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A long time ago, I thought I met the one. But all I did was meet my suffering, because you've innocently been my suffering

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When you reach the safety of your office, your "happy place," You shut the door with a sinking heart. Your legs felt like jello for all the tension and inner stress you had to endure in Seokjin's presence.

On the nearest fluffy sofa, you just plopped down with your palms on your face. Your eyes started to glisten from renewed tears that wanted to stream down your cheeks.

Oh my goodness! How come life is so cruel? Why now? when you worked so hard to forget about him. You loved him for two years. Your heart was irrevocably devoted to him. He was' it 'for you. It was painful and agonizing to know you loved someone who would never reciprocate your feelings.

You were shocked beyond measure when you saw him standing there in all his masculinity and pure handsome glory. Your breath was caught in your throat and it cost you all your strength to act normal as though you didn't recognise him. His eyes were constantly watching you, trying to place you.

You changed, you grew up, you became a mature woman, but a cold-hearted woman, a woman that swore off anything that had to do with love. Weddings made your heart constrict. That is why Emilia is the cake co-ordinator for the weddings and you do corporate events. No this! The Kims' wanted you.

Emilia found you with your palms clasped beside your head, with eyes that were teary and a mouth that was pursed together not to break out into loud sobs. After looking into his beautiful eyes, you just knew that years of therapy were null and void.

You thought that you were healed, that time heals all wounds, but the painful realisation struck you like a blow in the gut...your buried feelings for the man you loved dearly and deeply, the man who gave your young girl hopeful dreams, the man who rejected your advances almost fifteen times without you giving up. You had stars in your eyes, your hopes that one day he would return your feelings, that he would like you for your kindness, your devotion, and motivation and not for your mundane, average, or unattractive looks.

His whole being took your life over. You live to make his day a brighter day, to make him happy when he appears sad and deflated. You would send him a love token every day to remind him how much he is appreciated.He knew how special he was and that someone was thinking about him. You made every day for two years a Valentine's Day for him.

You've been mocked and made fun of. The whole student body knows that you were so smitten with the most handsome Asian student that was so popular and very kind to everyone.

You wipe your eyes, which are again filled with renewed pain and agony. Revisiting the past always brings deep heartache for you. You worked so hard, but now everything was in vain.

Emilia came in quietly when she noticed your red-rimmed eyes. She, like always, your silent supporter, just sat next to you and gave you a side hug. You look at her with a lost expression.

"Why? Emmy... Why show up now? How will I move on now...? " You look at your friend with inquiring eyes, saying it with a strangled voice.

"I'm so sorry,May," Emilia sighed deeply. "Seokjin seems adamant about making up for all the pain and embarrassment you experienced because of him. I'm afraid he is very much interested in you now. He seem as if he was searching for you and now that he has you, he doesn't want to let go of you."

You shook your head in disbelief, "He couldn't believe it was me? We've changed Emilia. I was the ugly duckling, four-eyed, chopped-hair freak, who apparently ran after a guy that was beyond my league. The popular thought that my levels of confidence were so high that he would even give me a second look. Do you know how long I tried to unlove him? The saddest part is that I thought my infatuation would cease after two years, that I would grow out of this obsessive, agonizing love for him. Now, this. " You throw your hands in exasperation into the air.

Emilia looked deeply affected. "I know, dear. I was there when your obsession with him started. I was there when you started to overshadow him with your love. It was worrisome. You scared your family...because your mom thought Seokjin was an "idol" because of the number of photos you had of him. On your walls. You even made a t-shirt with his face on it, so when he played basketball or any sport, you would cheer him from the benches. Everyone thought you were his girlfriend. Sung Kyung despised you." She snickers.

"See...you know it. I was like an obsessed fan. No wonder Sung wanted to kill me every day. You and Visha were there when he almost turned down every invitation I gave him. He was so agitated by my constantly being in his proximity. His friends called me his "puppy face.'I felt so unworthy of him and all the girls in our class told me to just give up, that it would never happen ---I tried, but hope made me fight further... I wanted him to know how much I care---" you had a faraway look filled with melancholy. Seokjin was the center of your universe. He owned your heart.

Emilia nods, "May. You did try, and you succeeded in forgetting him. You become a strong, independent girl. You were Switzerland's best national cake designer. Jeez, you baked a seven-tier cake for the president's ball. You are gorgeous and gifted. You have come a long way from that idealistic girl you were before. Look at all your accolades. You were our year's top student, the youngest member of the Swiss Food Critics Association, and a celebrity judge on numerous national baking and cake-designing TV shows... Your national awards... jeez! You had it all. You have it all. "

You smile through your tears, "Yeah! I've come a long way, Emmy. "

Emilia grins, "You just need to get the right guy and marry him and give your mom the grandchild she so desires. But we all know you swore off love and marriage. "

You sigh deeply, still rattled by Seokjin's appearance. He is more handsome than ever. He is a true man now. You just need to avoid him. It would destroy you if you had to fall for him all over again.

Emilia seems to read your mind, "You know what? I think you need to take a week off. The wedding will be next Saturday. I can take over and deal with the Kims. "

You shook your head, "Seokjin will know I'm running away or avoiding him. I need to stay strong and face my past head-on, or I'll never move on with all this baggage. "

You stood up, switching off your desktop and looking at Emilia, "Let's go home." You still have a date with the cop. "

Emilia looked hyped up. You smile softly. He might pop the big question one of these days.

Your heart started to ache. You want to be happy and loved like Emilia and her sweetheart. But unless you are totally free from Seokjin's hold on your heart, you will finally be able to breathe and start afresh maybe. Maybe, just maybe, you'll give love another chance.

Emilia grinned when the two of you slipped into the car and started to reverse out of the parking lot. "What are you going to do tonight? Please do not sit and sulk. Why don't you take Minghaos'offer for a drink in one of Gangnam's exclusive cocktail bars? That guy has the hots for you, he likes you a lot. "

You looked at her with furrowed brows, "Stop being silly. He knows where he stands with me. I don't date sports stars, models, actors, singers, or any conceited celebrity. So, I'm going to watch a K-dramas series to brush up on my Korean or just get to bed early with a book. I know Minghao is a very nice 30 years old guy and he wants to date me desperately since I arrived in Seoul...but I don't want to date or get married to anyone right now."

Emilia clicks her tongue and looks sideways at you, "May... You are too loving. You are a nurturer. You are not meant to be alone. You'll be an awesome wife and mother one day...don't compare the guys to Seojin's standard. Please, it is not fair. "

"I'm sorry, but I'm not ever going to open myself to love again, Emilia. I loved too much, and it nearly destroyed me. I don't think I'm good at loving someone. I get lost in love and become too devoted without getting anything in return...maybe I'm in love with love itself. " You grimace as you reminisce about your love life or lack thereof.

"May...it's been eight lonely years. Don't you think it's time to bury the past and start living again? "Emilia looked with sadness at you as you pursed your lips tightly.

When you briefly looked at your best friend, she was shocked when she saw the deep pain behind your teary eyes. You sniffed the tears away, but your voice was strangled.

"I thought I had moved on and was getting healed, but when I saw him today...I knew that I was far from over him, Emilia. He is adamant about making up for all the pain he caused me. Emilia, I won't be able to handle it in his close proximity. He looks determined to get back into my life... "

"Perhaps it's fate... "she muses.

You simply shake your head dismissively... Perhaps fate has returned to torment you.

Finally, you arrive at one of Seoul's exclusive gated communities near Gangnam. You and your mother purchased this lovely five-bedroom, three-story home a few months ago, and it has become your safe haven. Where you could get away from it all and relax.

When you finally park your car in the garage at nearly 7 p.m., you sigh with relief, unable to wait to take a long, relaxing bath...determined to forget the alluring... Kim Seokjin.

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A/n : May is determined to stay away from Seokjin.

Thank you to all the Seokjin-stans, for giving the Chefs'kiss a chance to shine. For every shadow reader that even made it possible, every vote and comment. I appreciate all of you. I hope you've enjoyed this chapter.

Questions

1.Do you think she will succeed in forgetting Seokjin?

2. Do you think she must open herself up to love or get healed first?

3. Is Seokjin interested in her more than meets the eye?

💕I've attempted my first short story with a different 'paranormal plot" Echo in the Wind' kindly give it some love and please vote or comment with your thoughts. It's a Jungkook FF.

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