Sometimes, having a boy best friend and having a male guardian was especially awkward. Especially when you're a twelve year old girl. Thank god for Mrs. Alvarez, because without her, I'd be completely lost. I mean yeah, I love my best friend Alex, and I love Schneider (who I've lived with for almost my whole life, since he was my mom's best friend, and my mom overdosed before I could walk).

I'd already avoided all of the awkward moments, such as bra shopping and getting my first period by talking to Mrs. Alvarez and utilizing the internet. But as soon as Alex and I walked into the Alvarez' apartment, I knew that something both awkward and unavoidable would occur.

"Why are you guys looking at us that way?", I asked.

"Is there a bug on me?", Alex asked, freaking out.

"No, Papito. You are bug-free and perfect as always", Lydia said.

"Yeah. Stand there so I can always remember you this way", Penelope retorted.

I noticed everyone's eyes darting back and forth over Alex's laptop, so I walked over to the kitchen table and opened it.

"Wait!", Schneider yelled, trying to stop me.

But it was too late, as I'd already seen what was on it. I slammed it shut.

"Well, that was frightening", I said, pushing the laptop away from me.

Alex looked at me confused.

"Finn sent me a video to check out. Can I have my laptop?", he asked.

"No!", we all shouted.

"What's wrong with it? Does it have a virus?", Alex asked.

"It is sick. Yes", Lydia replied.

"Is anybody going to tell me what's happening?", Alex asked.

"Yeah I'm out", Schneider said.

"Same", I said.

"Yes. I should probably leave too", Dr. B said.

And with that, we all walked out of the apartment.

Well, that was awkward. I saw some stuff that I NEVER wanted to see again. Porn is gross, and so are men, as far as I'm concerned.

The next day, as soon as I came home from dance and got myself all showered and clean up, I went down to the Alvarez' apartment.

"What're you doing here, Sam?", Alex asked.

"Did they tell you what was going on?"

"Yeah. There was porn on my laptop. For the record, I was not watching it. Elena was".

"Holy shit! Elena was? But isn't porn 'demeaning to women' and 'sexist' ?", I asked, using finger quotes.

"I don't know."

Penelope walked in from work, "Where's Elena? I need to talk to her."

"You should. She is a porno", Lydia said.

"I think I know what you're saying, and it's not fair 'cause when you thought it was Alex, you said it was healthy" Penelope replied.

"Well, boys are supposed to want the sex. Girls are supposed to pretend that the don't want the sex", Lydia said, looking between Alex and I.

I crossed my arms over my chest and scooted away from Alex. This is what I mean by awkward moments. As soon as a girl grows boobs, they think that every guy thinks of her in a certain type of way. And that is exactly what everyone was thinking of Alex and I now.

It's like the awkwardness found me wherever I went. Welcome to middle school aka the place where awkwardness grows on trees.