LILIANA
Today sucks. It fucking sucks. My favorite vase that my mom gave me is broken. Shattered in pieces. I try my best not to let another tear fall down but it does. "Hey! Can I come in?" I hear a muffled voice through the door followed by a knock.

Before I could open the door the person came in. "Cole." I mumble as I wipe my tears away. "Hey, are you ok?" His voice softness as he walks up to me. "Yeah, yeah I'm fine."

"Your not. What happened? Is it the vase? Im so sorry-"

"Look Cole, I said I'm fine. It just.. was a gift. From my mom." I mumble as my eyes sting from the thought of my mom. "Shit.. I'm so sorry, Lils." His hands wrap around my body pulling me into a warm hug.

Something about that makes me cry. I haven't had a good hug from anyone. I sobbed through his shirt."Liliana, dont cry. Please don't cry."

"Sorry.." I rasp out as I pull away gently. His thumbs brush my cheeks slowly. "Your beautiful face is going to get ruined." He mumbles out. Even though that was kind of cheesy it was making my heart melt. He was making my heart melt.

"I guess you have to go hang out with Alex, now, huh?" His voice softness. "I guess I do." I mumbled, not wanting to leave. "Don't go, Lils." It was that one nickname that ruined me.

Screw it. "Fine. Let's just stay here.."

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Me and Cole talked for hours. Not even kidding. It felt amazing to talk to someone after this entire time. I didn't completely tell him about how I feel but I'm getting there.

I think I might like him. And I think he might like me. I don't know but.. it just seems so pure and genuine.

It's Thanksgiving today. I used to be so happy this day. Helping my dad make the turkey, setting up the table.

God, thinking about all that sucks. It really does. Jackie's out with Erin. Surprising combo, but apparently Erin is really nice.

I head downstairs and see everyone setting up everything I go up to Cole. "Hey there!" I exclaim. "Shit, hi Lily." He gives me a quick smile and goes back to setting the plates. "Look at Mr. Walter, helping." I laugh. "Yeah yeah." He chuckles.

We both turn to the door as we hear laughter. I see Jackie and Erin. Aw, im glad she's happy.

They both join us for dinner and it was really fun. Now, I had to face my Uncle. As much as I love him, I was kinda dreading facing him face-to-face.

"Liliana." His stiff voice spoke.

"Uncle Richard." I tried my best imitation of his voice but he wasn't laughing. I mumble sorry under my breath.

"This is serious. Skipping school and drinking? How are you going to get into yale like this?"

I wasn't listening because.. I saw Cole with Jakie behind us. He was putting a flower in her ear and she was smiling, a lot. I've never seen her this happy.

Is it wrong I want that to be me? Why is he with her? Does he like her? Does she like him?

"Are you listening to what I'm saying, Lily?!" I snap out of my trance when I hear my uncle yell at me. Both, Jackie and Cole look towards us and my cheeks heat out of embarrassment.

"Whats going on? This is not the way to grieve and you know it."

I scoff. "You think it's so easy, huh? So easy pretending to be the perfect child with the perfect marks with the perfect behavior but I'm not perfect, at all!" My eyes started to water.

My uncle looks at me shocked. "I'm sorry uncle Richard but it's really hard." Tears were threatening to fall down. "Oh Liliana come here." He pulls me into a hug. I'm not going to cry. I'm going to be strong.

"Just. Don't do those kinds of stuff again. You know I want the best for you, right?"

"Yeah." I nod. I turn to see if their still there but no. They left.

My mind kept warning me that Cole is trouble. My heart just couldn't listen. So much for having a nice Thanksgiving.