SANZU HANDED Y/N A HANDKERCHIEF

to wipe the blood out of her knuckles after beating the boy who shot Mikey. "You sure that you want to kill him?" Sanzu asked. "Yeah. There are two reasons for that."

"What two reasons?"

"First, I don't wanna get my hands dirty. I don't kill people. Second, he might be an enemy for us but he must have people who love him and seeing him dead will be painful."

"But didn't he kill Draken and shoot Mikey?! How can you be so soft on him?! I want to kill him so bad" Sanzu said and was about to walk back into the alley but Y/N stopped him. "Sanzu, leave him. He is already in a bad condition. There's no need to do anything more to him."

"But Y/N-"

"Please Sanzu. Mikey isn't dead so there's no need to kill him."

Sanzu gave a nod and removed his gloves, throwing them in the trash can. Y/N's phone rang, flashing the Takemichi's name which made her anxious.

"Sanzu, can you pick it up for me?"

"Why?"

"I asked Takemichi to keep giving me information on Mikey and I don't wanna hear anything bad..."

"Hell no! I am not picking it up. Do it yourself. I feel the same as you."

"Please!!"

"No!" He said and proceeded to sit on his bike. Y/N took a seat behind him and picked up the call as he started the bike.

"Hello?"

"Y/N, the doctors are saying that he is in a better condition. They removed the bullet but he is still unconscious. They told all the visitors to go back to their houses and visit the next day. So, I think you shouldn't come to the hospital. Go straight to your house."

Y/N sighed with relief "That's a relief that he is better. Thanks, Takemichi, Bye"

"Bye"

"Tell me!! How is Mikey?" Sanzu asked.

Y/N rested her forehead in his shoulder and took a deep breath. "The doctors removed the bullet and he is in a better condition."

"Oh my god. I knew that boss will make it."

"Yeah."

"Should we go back to the hospital?"

"No. All the visitors were sent back to their homes. We can visit him tomorrow after he gains consciousness. Can you drop me at my house?"

"Sure."

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"Thanks for dropping me."

"No problem."

"Sanzu... Don't kill him ok?"

"Yeah, don't worry. I am leaving him because Mikey is alive or else I had the plans to go back to him and slice him with my katana."

"Oh my god! Sanzu, you shouldn't think stuff like that."

"Can't help it you know. Mikey is all that matters and anyone who betrays or hurts him needs to die!"

She placed a hand on his shoulder "You need to calm down. He is fine."

"Mmkay. Bye but I am going to hunt down those too who were involved in Draken's death. "

"Ok but don't kill them."

Wasn't Y/N too calm for everything that happened? She was and it wasn't new. The moment she entered her home, she burst into tears once again. She crouched down and hugged her knees. She cried out of relief. Mikey survived and nothing could be better than that. At that moment no one else mattered. Y/N wanted to kill that boy too but she knew what it feels like to lose someone.

It's the worst feeling. You feel empty from the inside. She didn't want someone else to feel the same because of her.

Y/N wiped her tears and made her way into the kitchen for a glass of water. "This feels good." She said as she set down the glass on the table. Her eyes shifted on an envelope that was placed on the table under a pot.

Out of curiosity, she took it out and the realisation hit her. It was the letter that was given to her by grandpa Sano. The letter that Mikey left for her if she ever came looking for him. She took a seat on the chair and took out the letter.

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Dear Y/N,  If you are reading this letter then it means that you came back and tried looking for me...
Don't do it, don't approach me, don't get involved with me at any cost. At first, I was a bit angry and sad when I found out
that you won't be coming back.

To be honest it felt as if a part of me is gone.
It sounds weird but that's how much I love you.
People might say that finding your true love takes time
and that we are at a very young age to get involved in stuff
like this but I don't believe in that.
You are someone I wanted to stay with,
someone who I wanted to protect,
you were my best friend who would do anything for me.

I still remember that time when you stole a dorayaki
for me just because I lost my money on the way.
There isn't an exact moment when I fell for you.
You just made your place in my heart as time passed.
I sincerely love you so much. Even a scratch on your
body makes me feel bad.

I know you must be angry at me because of how
I broke up with you even when I said that it was
fine if you didn't come back soon.
But I want you to know that you still have the same
place in my heart and that's the reason why I don't
want you to get involved with me.
Every future that Takemichi told me about always ends
up in you being dead. I don't want that, never will.

I want you to be alive, be with me. But unfortunately,
both of these things can't happen. If you are with
me, something might happen to you. I want to protect
you so I am pushing you away. As much as I hate
to say this but please find someone who can keep
you happy. Do a nice job, find a nice man, and
continue living the way you want and
I'll make sure that all those things come true.

I can't see you dying... If you still try to approach
me then even I am not sure what I'll do.
I am afraid I might hurt you. Please don't bring
things to that outcome. I have already lost a
fair share of people and I want to protect those
who are still here with me.
Y/N, I'll always love you the same way.

We didn't spend much time after we confessed but
it doesn't matter because I've always been in
love with you, only the timing for my realisation
was wrong. I'll be more than happy if you
end up being alive and live a happy life even if it
takes away mine. I don't know what I'll do but one
thing's for sure that I'll protect everyone.

I don't know why destiny would let us meet,
knowing that we could never be together...
It hurts to imagine that you won't be with me.
I know I told you to find someone else but
I can't accept it... because finding love is hard to find...
This is my final goodbye but remember I love you Y/N.

I want you to be far away from me but make sure
you don't forget about me. Remember that you once
had a friend whom you met at the age of 8,
he used to tease you when you were young.
He was stronger than you so you challenged him
countless times but never won.

Remember how my brother told you that we were
like siblings but you would refuse to accept and
you never gave him a reason for that and
obviously, I refused to accept his words too and
my reason was that I kinda liked you.
How could he call the girl I like my sister?

Remember that we led a gang and you
accompanied me in achieving my dream of
making an era for delinquents.
Remember how you went against anyone who
badmouthed me or Toman. Remember how you
hated sharing your food but you still did it with me.
And remember how we went on our first official date. Lastly, remember that you ever loved a person named Sano Manjirou.

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As Y/N came to the end of the letter her vision got blurry because of the tears. She hated herself for fighting with Mikey. He wanted to protect her she badmouthed him so much. She couldn't even imagine how he would've felt.

"I am sorry Mikey..." She mumbled as she clenched the paper in her hand and rested her head on the table. "I want to talk to him..."

The night passed away with her mumbling random sentences and drifting to sleep.  

Her eyes opened to her phone's ringtone. She picked it up lazily and brought it up to her ear "Hello?"

"Mikey has gained consciousness."

"Really?"

"Yes!"

She quickly cut the call and grabbed her house keys. "I can finally talk to him!"

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She took in deep breaths and she slowly walked to the counter to fill the register. "Room 12, Sano Manjirou," She said and the receptionist handed the register to fill her details as a visitor.

"Name... Y/N. Age... 18. Address... xxx. Relationship with the patient...?"

She thought about what to fill in the blank. She was confused about her relationship with him. "Friend..."

"Thank you," The receptionist said and took the register from her.

She made her way to the room but was really nervous at the same point. "Y/N!!" Takemichi called out as he ran up to her but instead of stopping she proceeded to walk into the room.

"Y/N I wanted to tell you some-"

Mikey was sitting on the bed looking at the ceiling while Sanzu, Sumire and Kokonoi sat on the couch talking to each other. Y/N's sudden appearance made Mikey glance in her direction and raise his eyebrows.

"Who are you?"

Hope you enjoyed :D

Aren't events repeating themselves? :D

Also, I wanted to ask whether I am going fast or not. Because I feel like I rushed the last two chapters. T^T