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(content warning- mature language, use of alcohol, mentions of substance)
*also sorry for punctuation or spelling

(liv's pov)
"i don't know why i agreed to this" i glare to the girl i call my best friend... i open the fridge to find something appetizing, though i'm not hungry at all, maybe i just wanted to avoid this conversation.

"liv, you don't do shit ever" Lexi mumbles, i glance her way, we had both just had gotten up, still wearing our 'pjs' and tonight is the party Lexi won't shut up about....i had agreed to go a week ago when she wouldn't leave me alone about it......It's not that i hate parties....i just hate parties.

"its just a party...you always miss out" she adds, i sigh... "yeah yeah i'm going i know" i walk out of the kitchen and down the hall to my room, the party wasn't til tonight so i wasn't going to think ab it.....
(time skip-6 hours later)

"liv" i hear, causing me to whip my head to see Lexi now walking through my door, i'm very unamused.  she walks over to my desk "have you seen my fucking Westwood ring" she rummages through my desk, Lexi's attachment with this ring is unbelievably insane, actually i got it for her a while back and though she never takes it off, she looses it all the damn time

"did you check the bathroom" i put my phone down, watching her whip her head at me "oh gee liv wow i couldn't have thought of that" the sarcasm slipping off her tongue, i sit up in my bed, "it's probably in the car lex, calm down" before i know it she's already out of my room, i look down to my phone, shit it was already 7, yes, me and lex won't be leaving the house til 9 but still.

i get up, stretching as i steadied myself, i walk over to my desk to shut the drawers Lexi had left open. i sit down glancing how sluggish i looked currently. i wasn't too worried about what i was wearing tonight, prob just regular clothes....

an hour later, Lexi walks into my room once again, this was completely normal for me, she sat on my bed, i notice the all black outfit, that tugged her waist "your outfits cute" i smile through the mirror, me and Lexi often shared the same taste in clothing, she just had more confidence and the patience to pursue these ideas.

"yeah i know" i could feel the smirk on her face, i was currently doing my makeup, simple but not simple.... "im not wearing anything too special" i shrug, finishing off my mascara, making sure they're even
"yeah i figured, it doesn't matter everything you wear is hot" she lays back, "yeah your right" i grin

"I'm assuming you found ur ring" i add, turning my head to her, she lifts her hand in the air lazily, making me nod "good" i say standing up, i walk over to my closet...i can never find shit, i already had my jeans on, they were baggy ofc, i decided with a long sleeve and put a polo tee over it, i knew it was boring but ehh right? i turn to face Lexi "good?" i ask though i wouldn't change even if she said to

"um duh" she smiles sitting up, she always thinks i look beautiful, which god she's the beautiful one, literally the sun herself.. i constantly think of the moment i met Lexi and of course before i moved here we talked but i remember seeing her for the first time, the way her hair was a so bright, the way everything about her glowed, even at night, things that were so simple were not simple to me uknow, i couldn't stop thinking how this girl is so beautifully written, and i still think this way..

i walk towards my desk again before spraying my perfume and putting on my jewelry, i grabbed my phone and wallet before walking out of my room, i knew Lexi would catch up at some point.

i reach the kitchen, grabbing a glass out of the cabinet before watching the water fill the cup.
i was really starting to feel my nerves about this party, not that i haven't been to one before, i just know what to expect, even with the lack of info i was given from lex, pretty much all i know is that this is 'Nathan's party' and 'we can't miss a nate party' were i think the words she used..idk but i trust her and i know how to put up with a night especially for her...and i guess it's not horrible to have some fun....i doubt any, but yeah

i take a drink of my water when i see Lexi come around the corner to put her shoes on by the door "we gotta get gas okay" i remind her before walking over to put my shoes on as well.

minuets later...we're now pulling out of the gas station and on our way to this supposed to be fun party.
After i find a parking spot in this very tight road, i see Lexi applying her lip gloss in the passenger mirror. not waiting i get out of the car looking to my left at the house that seems like it should've been shut down already "common we gotta go" i hear Lexi's voice. i nod smiling feeling her grab my arm, i look back to lock the car

once we're inside the usual alcohol and weed stench filling the air, i walk behind Lexi, noticing how people were sprawled everywhere, meaning it was going to be much harder for me to find a place to hide later. i hear Lexi's voice subtly as she talks to people we walk by

we finally reach the kitchen and i'm completely sober, especially when i'm designated driver, which may be part of the reason i don't have very much fun, i stand by Lexi as she consumes a bit of alcohol not much though. "i should probably introduce you to nate...wherever he is" she sits her cup down "like the 'Nathan' that nate?" i ask with a smug smile, i guess she's known Nathan for a couple of years but she claims they're just friends, which i believe her but i also know what her definition of friends can be....but ill take her word on this one...maybe

"liv don't" she stands tall looking around the room, the almost dark room "he's around here somewhere" she mumbles, still on her tippy toes "wait, what his own party?" i say with sarcasm, she doesn't give me the time and swiftly grabs my arm as we step out side in the back yard, stepping through crowds of people, people who were enjoying themselves....i hear Lexi hum in approval...

"Lexi" i hear faintly as i feel Lexi walking a bit faster "nate" she said in the same tone, sometimes i hated that i didn't know a lot of people not saying i would so happen to know nate too, but just because of moments like this where even if i did know him, I'm just standing here almost awkwardly, and it is my fault, i dont 'socialize'.....unless I'm at work, and i could already tell how this party was going to go for me..

"this is liv, my best friend the one i was telling you about, she does tats" the words cutting me out of my thoughts, i look to the boy I'm assuming is Nate "hey, yeah" i say calmly, his expression genuine "so you good with the ink" he asks
"uh yes" i say simply.. "extremely good" lexi cuts in, i smile awkwardly "cool cool, i wish i could draw more than a stick but its insane how ya guys do that" he fix's his shirt, god i hate interacting with people and he was nice just a regular guy, i blame it on the element I'm in.

"yeah it's fun" i smile hoping to wrap this up even though he didn't seem bad to talk to.....after a few minutes of lex and him catching up i decided to wander off

i walk back into the kitchen and past people, i often don't like to look people in the eyes, it scares me
once I'm in what i don't even know is a living room or not i find a smaller couch...and i know this is lame but i pull out my phone and answer a few notifications and scroll for a bit....a long bit before i put my phone down in my lap, feeling the couch dip beside me.

"hey, you bored?" i turn my head to a guy, a blonde guy, he seemed shy....maybe...i don't respond i just look at him with unamusement "mute?" he smiles.....i gulp slightly "no" does he really think he's funny, maybe I'm just harsh, and honestly have no right to be yet.... "sorry, uh yeah I'm having a great time" i say smiling back

he nods at the sarcasm "you wanna drink?" he tilts his head almost as if he meant more than what he had said, "heh no thank you" i sigh looking back to the crowd, the dip between us getting heavier "whatta shame coulda had some fun" he smirks, causing me to sit up straight "um so I'm gonna go, bye?" i struggle with a name, because he didn't give one, "lee" he simply says "alr bye..lee" i say quickly standing and walking away.

god that was prob mean but his definition of fun is probably not the same as mine, and idk or care enough, i didn't bother to look back, i just wanted to find lex again, me and her usually split at parties because she knows what i tolerate...she couldn't be too far, it has only been what maybe an hour.

she wasn't outside so i figured she was dancing, i made to where it seemed people were dancing, everything seemed a little random, i notice lexi's blonde hair, she was bent over....looking for something?

i walk towards her through the must of people's breaths, my voice muffled over the sounds of music "Lexi what are you doing" i crouch, she looks up at me, i could tell she was upset "my ring" she says worried, i immediately start looking all over the floor for a glint or shine of what could be her ring....after a few seconds i see something on the floor a few people back, so i of course went for it.. i lean down and pick it up on my way back up someone bumps into me causing me to stumble a bit into someone else, i grab onto the person in front of me, his hands wide to help me, i look up noticing a semi tall figure

"oh i'm sorry, i didn't see you, totally my bad.." the boy reassures, i couldn't help but notice he was a very pretty guy, dark hair, with a nice black cap worn backwards, light eyes, very pretty eyes, his features sharp but soft, he has a black t-shirt on with black baggy jeans, i quickly reply shaking my head "oh no that was totally my bad, i wasn't watching where i was going, i had to get this ring i- totally my fault I'm sorry" i ramble unintentionally before realizing my hands were still attached to him, i immediately pull my hands down, noticing he had a small smile at the corner of his lips, his eyes on me.....god who is this man, i notice another boy next to him, it was him again, i nod to myself at the realization

"its alr don't worry about, ur good" he nods, smiling almost awkwardly but not, i could tell he was nice but i could also tell that maybe he was a bit shy....or maybe it was me, god shut up olivia really you?

"liv did you find it?" i feel Lexi behind me.."what else did u find?" she smirks, i turn my head quickly shooting her a glare which had to have been picked up on because both of the men in front of us chuckled very lightly
i look back at the very pretty boy in front of me god this was getting even more awkward

"uh sorry again, nice running into ya...?" my eyes shut tightly in cringe, why tf did i say that, he chuckles "its chris, and hmm yeah right back at ya" he smiles nonchalantly, i feel Lexi smiling behind me before i take her arm with me and we walk away, god i'm so stupid, he thinks i'm stupid, he definitely wishes he could've avoided that entirely

"olivia, please tell me you did not drag us away from ur future husband?" i could feel the smile on her lips "lex do not say shit like that, i just embarrassed the shit out of my self" i retort
"liv, you should have seen the way he was looking at you" she almost whispers "Lexi, he wasn't looking at me, quit" i think she was trying to feed my delusions like usual
"i also saw the way you looked at him, and ur little s-stutters" she smiles causing me to roll my eyes 'nice running into ya' "wow liv you really nailed that one" she mocks
"Lexi enough, we're leaving now, i don't want to talk about it please" she reluctantly nods before i step out the door her arm in my hand still..

the whole drive home i couldn't stop getting second hand embarrassment from my own embarrassment, wth is wrong with me, he laughed but because i was embarrassing myself, and why the hell did it take me so long to realize my hands were on him, i always mess shit up, especially with guys, and definitely pretty guys.... though i kind am glad i got his name, even though ill never see him again....

once we were back to the apartment, Lexi wasn't totally drunk so i didn't need to help her to much, so i was in my room in no time and honestly so fucking tired, it was 12 pm now and that's not super late but i was just tired....though even laid in bed the thought of him laced through my head wondering what he was thinking, he definitely thought i was weird, or maybe he's not thinking of me at all....yeah that's it....

V- hey so i hope you guys like the first chapter, I'm trying my best....and ill try to be quick getting these chapters in.....
(also god id faint if i ever experienced what she did)

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