While Happy sat inside the living room with Jax, Gemma and Rico, Madison had taken a moment with Jesse and sat down with him on the balcony, her eyes fixed on the lovely sunset. At moments like that she just felt peace, calm; but she was still too upset by all the events that even the sunset couldn't help her to forget everything. That would have been too nice to be true.

“You have no idea how scared I was.” Jesse's voice was muffled as he let the smoke from the joint he shared with Madison slip out of his mouth, his gaze fixed on the setting sun. “Not knowing where you are, how you are doing, if youᅳ”, he swallowed quietly, unable to finish the sentence.

Which, however, Madison then carefully did for him and watched him from the corner of her eye. “If I'm even alive?”

“Yeah”, Jesse let out in a whisper, nodding.

“I'm here now and I'm not going anywhere.” She sympathetically reached for his hand, which she squeezed comfortingly. The brunette was aware that Jesse had suffered as well, after all, the two had always been inseparable and she felt horrible that he had felt so helpless and desperate.

“I know.” Averting his gaze from the sun, he slowly turned his head and eyed the brunette with concern. “How are you really dealing with all of this, Mads? The truth, please.”

Madison took the joint he handed her and took a long drag, holding the smoke in her lungs for a few seconds before letting it out and glide over her lips, somewhat lost in thought at Jesse's question.

“I feel like shit. The things Steven did will probably haunt me for a while”, she honestly admitted, her voice sounding so vulnerable it broke Jesse's heart.

His sister had always been his main person. Except for the only three real friends he had, he hadn't had anyone else but her. The two had been inseparable, always on their own. And for her he had always wanted  a happy lifeᅳ that now had to suffer because of a psychopath.

“Do you think you can do it on your own? Getting over it?”, he asked cautiously, his thumb rubbing the back of her hand as her hands began to tremble slightly.

“I'm not alone”, she replied with a faint smile after a moment. “I've got you, Happy, a mom who cares about my well-being, Jax. There's also Izzy and Tara; both of them are great.”

“That sounds good.” Nodding, he looked into the distance again, a satisfied sigh escaped his lips before he looked back at his sister. “I'm really glad you found a real family here. At least one of us can build a better life nowᅳ you really deserve that.”

“You can have that too, Jesse.” She looked at him with urgency, swiveled slightly in her chair, and put the joint in the ashtray to focus on her brother. “Move here, to Charming. You have nothing in Albuquerque but Walter White who will eventually get you in trouble with his greed for money. Here you have me and you'll gain a great family as well.”

And man, she would be really happy to have Jesse here. Her gut just told her that he would fit in perfectly here, maybe even as a prospect for the Sons. Jesse was someone you could count on even when times were tough, and while he often seemed high-spirited and unfocused, he had one hell of a loyal personality.

“I can't”, he sighed, ruffling  his hair after he pulled off his beanie and placed it in his lap. “Mr. White will never let me go just like that and if I end up in jail I won't be able to visit you anymore.”

“You have to get rid of this guy, Jesse, he's pure poison for you”, she urged the slightly older one, concern written all over her face. “I could ask Happy and Jax if the club can help you with that if you can't get out of Mr. White's spiderweb on your own.”

“Nah”, Jesse shook his head. Although he would have gladly accepted the offer, he didn't want to get anyone else he liked in trouble. “I have to do this on my own. As cold as that sounds now; he doesn't have much time anyway.”

It sounded cold, yes. But Walt's death would be the only way out for Jesse, and Madison knew that. She would love to tell her old teacher what an asshole he was. Even if he had helped her with his testimony months ago, that didn't mean that she had to approve of everything he did. And when it came to her brother, she would do anything to protect him.

Defeated, she nodded and squeezed his hand again. “Promise me that you take care of yourself, okay? Because I need you.”

“You know me, yo. I never know what I'm doing and yet I'm still alive”, he looked at her with a grin, also to lighten the mood a bit. He didn't want her to get even more worried.

“Yeah, that's a miracle. Sometimes I wonder how you've come so far”, she chuckled in reply.

“I have my ways”, he winked, leaning forward slightly and picking up the joint again.

“Hey, uh, did dad ask about me once? You said that you told him about the kidnapping so he can help with the search”, she paused, not so sure anymore if she wanted to know the answer at all. But the curiosity won. “Did he even worry?”

Jesse's long silence was actually answer enough and it hit her pretty hard to know that her own father would have handled it just fine if she had never come back. But there was still a glimmer of hope, maybe she would get a different answer than she expected.

“Do you really want to know?” Jesse asked softly, scratching his head sighing, unable to even look at Madison, too ashamed of their father.

“Well, yeah..”, the brunette nodded uncertainly and rubbed her hands together nervously.

“I let him know as soon as I heard about it, after all we could use any help and even though he and mom are jerks I felt like they should know about it. For a brief moment I was sure I saw fear flash in his eyes, but then there was just that cold, dismissive look again”, the older Pinkman snorted as he took another hit of the joint. “He said he didn't want to know anything about it andᅳ and that it's our own fault if we keep getting into trouble.”

Madison's bitter laugh echoed in the crisp evening air and all she could do was shake her head. That was really low, even for her father. If Diane and his church friends hadn't brainwashed him all the time, their relationship would probably be better today.

“What have we done wrong that they despise us so much?”, she asked, her tone bitter and filled with disappointment. “I would be devastated if anything happened to him no matter what our relationship is. And him? He just blames us for everything.”

“Yo, look at me.” Jesse pinched her arm gently and leaned over the side of his chair, his blue eyes locked directly on her green ones. “Fuck it. Even if it hurts, you now have a family that cares about you, that loves you. Fuck Adam and Diane, dimples.”

Madison didn't dare contradict Jesse. For a very simple reason; he was right with what he said. The family she now had cared about her, gave her what Adam and Diane couldn't give her in the last twenty six years. And for that she was grateful. Nevertheless, she would eventually show her father how hurt she was.

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After Gemma and Jax left and Izzy had picked up Rico, Happy and Madison spent the rest of the evening with Jesse, who was now sleeping on her sofa while she was snuggled up with Happy in their bed.

The painkillers worked and helped her to get through the day relatively pain-free and even now she felt okay. Only the wounds on her back gave her a hard time in between. But she lay here with the love of her life, that made everything better.

“Forget your parents, little girl”, Happy rasped, who was lying on his side as well as her so they were facing each other. He wasn't stupid and could see that her mind was busy.

The anger he felt towards her father was great and made it difficult for him not to take a trip to Albuquerque and show Adam what he would actually lose with Madison. In his eyes, the guy should never have been a father. However, he wouldn't have found the woman who finally showed him how good love could feel if Adam wouldn't have knocked up Gemma.

“I can't”, she murmured, sighing, and traced the tattoo's on his chest, shrugging slightly. “I just don't get it. All I ever wanted was his approval, his attention. Not even after getting kidnapped I get his attention.”

“Because he's a hypocrite, Mads”, Happy grumbled, who, despite his stoic nature, felt sympathy for his Old Lady. “He doesn't know what he's losing with you. But that's his problem, not yours, baby.”

Wrinkling her nose, she scooted closer to him and nodded slightly, wrapping her arm around his waist. “Jesse said something similar. I think I just need something to digest it all.”

“Probably”, Happy grunted in understanding, running his hand through her wavy hair, never taking his eyes off her. “Can I help in any way to make you feel better?”

The brunette was silent for a moment, just looked at him and bit her lower lip gently before nodding slightly. But instead of telling him what her body was asking for, she just let him know otherwise.

She leaned in, tentatively placing her lips on his, almost as if she was afraid he would reject her. But right now she needed his closenessᅳ she needed him. After four weeks of agony, she needed to feel something else, something that would give her hope and heal the internal wounds.

Madison couldn't help but sigh as Happy returned  her kiss and their lips melted together. It was only when she let her hand slowly slide down his body and into his boxers that he broke away from her, his eyes full of concernᅳ something people hardly knew from him.

“Are you sure you're ready for this?”, he asked and just his deep, gravelly voice made her bite her lip again and nod.

“I need you”, she whispered almost shyly yet seductively close to his lips as she wrapped her delicate fingers around his cock, which immediately hardened at her touch.

A low growl rattled through his throat as she began to move her hand in a slow rhythm and he automatically began to move his hips towards her hand, his hand disappearing into her hair, which he clutched gently.

Of course he had craved her touch as well, missed it. And fuck, that felt good. He was rock hard within seconds and was ready to give her what she needed. And what he needed, too.

Happy wrapped his hand around her wrist and removed her hand from his throbbing cock, making her look at him in confusion, almost scared as if she had done something wrong. To assure her she didn't, he placed his lips on hers, this time gentle and different than usual. More careful and well, gentle.

Although it was difficult for him to hold back his almost aggressive side during sex, that was exactly what he would do today. He would show her that he had another side too, even in bed. As he slid his tongue between her lips, he earned a soft, throaty moan from the brunette. He bent over her, careful not to put too much of his weight on her, especially because of her back.

The kiss was soft but became more demanding from both sides and Happy's cock, that was already pressing against Madison's midsection, drew another moan from her that flowed into the kiss. It needed no foreplay and no more words. Instead, he pushed aside her panties, leaving the shirt she was wearing as it was, and pushed himself inside her inch by inch, giving her time to adjust to his size. To let out a groan, he had to break the kiss for a moment.

“Love me, Hap, please”, she begged softly, wrapping one leg loosely around his waist, her arms wrapped around his neck while his forehead rested against hers.

“Relax and just enjoy this, little girl”, he growled lowly against her plump lips, earning an agitated whimper and a soft nod from her.  Gently tugging on her hair, he finally thrust into her for the first time, making her moan out his name. He was probably ready to cum already after not being inside her for weeks, but he would use this intimate moment and show her how much he had missed her.

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authors note; thank you so much for almost 800 votes! I appreciate every read, vote and comment! By the way, the next chapter will have a little time jump and a surprise! 🖤