hellooooo long time no see, but there's some things that i really don't want to put on my announcements but i need to get off my chest.

i moved to paris a while ago and it's been good, but no romance. i mean, french guys are kind of assholes tbh, even european guys. i prefer american guys over any other nationality (ik weird).

i downloaded tinder cuz i was crazy bored, but i wasn't looking for anything specific cuz i know tinder isn't for that. BUT me and my obsessive personality ignored all that.

anyways, i matched with this french guy and he was like a whole foot taller than me, and like super fit yk (i'm done with skinny guys lol). and he came over to my apartment last night. we talked for like three hours and then cuddled in my bed and it was all good. he was super sweet too, he like kissed my head and everything and was gentle.

he kind of hinted to the fact that he wanted to have seggs and i declined and he didn't push me further. he was really nice about it. we cuddled after that for like hours lol. he went home around 3 am (he got there at 9).

the thing is, when he left he was really quick about it. he still lives with his parents while he's in college so maybe his dad was worried or something. because he asked me over and over again if i wanted him to leave or anything and i said no. and then he started to get up and i asked if he had to leave and he said yeah.

still, it was super rushed. like, he was out the door in five seconds. he didn't text me that night or in the morning, i initiated the text after that just asking if he got home okay.

the other thing is that he takes hours to respond. like, i don't mind if someone isn't on their phone often, i actually really like guys with no socials, but like leaving me on delivered for almost 6 hours...

yeesh

but he doesn't seem to be hinting that he doesn't want anything to do with me, yk. he apologized if anything was awkward and i said that there wasn't anything awkward about it. and he said that he felt the same.

i dunno, i might be overthinking this. or i might be under-thinking. or i might be normally thinking.

pft im going crazy over a guy i just met. someone calm me down. ty.

anyways, peace and love and all that <3