な 。🩰⠀ꕀ 𝗂𝗻 𝘄𝗵𝖾𝗋𝖾 𝘆𝗼𝗎 ᨳ
୧ 𝗹𝗲𝗮𝗋𝗇 𝗍𝗁𝗲 𝘀𝘁𝗼𝗋𝗒 𝗼𝖿 𝗐𝗁𝘆 𝗺𝗮𝗿𝗂𝗂 。Ꮺ
꒰꒰  ❛ ❏ 𝗐𝗋𝗈𝘁𝗲 𝗁𝗈𝗽𝗲 𝗻𝗈𝗍 𝖺𝗇𝗱 𝗵𝗼𝗐 𝗍𝗁𝗲 𝗴𝗶𝗋𝗅𝗌 ¡
୧ 𝗁𝖾𝗅𝗽𝗲𝗱 𝗵𝖾𝗋 𝗍𝗁𝗋𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵 𝗶𝗍 。Ꮺ

𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐈 𝐅𝐄𝐋𝐓 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘 emotion rush back as the words filled the paper, it was like the entire situation was playing out again and it hurt her more than the actual scene did. She was so emotionally drained after the break up, that this was the only thing she could think of doing. It was her fault and she knew it, she hurt him in ways she couldn't believe and now she was paying for it. Mari messed up a line and huffed out, ripping the piece of paper out of her notebook and throwing it towards the trash bin, alongside about 10 other crumpled up sheets, the raven haired girl was seconds away from a breakdown but fortunately, Jisoo was walking around the studio trying to find Teddy and saw Mari's studio light still on.

"Mari? Oh my god, Mari!" Jisoo panicked and rushed over the poor girl who had mascara plastered on her cheeks.

"I did this, I'm the one who broke him, but I'm hurting, what do I do, I can't, I just can't handle this." Mari sputtered out, the crying intensifying.

"It's okay, ri, you have to breathe okay? Breathe with me, deep breath in, breathe out slowly." Jisoo did all she could to calm the raven haired girl down.

Eventually after about thirty minutes, Marii was completely calmed down and the other three girls had joined the duo, comforting Marii as best as they could.

"What happened, love?" Rosie cautiously asked not wanting to see Marii break down again.

"I-I was writing the song for the new album to get my mind off of everything but Teddy visited me today and asked if we could take a sad approach to the it because apparently albums need at least one sad song or some shit and it just made me relive everything." Marii sniffled, patting around her eyes to try to get the puffiness to go down.

"Maybe it'll help to talk about it, you know get it all out there." Lisa smiled sadly.

"Well the beginning and middle of our relationship was absolutely fine, amazing even. But as time went on and things started getting top level serious, it was like something in me panicked and I just started picking random and stupid fights with him over the most ridiculous things, I mean he was already talking about getting a house together and getting a dog and I couldn't handle it, a dog made me panic! a freaking dog! anyways—I know I should have talked to him, I know that but I couldn't, every time I tried too I froze and just said never mind, what is wrong with me? Why couldn't I communicate my feelings right? I have so many thoughts in my head right now and I can't handle them but I have too because at the end of the day, I made my bed and now I have to lay in it, because I caused him pain first." Marii's voice cracked at the end.

And before Marii could even get another word out she collapsed in tears once again.

"Alright, we need to get you out of here." Jisoo sniffled, standing up.

Marii, in a way was like Jisoo when it came to feelings, she didn't cry much and rarely showed how bad she was hurting — so this was a whole new ball game for the girls.

"B-but I need to f-finish this." Marii stuttered out, trying to catch her breath.

"Teddy unintentionally took part in getting you into this mess so he'll survive until you're ready." Jennie quipped with an eye roll.

If this situation was different Marii would've laughed at Jennie's annoyance however right now felt like she'd never be able to smile again.

◌ [ 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐬𝐤𝐢𝐩 ] ─◌✰್

"This is too painful to watch, she's never cried like this over a breakup before." Jisoo sighed, running a hand through her hair. "Hell, she's really never cried like this before period."

When the girls had arrived back at the dorm, Jennie took Marii to her room and laid with her till she fell asleep. Jennie hated that the happiest girl on earth was now sad and broken.

"You guys, this is so bad, I had to hold her for over an hour just to get her to clam down again, I don't think she'd lose her mind just over something Teddy said by accident." Jennie claimed, sitting with other three girls in the kitchen.

"I think you're right, I think something else happened that she's just not ready to tell us." Rosie lowered her head.

The four girls sat for another three hours talking until a sleepy and groggy Marii walked into the living room and then proceeded to lay down on the couch, cuddling Leo, who had laid down on Marii's chest. The others were about to rush to her side until they heard her talking.

"How could I have panicked over a dog?" Marii had asked the cat who just looked at her with judgemental eyes. "What am I even doing?" Marii then chuckled at herself.

"How are you love?" Jisoo asked, running her hand softly through the sad girls hair, soothing out the few knots and snarls.

"I'm," She hesitated for a moment, "not okay in the slightest, but the sleep did help a little."

Jisoo smiled softly at the girl before standing up from her crouching position and extending a hand to Marii.

"We made all of your favorites, come eat."

Marii almost teared up at that alone, the fact that they had their own lives and issues to deal with yet they pushed them back just so they could take care of her and make sure she was still healthy because Marii herself couldn't do it on her own right now.

"I'm starving." Marii smiled and carefully lifted Leo off of her before grabbing Jisoo's hand and letting herself be pulled up.

The rest of the night was spent with Marii starting to regather herself and the girls making sure she was okay and healthy. The next day, when she was back in the studio to write the song, she had the girls with her and was finally able to complete it.

"You guys go ahead and start going to the lobby, i just have to get this to Teddy and lock up." Marii called out.

The girls nodded hesitantly slowly all leaving one by one. Once Marii was absolutely sure they were gone she pulled out her phone and opened up the browser.

"I can't fall asleep this night under the moonlight
no matter how much I wait, you won't come,
next to me is an empty space, I'm no stranger to being alone anymore, they say there's no point in regretting but I'll keep thinking of you...I'm so sorry J..."

( NOTE )

,, ⟶ i am so so sorry for this
update being so delayed, i lost all kinds
of inspiration for my books and i've been
trying to get that inspo back but it's taken
a while, i can't promise i'll update
regularly yet but i will try my hardest ! ‧₊ ❁ཻུ۪۪.;:୭̥.

,, ⟶ also, i'm not really the best at
writing chapters so please don't yell at me lol
there was a lot more to marii and junho's
relationship that made her as sad as she was
but that will be coming out in their own relationship timeline, also if anyone thinks she's overreacting, go through a shitty breakup and let me know how
you feel and react afterwards ! ‧₊ ❁ཻུ۪۪.;:୭̥.