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7AM, the sun is slowly rising like a flower opening, sunlight filling the sky, splashing the clouds with rays of warm colors.

taehyung admired jungkook's diary, the pages of normal paper that held so many tears and emotions, the pages of paper that practically build taehyung a whole new path to jungkook's broken heart.

taehyung loves jungkook, he's sure of that. he's sure that he's never loved something else so much before, he's sure that he wants to spend his whole life with jungkook,

sometimes he wishes he could just bury those feelings because they're fucking scary, it's scary how taehyung would take every bullet for jungkook, how he's willing to take so much pain just for jungkook, how jungkook is always on his mind as if he's trapped there.

the blonde haired boy lets a smile decor his lips, it's funny, how he thought that he was so close to jungkook and yet he was so many miles away, how he seems to be taehyung's sun, hopefully a sun he can reach.

and while taehyung looks out of the window, he realizes that it's truly a beautiful morning. the ice that is resting on all the cars, buildings and trees is slowly melting down, but the most important ice is also melting, the one around taehyung's heart.

he's finally free from the suffering, from all the pain.

taehyung's excited — no, excited is definitely an understatement. his heart is almost jumping out of his chest, an euphoric feeling spreading itself across his body, today is definitely the day.

at 9AM, the blonde haired boy yells "i need to go but i promise i'll be back soon!" across the house before leaving the house (even if he knows exactly that "i'll be home soon" is a huge lie), a smile never leaving his lips, as if its glued there.

he makes his way to his lovers house, a backpack, where his and jungkook's diaries are in, rested on his shoulders.

jungkook's house is not that far away from his, circa a 10 minute walk taehyung does in 5 today, just because he's so excited and wants to reach jungkook as soon as possible.

when he's finally in front of jungkook's door, he feels like he can't breathe anymore, his mouth is try, hands sweating, breath irregular.

he's about to confess to jungkook, he's about to be the happiest man alive. a warm, fuzzy feeling spreads itself across his body, to be honest he feels like throwing up and yet he gathers all his courage and rings the bell, taking one last breath before doing so.

he's scared, so fucking scared. he's scared that jungkook doesn't feel the same anymore, that his feelings magically changed, that he doesn't love him anymore.

it's dumb, taehuyng feels stupid for being so anxious but unfortunately he can't change it.

but when jungkook's mother opens the door, taehyung feels his cheekbones rise, a smile automatically plastered on his lips. "taehyung! hello darling, what are you doing here?"

taehyung's throat goes try, words not coming out of his mouth even if he wanted to, as if someone took him the ability to speak. the young boy just stares at jungkook's mother, mouth opening and closing like a fish.

" 'm here for jungkook." he manages to finally bring out, sighing in relief afterwards.

jungkook's mother smiles brightly, patting the young boy's hair. "jungkook, someone's here for you!" she calls him and you can practically hear how wide she's smiling just by the way her voice is laced with pure happiness.

a few seconds later, taehyung sees jungkook standing there, still in his pyjama, and taehyung feels his ability to breathe leave him.

it always happens, whenever he sees jungkook he forgets how to breathe, he feels so much at the same time, taehyung can't even describe it himself. it's a overwhelming mix of feelings: adoration, admiration, love, joy, delight, euphoria, taehyung just feels like a garden full of beautiful and astonishing flowers has bloomed in his stomach.

before taehyung can blink, jungkook's already throwing himself at him and hugging him so tight that taehyung feels kindle going blue because he can't breathe, but of course he doesn't mind, instead, he just feels like his stomach is being a huge volcano, warmth and a tingly feeling spreading itself across his body.

after a while of jungkook just hugging taehyung like a koala he lets taehyung go and finally lets him breathe.

"what are you doing here?" the younger boy asks, eyes sparking as he looks at taehyung, heart going wild.

taehyung sends him a fond smile, eyes showing nothing but affection, "i'm here for you."

jungkook let's a blush decor his cheeks, the corners of his lips tugging upwards. "i thought you'd want to spend christmas with your family?"

"well, you are my family." taehyung smiles brightly and jungkook blushes even deeper before playfully punching the older ones arm. "cut the crap, you make me blush."

"i like it when you blush, you look pretty."

"shut up already."

jungkook's mother can only watch them with a sincere smile, tears dwelling in her eyes because she knows exactly that they're in love, she knows that they're each other's happiness.

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a few hours of taehyung and jungkook just playing games and spending time together passed and taehyung was just waiting for the perfect moment to give jungkook his diary back. he wanted to wait for the perfect moment, when jungkook would expect it the least. "so, koo, what did you want for christmas?"

"you." jungkook wants to say but doesn't, he's too shy for such things. so instead he says "i dunno... what did you want for christmas?"

taehyung stays quiet for a while, then his eyes lit up, "someone to cuddle with me." he answered, smiling at the doe eyed boy.

"cuddles?" jungkook's eyes grew big, a small smile now painted on his lips. taehyung chuckled at the sight before confirming that he really just said cuddles.

"i love cuddles! we could cudd— no, sorry that would be pretty weird-" the younger boy blushed deeply out of embarrassment, a hand reaching out to cover his own face.

"i'd love to cuddle with you, jungkook." taehyung spoke, his lips perfectly framing his pearly whites, a rectangular smile now forming on his lips.

jungkook blinked a few times, not seeming to comprehend what taehyung just had said, pretty taken aback.

taehyung's smile grew bigger as he approached the bunny toothed boy and before he could even progress what was happening, he felt two arms being wrapped around his waist, holding him tightly.

"this. i want to do this for christmas." taehyung whispered, pulling jungkook even closer to him.

and that's it. that's all they ever wanted. jungkook in taehyung's arms, his head on the older boys chest, listening to his heartbeat as if it was his favorite melody.

taehyung lets his hand get lost in the younger boys hair, gently playing with it.

he just can't take it anymore, he wants to make jungkook his, wants to kiss him all day and night long, wants to spend his whole life with him, he's sure that jungkook is the one.

taehyung gets bold, just because he can't keep all those unspoken feelings for himself anymore, he's done it for so long.

"you're so beautiful, do you know that?"

jungkook freezes. his blood runs cold, eyes widening, not trusting his ears, but taehyung continues.

"you're so strong, so brave. i—i cant even put in words how much i admire you."

jungkook looks up at taehyung's face, searching for any sign of insincerity but he doesn't, all he finds is sincere eyes staring in his soul.

"jungkook?"

taehyung asks and jungkook feels like throwing up, his heart is racing so fast that he wonders how it isnt jumped out yet.

he just stares at him with wide eyes, no words exchanged.

"i need to give you something."

it's the perfect moment.