The nikah was planned in a simple way. The nikah was taking place on Mosque after Asar's prayer. Some of relatives from sidnaaz's maternal side and shah males were present on the nikah while ladies stayed in the house.

Clutching her dress tightly she took a deep breath. Taking the pen in her hand she signed the nikah paper. She shook a bit realizing that she was a married woman now.

Her look

Aisehi uske bina pata chale
Woh uski zindagi ban jata hai💕

Shehnaaz Shah

Yesterday I called my Razia Khala(Aunt). She also had her nikah with her cousin, Kabir Mamu. After asking her about random things I gathered my courage to ask her about this awkward situation.

I always wanted to ask a question to the people who got stucked with their cousin 'How things r going between u two? Dont the things get awkward?'

U all know r8 what I mean? Like how can u see a man as ur husband whom u treated and respected as ur brother?

But HELL it was happening with me now.

"Khala I want to ask u something. But first promise me U will not tell anyone about my question please."

After she nodded in yes I asked how she managed to be in a relationship, like marriage with a brother. Though he was cousin brother, he was her brother yet.

Khala laughed at me making me embarrass. I requested her to stop but she kept laughing. That moment I wanted to die. But then she gave me some advices for which I was thankful to her.

While signing the paper the voice rangs in my mind. Qubool hai' I didnt know how I uttered these two words. It felt like the most difficult word to utter.

Again thanks to khala. I remembered her saying,
Nikah mein bohot takat huta hai

Pata hai kio?
Kioki isme sabse jyada
Allah ki raza huti hai.

And who can go againt His will? As soon as I finished signing I shuddered at the thought of being married. I needed some time for sure, that I knew.

I looked beside me recieving a smile from my Abba. I felt a wider grin on my face seeing my abba's smile. He was my everything. This decision was for him mostly. I loved him beyond imagination.

Then Lala Abba came and gave me his blessings palcing his hand on my head. Then he hugged Abbo. My heart fluttered at the scene. That moment I felt this marriage had succeded in some manner at least. I didnt want any other things than my abbo and lala abbo to be together like brothers.

Sweets were distributed between the musallis who came for the jamaat.

Suddenly someone grabbed my wrist turning me I gasped being afraid. Then I m being hugged by my stupid brother,baaz.

"Aye stupid. U scared me." I hit him on his stomach. Then I heard zaan giggling. Surely he was enjoying seeing his big bro beaten by me.

"Ops Appi dont be a hitler. I came to congrats u. And u r hitting me." He stated with his dramas.

Then my sight captured the scene of Hamza bhai giving a brotherly hug to Sidharth. He was looking handsome wearing the white kurta with a lil golden embroidery on it. His eyes met mine and he quickly looked away. I felt something starnge I never felt before.

Soon we came outside. My abbo hold my hand while coming out. He was so overwhelmed with this nikah. I shook my head.

Abbo and lala abbo got invloved with badhe abbo and taya abbo and Hamza bhai about business. I was standing with Baaz and Zaan.

"Uff Appi what m I doing with u?" Baaz whined while I rolled my eyes with difficulty. Bcz I m tired of these heavy dresses and jewelries and makeup.

"How can I know?"

"Where is Sidharth bhai? Dikhayi nahi deraha." When he uttered these words my eyes started to seach him.

"Woh raha." I hold his chin and moved on the direction where Sidharth was standing with his cousin brother maybe.

"Then I m going." Before I could reply 'where r u going leaving me alone, not alone bcz Zaan is with me, though he is a 4 years old kid.' he flew away.

"Hey kiddo. See I m here." I heard a voice. It didnt take time me for recognizing the voice.

"Khalil bhai! Koyi kaam nahi tumhara abhi yaha. Jao apne kaam se jakar nikah padhlena." He laughed at my words. Huh? But I was angry. He came after my nikah.

"Sorry sorry Drama queen. Dont be angry yaar. I was stucked with ur Khala."

"Why? What happened?" It made me worried.

"She was crying nonstop bcz her one and only daugther is getting married." He bursted into laughter." U know the funniest thing. I also shed some tears with her."

Now that was my turn to laugh. Khalil bhai cried. I understood Khala being emotional but Khalil bhai. Oh God!

"Bhai thank u. It was so sweet of u." Another laugh followed the way as I couldnt stop laughing. I didnt need to ask why he cried. Obviously he loved me so much. I was the only sister he had.

Before I was heading here my Mama and Mami reached at our place with Nani and a river of tears flooded over our place. As I was only the only grand daughter of Ahmed family.

I couldnt talk with Kahlil bhai more as Abba called me and says we were heading home. I gave him a nod.

Before I got in the car I had a work to do. I had to talk with Sidharth. We didnt talk a single word after our nikah got fixed. I knew as much as the thing became uncomfortable for me, it became uncomfortabe for him also.

Khala said me to go with the flow. I felt a lil ease after hearing it. So I thought I also should tell him. I walked in his direction but he already got in his car before I could reach him.

His car passed by my side though he saw me standing there.  He could ask me if I wanted to talk with him. Didnt he see me? Was he ignoring me? Bcz he didnt reply to my calls and messgaes from the day when Lala ammo and Lala ammi visited us and fixed our nikah. He never ever ignored my calls before. Relax Shehnaaz ur relationship was not the same as before. It would take some time for being normal. I should give us some space.

Wait. Did I say us? No I should give him some time. Yeah.

When we reached home we found the door open. While entering we heard some voices.

"Ammi I dont know really if it is right or wrong. Meri bachi ka nikah unhone aisehi teh kardiya. Woh bhai jisne jindegi me akar ekbar haalchal nahi pucha uske ekdin me akar maafi ne unko aise piglaya(melt) ki apni beti dedala. Muje chinta hurahi hai meri bachi ki. Sidharth is not good for her. My Shehnaaz deserves more better." I knew that voice.

Ammi, ohh ammi why r u discussing this now. I glanced over abbo who was angry like a mad bull. I wanted to go inside and stop her but abbo stopped me on my way.

"Tune Apni beti ko galat hath me dediya sachi. Ladka kamatha bhi nahi hai." That time it was Nani ma.

Baaz pinched my hands making me look at him and he mouthed' Do something.' What can I do?

"Ha ammi. Isse acha toh mein apne Khalil se rishta teh karadeti. Acha kasa kama leta hai, baap k paiso se nahi chaltha. Aur uski jo galtiya hai woh toh ginke na khatam hu paye. Sidharth toh mere Khalil k aspas bhi nahi hai." Ammi sighed defeatedly.

"Sachme. Shamshul, bhai k pyar mai itna anda hujayega ye nahi sochata mene." Nani ma was interrupted by a very angry Abbo.

"Bhai k pyar me koyi anda nahi hua hai Ammi." Abbo walked to them and we followed him. The look on Ammi's face was horrified.

"Meri Shehnaaz k liye Sidharth se acha koyi nahi husaktha ye muje pata hai. Aur paisahi sabkuch nahi huta ye baat abhi tak nahi samaj payi tum Nazia. Sidharth ki galtiya ginneki koyi jarorat nahi hai. It was in past and I prefer to live in present." Abbo remarked and stroomed inside his room.

I gave a disspaointed look to Ammi. I knew ammi had problems with Sidharth's past. Meaned indirectly she has problem with this nikah. She only gave her consent as Abbo was adamant. But how can she think so lowly? Getting inside my room I got rid of this heavy things. Then I took a quick shower.

I was sitting at my balcony on my swing after coming out. I let the events of the day replay once again at my mind.

I m married. It was yet unbelievable to me. And with him? I couldnt believe it. How will I stay with him for the whole life? He is such an idiot.

Wait... wait... wait what I m doing? Why I m smiling thinking about this idiot. Hmm bcz he is idiot. He didnt look at me once today.

What should I feel? That my husband cum cousin didnt notice me at my nikah who always roamed around giving complement to ladies.

If I thought him as my huaband I should feel angry. But I was not feeling a single thing. On the other hand when I thought that my cousin didnt praise me I m feeling a lil angry and dissapointment. He is really such an idiot.

Hmm...I could feel.. It was being really complicated now!

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The Asar prayer ("afternoon prayer") is one of the five mandatory salah (Islamic prayer). As an Islamic day starts at sunset, the Asr prayer is technically the fifth prayer of the day. If counted from midnight, it is the third prayer of the day.

Musalli is an Arabic name for boys that means "one who prays".

Jamaat A group of Muslims offering prayers together.

~Fari❤