i got another text from Coco, saying he was outside. I went to my window and open it.

"What are you doing? Its late." I said from the window.

"I came to see you." I shook my head and i went downstairs. I walked to Coco, who was tired.

"Go to sleep Johnny, you need it." I told him.

"Lets go to the yard." I went on the bike and we drove to the yard. We sneaked in the trailer. Coco began to kiss my neck.

"Coco, amor." I managed to say as we went to the bed. "Whats going on?" Coco took off his jeans and vest and laid down next to me.

"I just need you." He whispered to me. "I've been thinking about stuff." I turned to him.

"Want to talk about it?" I put my hand on his face.

"Its just the MC, Adelita, and the whole thing with Galindo. Im just tired." I gave him a smile.

"Hey, its gonna work out. You, Johnny Cruz, you are gonna be okay. Dont worry about it. You got Gilly and Angel."

"And Ezekiel." I sat up. "Angel told him."

"Fuck. How did he take it?" He laid me down and wrapped his arms around me.

"Better than Angel expected. He doesn't know that you know." I nodded. His eyes started to drop.

"Go to sleep Coco." I kissed his lips. He closed his eyes. I took off my jeans and my shirt and laid next to him. We faced each other and slept quickly. The morning rolled by and we got up. I got changed and brushed my teeth. Coco did the same when i was done. "See you later." I told him as I walked out of the trailer.

"Adios amor." I made my way to the front and began to walk back. I didn't feel like working today so I texted my father. I went to the corner shop to get some cigarettes.

"$20." I handed the man a $20 bill. He gave me my cigarettes. I walked around town with my cigarette hanging from my mouth.

"Marisol!" I stopped walking and closed my eyes. I decided not to cause anymore trouble and walk away. I walked across the street. "Marisol wait!" I turned to see Christina. I rolled my eyes and waited for her.

"What is it Christina? Are you here to tell me how much you hate me?" I took a puff of my cigarette.

"No." She looked around and came close to me. "Do you still have you know?"

"I dont know what you mean." I turned around but Christina grabbed my hand.

"Coke." She sighed.

"Nope." I tried to walk away but she came in front of me. "Christina."

"Just give it to me and I'll promise to not say anything about you anymore."

"I dont have anything." I looked away.

"Please, Marisol." She begged. She pulled out $100. And gave it to me. I looked around and I came close to her. I gave her the money back.

"Why me Christina? You can ask anyone on campus, but you came to me." She didnt look at me. "Ah, right, you just want to keep that popularity in check."

"Just, Please. Ill get out of your hair." I shook my head. "Are you using?" I got choked up.

Flashback: senior year, the last party of high school. Bunch of people were there. Gomez threw the party as a farewell. Me, Christina, and some other friends were in her bedroom.

"Come one Reyes, one wont hurt." Christina said as she finished a line.

"I dont know, im trying not to ruin my life." I told her as I took a sip from my beer.

"One! One! One!" The girl sang.

"I would like to stay sober so one of you fuckers wont OD." I said.

"Right." They laughed but then it stopped. "Yessina!" We ran up to her. She was shaking.

"Fuck!"

I bit my lip after I thought about Yessina.

"I never done it. After Yessina died, I never touched anything." Christina looked up. "Now, get out of my way." She nodded. "I really wish you stopped." I walked away from her. I walk as far away from her and at down on a bench. I put my head on my hands. That night was a scary night. I took a deep breath and I walked down the street. I couldn't take my mind off of Christina neither Yessina. I went to my desk and began my paper work.

"Hey there Marisol." I jumped as Chucky scared me.

"Gosh, uh, hey." I smiled at him.

"How are you and Coco?"

"We're okay, thanks for asking." I started to do the MCs schedule. I sighed.

"I bet you miss him. I mean you barely see each other because of work and runs."

"I really do."

"Well, ill be back." Chucky said and he left. I put my head down. It was already getting late. I had to stay longer to finish some papers because im so behind. I rubbed my eyes.

Coco: meet me later at the club?

I shyly smiled.

Marisol: Ill see you later.

I put up my hoodie and walked back to the clubhouse. The boys were back. I walked in the house and i saw everyone with girls. I saw someone sitting alone. It was Coco. I walked up to him and sat next to him.

"Marisol." I gave him a smile.

"Hey lover boy." I held his hand.

"I thought you weren't gonna come."

"And not see my lovely boyfriend? I won't miss it for the world." I touch his face. A song started to play. "Dance with me?"

"You know I don't dance."

"Just one." He gave up and we slowly danced in the corner for nobody to see. I felt safe in his arms. He made me a better person.

"Mi Amor." He kissed me. Nobody was looking. "Want to?"

"Yes." We snuck out and went to the trailer. We passionately kissed. Every time I see him, my world shuts down and only focusing on him. Even if its falling down, Johnny is there to pick up the pieces. He was my glue.

"I want you." I took his vest and shirt off. Coco laid me down gently and kissed my body. I played with his hair. He took off my pants, leaving me exposed. He lined himself up and slowly pushed into me. He was so close to me, holding me tightly against him. There was a sharp, quick pain that caused you to draw in a breath. Coco held himself over me, watching me closely, gauging every reaction I had to even the slightest movement. Eventually I nodded him on and he began moving slowly. I dug my nails into his back, wrapping my legs around him. "Johnny." I whispered.

"Marisol fuck." He whispered back. I grabbed his chin. We looked at each other. I saw his eyes, he was upset. He dropped his head on my chest. We both finished and we laid next to each other. "I was at shot today."

"Really?"

"Yeah with a 45 caliber hasbro." I started to giggle.

"Wow a 45 caliber Hasbro. You're lucky to be alive." I joked with him. He took a long sigh. "Amor?"

"If i told you, i feel like you wont feel the same way about me." I covered myself with the blanket and looked at Coco.

"Nothing will change the feelings i have for you. Nothing." He held my hand and kissed it.

"I have two kids, with two different mothers. Theres a reason why Im not in their lives. I want to tell you, but it was shame." He looked at me. "Dont be mad."

"Johnny, I can't be mad at you for things that happened before me. Where would that get me?" I kissed him. "Im not going to leave you. You have my word on that." He hugged me.  He rubbed his thumb against my cheek. Coco sat up again.

"You're gonna hate me."

"Try me."

"I have to see my mom." I clenched my jaw. You probably know that me and Celia didn't really like each other.

"Okay." I got dressed and waited for him.

"You're not coming." He put his hand on my waist. "I have to talk to her. Im fucking mad at right her, But ill drop you off."

"Okay." I nodded. We went to car and he drove me to my house.

"I hate to leave you like this."

"Dont worry Coco." I kissed him. "Ill see you tomorrow." I closed the car door and walked to my house. Nobody was home. I felt sad, Coco told me a secret about him, but i dont have the balls to tell me but my deal with Jimenez. I want to tell him. I started to cry. I dropped everything and went to my dads room. I went straight to the closet and saw my moms clothes. I grabbed her favorite sweater and i hugged it. "Mama, help me please. What can I do?" I sobbed. The sweater still smelled like her.