ɪᴛ ʜᴀꜱ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏꜱ ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴍʏ ʙᴇʟɪᴇꜰ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴊᴀꜱᴘᴇʀ ᴅᴇꜱᴇʀᴠᴇᴅ ʙᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ, ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴄᴀʀʟɪꜱʟᴇ, ʀᴏꜱᴇ, ᴇᴍᴍᴇᴛᴛ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴇꜱᴍᴇ ᴅᴇꜱᴇʀᴠᴇᴅ ʙᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ. ᴛʜᴇʏ ɢᴏᴛ ɴᴏ ꜱᴄʀᴇᴇɴ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ɪᴛ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ʜᴜʀᴛꜱ. ᴛʜɪꜱ ʜᴜʀᴛꜱ ᴍᴇ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ᴛʜᴀɴ ɪᴛ ʜᴜʀᴛꜱ ʏᴏᴜ.

Having to write a letter explaining to your own father figure that he may need to cut off his adopted son that he knows I hate was not the way that I thought I was going to spend my monday afternoon. Thankfully I had decided to write the letter after the weekend, meaning that I had fed and was not yet begging for more human blood.

At that, I started the letter:

Dear Carlisle,

Although I had no idea how to deal with coven related issues, I have gotten some insight from Aro on this matter. He knows how to fix problems better than the rest of the damn world, so his words should be taken seriously.

Using his own words: Even if it does hurt, my old friend will have to realize that when people create too many problems, it is likely in the favor of the survival of the coven to cut them loose. In the end, vampires are immortal. If he does not fix the problem now, those problems will become immortal as well.

Yes, this may come as a shock to you, but the Volturi have kicked people out. Those who have been kicked out usually were problem starters and would not stop gossiping and causing social issues. Yeah, I am insinuating what you think I am insinuating about Edward and Bella.

Mostly Edward.

Your son has broken his trust with me and will never be a part of my life again, no matter what. That does not mean that I am fully against you as his father. I simply believe that you have allowed him to harm my friends, your other children, for far too long.

I know for a fact that Jasper feels Edward's thirst. I know that he feels left out. He told me himself. He feels like the only thing even making him a part of the coven is his marriage to Alice and his friendship with Emmett. I know that this is hard to hear, but it may help you understand where Rose, Emmett, and Jasper are coming from. Feeling like you don't belong hurts, feeling like that with your own family stings even more.

You must remember that Jasper feels what everyone feels, even bloodlust. All of this negative energy revolving around me must be stressing him out. You may be able to cope with a lot of emotional stress, but Jasper is a survivor of war. Marcus says that the newborn year is very important for vampires. It shapes them. It is the reason that you have impeccable control and it is the reason that my friend picks sides on things he cares about. PTSD can come in many forms, remember that.

Rose being on my side should be a no brainer, Carlisle. She has and will always be my best friend, no matter how long we go without talking. My first real female friend, Rosalie has a fire in her heart and will protect anyone she feels needs protection from her. She remembers when I didn't even want to live. You know the circumstances under which she changed, you know what she did as a newborn.

She already had a rough start with Edward, who didn't even really sound like he liked her at all when I was with him. He calls her vain and it pisses her off. Edward has already started conflict in the family and this divide was bound to come sooner or later. I am afraid to say that my existence has just accelerated that process. That was not my intent.

Emmett bear is my Emmett bear and will always be my Emmett bear. The man child is the best big brother I never had and he will stand with Rose. Not because she is his mate, but because he also loves me.

Rifts have occurred throughout the centuries in covens, they can be quelled for some time but must be tenderly looked after. By tenderly looking after I mean that the leader needs to squash it with their hand like it was a flea carrying some unknown deadly disease.

You care about your coven, but I know that you care about me as well. If you didn't, you would not be exchanging letters with me. You have been caught, Carlisle Cullen. I have caught you. Yes, I, Annalise Volturi have caught you. Grovel at my feet the way that Edward and Bella think I want you to, it will be a mighty fine show.

Give them hell for me and say Hi to my bear, my babes, and my Jazzy man,

Annalise Volturi

Once I had gone over the letter over and over again, making sure my Italian was perfect, I took the letter and wax sealed it in my favorite purple wax. Taking it up to the letter box, I watched as Felix came in with the mail.

"Mom, I have mail for you," Felix smiles and hands me three letters. I guess everyone is just sending letters instead of using texts these days. I texted them once to put their numbers in my phone. Lord, guys. One of them is actually from Alexandros. From the ball? Yeah. Read it, Anna, it's a funny one.

"Thank you, Felix," I smile back at him and read the first letter, which was clearly addressed to me in Jasper's handwriting. My Jazzy man, I miss you already.

Dear Anna,

I know that the Volturi are kind of on a sort of holiday right now, but I would like to warn you about some things.

I fear that Edward is going to get Bella to refuse to be a vampire once he is able to you-know-what with her. I know he has enough control now, although he may bruise her up a bit. My brother does not want to turn her and blames you for her having to turn, even if it was the decision of your mates and would be required by law.

Things are crazy around here and emotions are running wild. I know that it's bad to take sides and all, but if I had to pick between Edward and you I would always pick you. My brother needs to get his head out of his behind and get himself a better brain. It is harsh, but you and I both know it's true.

He hasn't been the same since meeting Bella. It feels like he doesn't even care about me. It hurts when he constantly says rude things about you when he knows that I love you like a baby sister. You are my baby sister in my eyes and I would do anything to protect you. He should understand what it's like to be in love, if he even loves Bella at all, which I am doubting at this point.

The two of them are bad for each other and they are about to get married. I won't say anything and I will just go along with everything. If I am being honest, I would like to leave. This is just so stressful and I can't handle it anymore.

Would anyone even take a former southern vampire war general? I doubt that I am strong enough to join the Volturi. Nobody has ever offered me a position anywhere. I always came as a tag along with Alice.

Everyone is just drifting from me. Carlisle is at his wits end. I have never felt such anger from him in all of my years knowing him. I care about him. I don't want him to feel like this. I try to help but it just doesn't feel like I am doing enough.

Nothing feels like it's enough anymore. Not enough hunting to be around Bella, not enough love to be around my own family, not enough care to be in this town or even in this world. I feel like I'm falling apart and I don't know who else would understand. You're the only one who has been through anything similar.

I'll always be your Jazzy man,

Jasper Whitlock Cullen Hale :|

My heart dropped at Jasper's words. Not enough care in the world to live? What the hell is going on in that damn house that is making my fucking best friend borderline suicidal? Edward keeps on throwing him under the bus and Alice does nothing to stop it at this point. He tries to reason with everyone but he can't seem to get through to anyone but Carlisle and Esme. They try to stop the attacks but they don't know the full extent of what Jasper feels like right now, often being calmed by him.

Maeve's words haunted me. The fact that my best male friend was going through the feelings that I had just gotten rid of stung. It stung more than any attacks that Edward could throw my way himself.

He couldn't get to me personally, so he got to me through my friends.

The 2nd letter was from Alexandros, who I had not heard from since the ball.

Dear Queen Annalise,

I know that we have not spoken since the ball where we were first acquainted, but I would like to reach out to you now as a form of allyship. Your mates have been my friends since forever. Marcus, Aro, and I grew up in the same area, as you know. They will always have my back and I will always have theirs. Caius may be annoyed by my presence, but he will always be seen by me as an angry older brother that yells at his younger siblings to stop playing with his toys.

Just so you know, the three of them are extremely territorial with other males. I mean, they actually started glaring at me when I was talking to you. I don't think you noticed. You are much too innocent to be mated to those heathens disguised as kings. Aro, since you will be able to read this, hello and I send my regards. Let me embarrass you.

As Aro is one of my best friends, I will embarrass him first. Check his drawers in his closet. That's all I will be saying in written form, but check out those drawers, I promise you won't be disappointed.

For Caius, the petty thing, ask him about the dungeons.

Since Marcus was my next door neighbor, I know a bit too much about him. Hell, we were sired by the same rogue ancient. His neck is super sensitive, as is the rest of his body. He doesn't let it on, but he is really sensitive everywhere. Use it to your advantage, my queen.

Hope you all have fun for the rest of eternity,

Alexandros

Losing my innocence did make me understand some things about sexual activity, but the only thing I could understand was the thing about Marcus. Dungeons and drawers, the next level of D&D. Oh Gods, you don't get it. Lord, this is-Anna please you can't be this stupid! I have been feeding you information by the damn spoonful and you still don't understand?

I ignored the insults made by Maeve and opened up the last letter. I could tell that this one was sent by Esme, which was quite odd since she usually was not the kind of person to send long letters.

Dear my Anna,

I know we have not had the chance to talk, but I do want you to know that I am not upset like some of my family over you leaving Forks to be with your mates. I left with Carlisle once he told me that we were mates. It was the best decision of my life. I have never been happier than when I am with him.

What is happening around here is not what I would have expected. While I wish that you were here to cheer up my son and my daughter, who are fighting with Edward on his views of you, I know that our future may not do better with us adding more fuel to the fire. I know that Carlisle is stressed and has asked you for help. Thankfully Edward has stayed quiet about it and had not argued with him over the letter.

My mate does not beg for anything, but I know that his words did not do well to tell his true pleas. He is lost and does not know what to do. I have done all that I can to comfort him. My one true fear is that he will crack and will regret whatever he says after he falls off that cliff. It will not be his fault if anyone pushes him over the edge, but you know that the guilt will haunt him forever.

He cares for you just like any one of his own coven members, even if you are not in our coven. In my eyes, you will always be an honorary member of the Olympic coven.

I am fine, albeit a bit worried over the mental state of Jasper and Carlisle. The two of them have been spending more time together. My mate has tried to help, but I know the two of us have not done enough. For years we have not done enough. It eats us both alive to know just how depressed Jasper is. He doesn't tell anyone about it and I know that Edward knows and just plays it off on Rosalie being upset and it affecting him. He doesn't even own up to the fact that he is killing his own brother and covenmate from the inside out.

Rosalie is done with Edward. I know it and Carlisle will have to see it at some point. He has optimism, but Rose loves you too much to tolerate Edward enough and will never see him as a brother or friend again. It is the end of their friendship.

Emmett has stayed quite quiet, which is unlike him. He will not talk to Edward and only tries to comfort Jasper during their free time. They are closer, but I know Jasper still feels outcast and disconnected from everyone, even Alice, who has not even noticed his depression.

Everything has changed, and I do not know what to do. I hope that you have replied and will be able to help, even if it is small. I do not want to see the destruction of my coven. They are my family.

I just want you to know that none of this is your fault. It is ours for not seeing the signs sooner.

You will always be my daughter,

Esme Cullen

Her words hit me like a truck. Alice doesn't even notice? Too busy with wedding planning. They are not mates, Anna, their love fades like a human's would. I believe that Alice and Jasper will not last much longer. I feel for him. Honestly, even I am disappointed. Her own husband is suffering in near silence and she doesn't even care that much, only thinking of Edward and Bella and that wedding of theirs.

It was the truth, they were not mates.

Here I was, in silence, unable to shed any tears that welled in my eyes as I fell to the ground.