Sidharth Shah

SHEHNAAZ, the person who was involved in my life like my blood is running through my vein. THE NIKAH made us both inseparable. When there was going any discussion about me there would surely we gonna have a name included. That was her name.

I ran away from her till two months after our nikah. Bcz everything was planned so suddenly. So I was never ready for it and most serious thing the truth was never going to change that she was too perfect for me. I knew she wasnt going to judge me over my past.

But there was not only one problem. The fact was known to me was she hated the cousin marriage concept. I knew she always saw me as her brother. Imaganing her reaction on this nikah was very unpredictable for me. I was prepared for any kind of bad reaction from her. And I thought it was best to give her some time.

On our nikah day I was doing what I decided. On my day I never wanted the person was him, Khalil Mirza. At first I thought he was going to fulfill my wish, but he was my enemy after all. How he could do a thing which was going to give happiness to my heart?

A matter of fact about me that Kahlil name was enough to make me irritated. So his prsence creats a havoc of frustration in me everytime.

As it was Arya's birthaday there was going a lil party. And the celebration got doubled as the next day it was Eid. Maybe every one presented there was happy but not me. Reason, he was here also. Aru wasnt his cousin, there was no need of him, so why he was here?

"Khalil Bhai" This damn sugary voice. Shehnoo approached him with such a warmness. Why she couldnt stay away from him? Actually why couldnt stay away from the people I hated?

Seeing them standing together was only passing rage in me. Nah nah I was not jealous since he was close to Shehnoo. There was nothing being jealous of Khalil as it was known to me he only treated her as a sister, nothing more. But seeing them together was making me realize that I wasn't perfect for her.

I was trying to keep this things aside and wanted to behave normal like before and concentrate on my future with Shehnoo. But every time I was given a hint of truth that she was the best one and I m nothing best for her.

The day we arrived here I was given the information by Hafsa that the nikah was suffocating Shehnaaz. First I reacted madly at this news. After some time I decided to be calm down. And after all I was believing in whom? Hafsa? She can't see anything going smooth in my life. So I decided to have a talk with Shehnoo.

But when I went to her she was busy in call with KHALIL MIRZA.UFF I really hate to even take his name. For people he was the name of perfection. He was a perfect son, perfect brother, perfect niece and He was successful in his life. He was handling his own business. Though his father had vast amount of property he chose to stand on his own feet, he never took any help from his father. I just didn't have a problem of that. But I m hating the fact that he was reminding me that Shehnoo too deserved someone perfect, like him.

In this I ignored her though I was seeing that it was hurting her. After Aru knocked some senses in me I wanted to behave decently with her. But as I said before the reality wasn't leaving me. I was given reality check every time when I was deciding to give a try. I listened Shehnoo asking my Ammi that why Ammi chose her for me. That only indicated she wasn't happy with this nikah.

That's why I never wanted this nikah so early. Bcz I was nothing like she deserved. That was the reason I wanted to finish my studies first and stand on my own feet. But my ammi made me persuade to say yes. Surely she was my Ammi, she knew how to make me agree on any decision.

But I was regretting my decision. It was all feeling wrong. Flooding in my thoughts didnt let me know that party was almost over. I was feeling restless. Maybe I made a wrong move and I also shattered her life. I realized I was in sweats.

I turned back feeling a tap on my shoulder. It was Shehnoo. Before I could hear something from her Khalil called her. This made me more sure of my opinion of not beimg suittable enough for her. Khalil said something to her amd then she returned to me.

"See Shehnoo u can divorce me anytime if u want. U can be free from this nikah." I dont know thinking what I said that. I didnt want her to be in a nikah where she was not satisfied.

She hauled in her place. She took a second to register what I said. And I was also realizing what slipped out my tongue. Shit!

"Firstly the thing u told me now, u want to do it, so dont say second time that I can or I will. This thought never crossed my mind and will never. Amd u also know it very well I will not think about it let alone do it. Secondly u can do it if u want it from ur very own heart. But for that u have to kill me first. If u cant do that u have to wait untill I m dead. Kioki mere jinda hute huye toh tu apni kisi girlfriend ko apne ghar nahi la saktha." She said those bitter things in one go as I made her anger lever reach on high level.

"I promise I dont have any girlfriend." I stated immediately.

"GO TO HELL with ur promise." She fumed in anger and turned back. Before I could hold her, Taya Ammi came here so I couldnt stop her. As soon as she passed from there I ran behind Shehnoo. She was going inside the room. I didnt go directly to the room as there might be Hafsa and I didnt want to creat any drama in front of her. Not seeing any other way I dialled a number.

Arya Shah

I was setting the clothes after coming from the party. There was no sign of Shehnoo and Hafsa. As soon as I rested my back at sofa being tired my phone rang making me startled.

Picking my phone I quickly recieved the call. "Hello Sidharth."

"Hafsa hai udhar?" He asked in urgency.

"Hein? What will u do with Hafsa?" I was confused.

"U only have to give me an answer." He groaned.

"I m not telling. U first tell me what is the matter?" I insisted.

"Shehnoo ko bahar nikal room se." As soon as he uttered those words Shehnoo entered the room. I could guess by her face she was in a bad mood.

"What happened between u two?" I asked slowly making sure Shehnoo wasnt listening it.

"Just an arguement." He replied. "Do what I said."

Muttering a ok I cut the call. Oh God I didnt know what was exactly going between thsese two. I gathered courage and approached Shehnoo.

"Shehnoo woh Sidharth" she furiously cut me off. "Dont take his name in front of me."her temper was scaring me.

"Baat toh karle ek baar usse." I said as Sid was waiting for her outside.

"Aru plz for God's sake dont come between us. Actually there was never us and will never be." She dashed out of the room saying this. I thanked Allah that she was out of the room. I prayed Sidharth would manage her.

Sidharth Shah

I didnt how Aru managed to send her outside but she did it. Thank u Aru. I called her but hearing me she walked fast and walked outside the house. Where was she going at that time? That too alone? I knew she was running away from me.

"Shehnoo stop." I yelled running behind her. I ran a lil bit fast to catch her. And I was successful.

"Shehnoo see I m sorry." I didnt find more better words to say. I was really ashamed of what I said in my rage. Bcz I really respect the bond of marriage. I really do. I knew what Nikah meaned to her.

"What will I do with ur sorry? Mene sharbat pina hai iss sorry ka?" Her nose became red as a result of her anger. "First u tell me why were u ignoring me like I dont exist?" She reddened her eyes more.

"I m really sorry for that. I -" beating me off she spoke in a pitched voice. "Pehle ye sorry bolna band kar. Mein bolthi huna tune yesab kio kiya teko tamasha dikana thana sabko?"

"No." But I was only shut up by her. "Chup bilkul chup."

"Arey! Can I say sometging?" I asked as she wasnt giving me any chance to utter a word.

"No. Chup chap reh aur meri baat sun. Aur muh tab khulio jab mein kuch pucho." I zipped my mouth instantly as I knew denying her at that moment meaned disaster.

She took a deep breath before starting again," If I ever judged u on the basis of your past mistakes?"

"Never." I replied momentarily knowing she was the one who never made me feel unwanted or guilty.

"So why are you insecure for facing me bcz of that bloody thing?" She fumed.

"Who said u that?" I was baffled with that new information about me that I got to know that monent.

"Aru said." She replied.

"And who said to Aru?" I raised my eyebrows at her.

"You only." She pressed her lips in total annoyance.

"I never said that thing. I only uttered a single line and I had to be careful she could drag that to a whole story." I sighed.

"So can u please take the load of telling me the exact reason." Sarcasm was dripping from her words.

"Do u remember u hate cousin marriage?" I whispered slowly. Soon the realization took over her and she shifted in her place uncomfortably.

"I ....dont.....hate...it....I...I...just dont like it." She said while pausing after every words.

"It's same Shehnoo." Rolling my eyes I pressed my lips in a thin line.

"No. It is not." Her temple crumpled. "How can I make u understand?Umm. See U hate Hafsa. Ok? but U dont hate Lala Abbo, u just dont like him." Next moment she came with the best example for me. And yeah I was quite impressed with that. Really!

"And Mr. ignoring that silly thing I m trying to form a flow that u broke for I didnt know what. So basically u cant blame me for that thing." She pointed her finger at me.

"And what about ur so called dream of a perfect man for u? Talking about me, mein toh uske aspas bhi nahi." I said looking everywhere but not at her.

I heard a frustrated groan. " Woah man! Stop stop stop. " She gave me an impossible look.

"Who said u have to be perfect for me? U dont have to be perfect for me as u r the best for me because my Abbo chose u for me. And usually people cant represnt the word perfection. Who pretends to be a perfect is a usually sick one." She made a disgusted face.

"Dimaag hai toh uska na sahise use karna chahiye. Pata nahi apne dimaag me kia kia chalatha rehtha hai. Kabhi sahi direction me toh tera dimaag chalatha nahi hai. Tu muje jo de nahi saktha woh soch kar kio tera aur mera dono ka din karap kar raha hai. I know it is awkward for me and maybe for u also. But we can be normal. Cant we? But no u have to decide things on yourself.

Tune toh decide karliya thana mera isbar ka Eid spoil karna hai tuje. Tuje pata Lala ammi ne tak notice karliya and mujse puchnehi wali thi kiya chalraha humare bech. Par tuje toh insab ki padhi kaha hai. Karna apnahi hai tuje. Ye toh yaad nahi rehtha ki nikah ko 3 mahine huneko hai par ye jaror yaad rehtha hai girlfriends se break up kab hua tha." She gave the whole speech in one go making me speechless and at the last line she narrowed her eyes at me.

"I dont have any gfs. That was  about two years ago." I spilled the truth.

"Huh?" She gave me a confusing look as I lied to them about having a girlfriend though I didnt. Why I did that? Bcz I wanted to maintain my image. Yeah.

"That was a lie." When I replied she didnt buzz to ask or say anything, she gave me a 'whatever' look not having any interest in knowing about this matter.

Should I explain myself? No maybe. My explaination might cause more questions which I didnt want to face.

Suddenly her phone's ringing broke the silence. "Yeah Khalil Bhai." U people can guess how much I hate this Khalil. Why cant he leave her alone?

"Wait. I am coming." She cut the call with that. She turned to face me. "So?"

"So what?" I questioned back despite of knowing well what she was asking about.

"Dimaag ka kachra saaf hua?" She folded her arms around her chest.

"Yaar respect doesnt cost money. Thorasa toh izzat de diya kar. Koyi izzathi nahi sala." I wanted to lighten the situation.

"Kandhi aise karthe hu ki bezzati hu. And respect ki baat, woh bohot karthi hu."

"Kab? Kaha? Date k sath time bhi bata kab kithi izzat?"

"We should respect people with our heart. Mein dilse karthi ho jobhi karthi hu, mein logo ki tarah fake respect nahi dikathai. So tu toh iss topic pe jahi mat. And yeah please do a favour. Behave normally. Tera jo yeh do theen ka drama thana it made me enough uncomfortable amd frustrated. Arghh!" She was about to pull her hair. I got a hint of the troubles I caused her.

"Okey madam. Anything else?" I flashed her a smile as there was a thing going on my mind.

"It is ample for now waiter." She chuckled a lil making her ways to the home.

"One more thing. Kal agar pirse shuro huwana tu, Kudha Kasam nadhi me dubha k madh dalungi." She stopped on her way and turning back she threatened me with a seroius tune.

"By the way. It hasnt been 3 months yet. 12 bajne ko abhi der hai." I yelled from behind. She ran hearing me. Though she didnt turn back I can guarantee u that she smiled at my statement.

I leaned on a tree beside me. What happened a moment ago? A big smile made way to my face. I never exoected it to happen. But it really made me feel at ease.

"It will be fun."Really it was gonna be a lot of joyment. A mischievous idea was going on my mind. Being her cousin was that fun, being her husband would add this fun.

But u guys have to wait.

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I couldnt update because of being ill. So here is the longest update till date as a compensation.

As Sidharth let u guys know it will be fun. Yeah😉

New cover bcz I want not only Sidnaaz fans but also others to join this cousin's journey in being a couple💕. I never ever said anyone to read my story or request to give a shoutout to my story. Bcz I was so unsure of my works then. But this time I m doing it as I really want people to read this book. It is really special to me. And I m aslo adding much effort to this one. So please share this book as much as u can. It will be a great help💕

~Fari❤