ꜱᴏ ᴛʜɪꜱ ꜱʜɪᴛ ʜᴜʀᴛꜱ-

Carlisle's POV

Things had gotten almost unbearable in the house. Every little thing set me off in ways that they never did before our divide. The family that I had once called my own felt more like enemies than friends. The offhand comments would not have phased me even two years ago, but now that I loved the person that they were made towards I could not stand it.

Anna is my daughter, whether or not she calls me father does not matter. She will always be my daughter and I love her dearly as I would any of my covenmates. I would gladly give my life for her if push came to shove.

"Leave me alone, Edward," Emmett tells his brother, who shook his head at him. The much taller man rolls his eyes at him, about to leave the living room to go join Rosalie in their room. She had been cooped up in there with Jasper for the last hour and a half after he had yet another panic attack.

My children were hurting and I felt like I was failing.

"You can't possibly be thinking that, Emmett. I am your brother and Bella will be my wife. Why do you think that I don't care about you when I want what is best for this family?" Edward, that is my job as the coven leader. I want what is best and I chose what is best. You know perfectly well why Emmett is mad at you.

My son turns to me, having heard my thoughts. "Not you as well, Carlisle. Why is it so hard to see that Anna is doing this all to us? First she gets with the Volturi, who are evil. Second, she kills a bunch of criminals and comes to see us with some voice in her head that Alice cannot make out. Third, she tries to kill me just because I tried to protect Bella from her mate. Fourth, she gets all of us in a riot and forces us against each other."

"How could you?" I choke out, my own eyes flooding with tears that could never be shed. Never had someone spoken with such hate and malice in their hearts. I don't even think that the Romanians had such hatred, or Jane when she was torturing people. Not even Caius hated people as much as my own son did.

"How could I not, father?" My son tries to pull the father card on me. Emmett turns to me, his mouth agape as tears of his own fill his golden eyes.

I give a broken smile as Rose and Jasper finally come down from Rose's bedroom. I give one last look at my broken down son as he sits down on a chair. I could tell that he had been dry crying as vampires do. My older son had been crying nonstop for the last few days up in Emmett and Rose's room, being held by them as he released all of the pent up pain he had been holding for god knows how long/

"She's dangerous, father. She's cruel. She breaks everything that she touches." Each word broke me down further. I felt like my own son had torn me apart and was about to light me on fire. Perhaps he already did. It hurt so much. Never in my immortal life did I feel pain like the pain I felt when he attacked my daughter.

This was not my son. This couldn't be my son. I couldn't allow someone like this to be my son.

I did not turn someone just for them to tear me apart like this.

"After all of this time you all don't understand. After all that she has done. She is a murderer. She kills for fun. Annalise Volturi is a monster like no other," more jarring words ripped through the fabric of my very being.

Out of the corner of my eye I could see Jasper silently crying, being shielded by Rose, who had gone over to comfort him once again. You...you....You do this for what? To hurt me? To get some point across? You tear apart my heart and Jasper's own sanity and you want us to believe that my daughter is a monster? Edward...

"She is no daughter of yours. She has no father, no mother, no family. It was the reason that she wanted to die. I wish she had, it would make things better for our family."

It was that one sentence that hurdled my pain into pure and unbridled fury. To insult my daughter, no claim that she had no family, and to wish that she had successfully committed suicide was atrocious, monsterous, and abhorrant.

Anna was the one person that I saw in myself. Out of everyone, when I first saw her, I saw a reflection of myself. She looked so broken, so ready to die. She really did want to die. Nothing would have stopped her if you gave her the gun. Anna would have pulled the trigger every time if I had not opened myself up to her, given her all the love that I could possibly give.

The queen of our species had laid on a hospital bed that she put herself in almost a year and a half ago and Edward Masen Cullen had the audacity to claim her a monster? After what he had done to humans?

My son had fed off of humans just as he had, he just did it because he wanted to. Anna did it because she had a moral standing on the issue, wanting to preserve animal life in the world.

"I wish she were here," Jasper sobbed into his sister's chest. "I want my sissy back."

Emmett hugged his brother and even kissed his head, trying his best to comfort him. Alice wasn't even in the house, having taken Bella out shopping. She didn't even notice her own husband having a panic attack when she left, leaving it alone in favor of taking her future sister-in-law shopping with her. If Esme found me crying like he was, she would have stayed with me until I felt better again.

They just weren't mates like Esme and I were. I would do anything for her and she would do anything for me.

"Why would you want her back, Jasper?" Edward questions my son. Rose and Emmett both hiss at him, protecting their older brother. "She isn't your sissy, she's a damn sociopath."

I shake my head, having to hold in my anger. My fists clenched in my hands as I watched Jasper start crying even harder at the accusation. He loved his sister. In fact, I was already pretty sure that they were in fact soul siblings, just like Demetri and Felix and the kings.

Jasper and Anna would die for each other. God forbid one of them die on each other.

"You all act like she's some kind of saint when she kills and takes over covens for no other reason than because she can. She is what people fear from our species. Why can't you just listen to me, father-"

The anger that had been building inside of my chest burned bright as I saw red.

"No. No. You listen to me, Edward, you freaking ungrateful child! She saved your ass and you talk shit about her, to me, someone who you know damn well cares about her!" I shout at my former son. He couldn't be my son anymore. A covenmate maybe, but a son he was no longer. "Have you no damn class? You're a fucking child who doesn't know anything about what it is like to suffer as she has!"

Everyone in the room turned to me as I swore at Edward. I had never sworn at any of my children. I had never even cursed in front of anyone but my mate, who I had only done it in front of in moments of extreme venting of my frustrations. It was rare for me to say such horrid words, I knew that, but they couldn't stop coming out.

"You fucking failure of a vampire and you fucking failure of a fucking brother! You fucking failure of a son! You aren't my son. No, not anymore. You," I had to stop to catch my breath, even if I did not need it. I couldn't help it. I was so angry. "How could you do this to this family? This coven? Anna is my daughter."

"Actually choosing her over me?" It was a stupid question, with an even easier answer.

"I would choose her over you even if it meant the demise of all of my morals, my values. I would choose Anna even if I had to drink from live humans for the rest of eternity. I would choose my sons, daughters, and my mate over anyone," I sneer. I had to take a step back before I did something that I regretted, looking teary eyed into Edward's almost black eyes.

You are no fucking son of mine. I am leaving with Jasper, Esme, Rose, and Emmett and we are getting out of here until you can get your head out of your ass and see that not everything in this coven revolves around you. We have feelings, we have bonds, and you are destroying us!

"You can't just leave, Carlisle. We have a wedding to plan," Edward tries to reason with me. "You have nowhere to go. The Denalis will agree with me on this. The Volturi are dangerous."

"They are also my best friends!" I shout at him, "Aro, Caius, and even Marcus are and have always been my best friends! Back before everything, they were the ones who first supported me in my decisions! They understood that I had a moral belief and they still wanted to be friends with me! Nobody else even wanted to look at me because I had golden eyes! The Volturi have and will always be the most fervent supporters of freedom among vampires!"

Edward hisses at me, taking an offensive stance.

I looked at Jasper once more as he cried into the arms of the rest of the family that was on mine and Anna's side. My mate held him in her arms as she tried to calm him from his panic. I knew what I had to do. Jasper couldn't live like this anymore.

"Esme," my voice was but a whisper, "Get your bags. We need to get Jasper away from this. He needs Anna and he needs Anna now."

"Volterra is closed off to visitors and solicitors," Edward says, looking at his brother and snarling, "We can handle Jasper here."

"Handle him?" Rose stands up and screams at Edward, "Jasper is in pain. He has been in pain for so long but you haven't even cared! Not you or Alice or Bella have even cared that he has been breaking down because of how much you beat up on him! We are taking him somewhere he will feel safe and there is nothing you can do to stop us!"

Edward looked to Emmett for help, but he just growled at him.

"I thought that you wanted me to be happy with Bella," Edward tried to change the subject. "I thought you wanted me to be happy."

"Honestly," I growl at him, "Right now I want you dead."

"Carlisle-"

"No! I am saying it because it is the truth. If you don't let me leave with the remains of my coven I will kill you. I will burn your remains and I will not feel bad about it. You have broken me, you have broken Jasper. I will not let you break my entire coven," I shoo him away from me when he tries to come closer. "Leave, I don't want to see you."

"You can't mean that," my sired had manipulative tears in his eyes. "After all, you were the one to make me."

"I hate to be this cruel to you, Edward Masen," he cringes at the use of his mother's name, "But I made you because I was lonely. I was so lonely that I saved a child from death because his mother wanted me to. Just because I made you not mean I should accept your toxic behavior. You mean nothing to me now. Leave me and my family alone. Better yet, never speak to or of me and never use my name again."

"How-" I cut him off.

"Edward, you are a toxic, abusive, manipulative, and judgemental boy. I can not be associated with men like yourself, it is against my morals," I get up and go over to Esme, who held Jasper in her arms.

I bent down and kissed my son on the head, taking over the job of comforting our child. All he wanted was his sister. He wanted Anna to tell him that it was okay. He just wanted to have her hold him just like he held her when her heart would shatter.

"Jaz," I whisper, wrapping my arms around him. "I promise, you will see your sister again, just wait a few hours and I promise we will be in Volterra to see her."

"Daddy it hurts," he cried into my chest. "It hurts so bad and I don't know how to make it stop."

He had never called me that. When he would call me by a parental name it would always be father or dad at the most. Never anything like daddy. I guess I really was the only daddy he could ever have.

"I know, son," I shush him in my arms. "We're going to see Anna. I promise that you will get to see your sissy."