗼𝘄 𝗜'𝗺 𝗙𝗲𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴
𝗖𝗼𝗰𝗼 𝘅 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗲𝗿
𝗢𝗻𝗲𝘀𝗵𝗼𝘁𝘀 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗖𝗼𝗰𝗼 𝗩𝗮𝗻 𝗗𝗶𝗷𝗸

I ring the bell of the Van Dijk's residence, waiting for my best friend to come out. Ruel has been my best friend for years now, and today we both plan to go to the mall together. Thirty seconds pass and the door doesn't open. Frustrated, I pull out my phone and shoot a text to Ruel.

Lanky ass

Yo I'm standing out of your
house you coming or not?
read

I'm coming chill

I sigh, placing my phone back in my pocket. I look around in their garden to see various types of flowers and herbs planted which intrigue me. I get pulled out of my thoughts when I hear the door opening.

Coco.

Coco Van Dijk, Ruel's older sister.

Also known as the girl I have had a crush on since me and Ruel became friends.

My heart rate picks up speed as I see her come out of her house and walk towards me. Calm down, I say to myself before taking in a deep breathe.

"H-hey Coco," I say with a smile, mentally face palming myself for stuttering.

"Hi, how are you?" She asks, smiling back at me.

Her smile, it's worth a thousand suns.

"I'm good, just waiting for Ruel to come out," I say with a dry chuckle at the end, "what about you?"

"I'm good too, and Ruel is such a bitch honestly, he takes more time than me to get ready." She says, laughing, making me laugh along with her too.

Her laugh, it's like pure liquid gold to my ears.

That's when we both hear Ruel coming out of the door. He walks up to us and bends down to give me a hug. He looks at Coco and sticks his tongue out at her, to which she reacts by rolling her eyes and smacking his arm.

"Well, have fun both of you!" She says and I nod at her, before walking out of the gate onto the road. In silence, me and Ruel walk to his car and sit inside. He starts the car and begins the drive to the mall.

Ruel very well knows about my crush on Coco, and he keeps on urging me to tell her about it. But there is no chance that Coco Van Dijk likes me back. She is a pure goddess and then there's... me.

"You gonna tell her anytime soon or not?" Ruel says, a smirk playing his lips. His eyes are fixated on the road ahead of us. A heavy hearted sigh escapes my lips as I lean my head against the window, looking out at the houses pass by.

"I don't have the guts, I mean, there is no chance that she has a crush on me too." I let out. A small silence surrounds us, as we hear the music flowing through the radio, Tame Impala to be exact.

"How do you know she doesn't like you? You haven't even asked her once. What if she does?"

"Ruel, Coco is so beautiful, she has the perfect hair, the perfect eyes and the perfect smile. And she is even more beautiful on the inside. She has the purest heart. I- I am nothing compared to her. Nothing at all."

"You know what," he says, raising his voice slightly, "it's been so many years since I've heard you talk about you having a crush on her. And everytime I say the same thing to you; talk to her. Tell her. But no, you don't listen to me. This time however, things are gonna be different. When we come back from the mall, you will confess to her, no matter what."

I don't reply to him. He's right, I have been talking to him about how I like Coco since so long, and everytime he says the same thing. I don't have the guts to let her know this, but I have been keeping this in me for way to long. It's time that she knows.

"Okay," I say, swallowing the huge lump in my throat. Ruel looks at me for a second with a small smile on his face, which I return back.

❄︎

TWO HOURS LATER

After an immense shopping spree which lasted for two hours, me and Ruel finally drive up back to his home. I pick up our shopping bags and get out of the car, walking inside Ruel's house. I place the bags on the couch, before walking inside the kitchen to get myself a glass of water.

To my surprise, Coco is inside the kitchen, preparing what seems as instant noodles. She turns around to notice me in the kitchen.

"Oh you're back, I didn't realise when you came. How was the trip to the mall?" She asks, draining the water from the noodles by putting them in a sieve and holding it over the sink.

"It was good, I bought uh... some clothes and some jewelery." I say to her, as I see her take the drained noodles and put them in a pan to cook them among the sauces.

"Oh that's cool," she says, her arm mixing the noodles in the pan. I feel someone push me closer to her, and look around to see Ruel. He gestures me to walk up to her and gives me a thumbs up. I nod at him and notice him leave the kitchen.

It's now or never, I say to myself.

"Coco," I begin, "I wanted to talk to you."

"Sure, what is it?" She says, her eyes still fixated on the noodles in the pan.

"It's serious, please." Her hand loosens its grip on the spoon in her hand until it entirely loses it's contact with it. She slows down the flame and turns around to look at me, her forehead creasing slightly.

"What is it?" She asks, "You can talk to me about anything, and I will listen to you and try my best to help you out."

"Well, you see, uh..." I mumble, suddenly losing my confidence and having trouble searching for the right words.

"Yeah?" she says encouragingly, looking at me. My eyes roam around everywhere except at her. She lightly grips my cheek and makes me look at her. "What happened?"

"I- Coco I- I like you. A lot." I blurt out. Her eyes widen slightly and her hand leaves my cheek. She looks down at the floor, not looking at me at all.

I messed it up, I mumble, knowing nothing will ever remain the same everytime I will step into this house.

"It's okay, you don't have to say anything," I mutter, turning around my back towards her, already feeling tears forming in my eyes. But before I could leave the kitchen, I feel her soft hand grip my wrist.

"No wait," she says. I stop in my tracks and turn around, this time both of us looking at each other, "I- I like you too. A lot."

Huh?

I'm sorry, but did Coco Van Dijk just say that she likes me?

Me?

She likes me?

"You, you do?" I say, my eyes gleaming with happiness. She nods. My lips curve into a smile as my hands hold onto hers. She slightly bends in, making me bend in too, allowing our lips to meet for a short sweet second. I lean my forehead against hers, feeling nothing but pure bliss.

"I have been waiting to do that for so long," I whisper, slightly nudging her nose. She lets out a soft giggle.

"Finally!" We hear Ruel, making us turn around to look at him. "Finally you admitted it to her. I was getting tired honestly." He says. I laugh at him, along with Coco, before looking at her and getting lost in her eyes once again.

Author's note

Hi hello welcome to How I'm Feeling! I hope you liked this one xo

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With love through health and sickness
Keziah