❝ kurapika kurta ❞
[ this  is  La  Vie  En  Rose ]

Staring outside the window, different airships can be seen flying. 

The sun aren't fully rising but I'm already starting my job. I face palmed myself, really be starting to get bored. This airship don't have any internet connection in the first place that's why I can't play my favorite games on my cellphone making me more agitated.

If Gon and Killua's here, at least I can keep myself entertained. 

But today, I'm with this blonde man, with his books. I mean, we're on a mission, dude! Stop reading! He can at least talk to me and plan what we're going to do and stuffs.

I sighed, eyeing this man beside me. I'll take the first move. "Kurapika, what's the title of that book?"

"Four Tragedies," he answered, not even taking his gaze away from the stuff he's holding. Talk properly with me, man!

"Shakespeare! Is it good? Can I borrow it—"

"No." 

I pouted before crossing my hands across my chest. "Hmp!" 

Is he having his "man period" today? Or he's just always grumpy?  And with that, our conversation's over. Super long, right? It didn't even lasted for a minute. Turning my back on him, I stretched my hands as I stood up from my sit. I'm really bored! Really, really bored! We've been on this airship for a two hours and it's making my back hurts! And this man, he won't mind talking to me! 

I decided to walk inside the airship, looking at its interiors. I've been on a vehicle like this already but this is my first time taking a look around. Maybe I can see other Hunters like me inside this ship too! 

When I'm about to turn left, my phone rang, Leorio's name flashing on the screen. Thank God! 

"Leorio! You call on the right time!" I said, taking a sigh of relief. I'm finally out of that "boredom era."

"Hahahaha, what is it, Y/N? Aren't you spending your "lovey-dovey time" with Kura—"

"Shut it, old man. It's not like that!" 

Hiding the blush on my cheeks, I stayed on my position, leaning my back on the wall. Good thing that no one is around, I can freely talk with this doctor.

"Why did you call anyways? Any problem?"

"Nothing. I just wanna ask if you're having a great time with my friend."  

I can tell that this old dude is making fun of me, how dare him! He knows my secret and I shouldn't have told him that!

"I told you it's not like that! W-We're going on a job, okay? A job! N-Not like a date! It's not like I'm taking this as a date but no! This is a mission!" 

"Oh?~"

AAAAAAAAAA! My cheeks burned brighter, making my heart beat so faster. This is not a date, okay?! Kurapika and i were just on a mission! After this, I'll go back to my normal life! A-And it'll be matter of time before we meet again...

"You old dude! Stop making fun of me!"

"I'm not making fun of you! But why don't you consider confessing to him, Y/N? You've been hiding your feelings like that since the Hunter Exam. It's been two years already, man up!"

"I'm not a man, jerk. And, it's just easy to say but hard to do," I lowered my head before trying to realize what Leorio just told me. 

Yes, it's been two years since I took the Hunter Exam with Gon, Killua, Leorio and Kurapika. We're good friends but when Kurapika took his decision to start his revenge on the Phantom Troupe, he's been away from us. We tried to keep in touch though but sometimes, he ignores us. On this mission, I was given a chance to be with him again. The new chairman of the Hunter Association assigned us on a job as Hunters but it feels like I'm on my own.

I mean, Kurapika's not talking to me and it's killing me! Am i just a chair to him? Probably, a potato? Do I look like a tree? A piano?! Tell me, hmp!

He's my...okay, fine. He's my crush, for crying out loud! Ultimate crush but this numb, ignorant man doesn't seem to notice. I don't care though, he'll just avoid me more if I tell him about these freaky feelings.

"Then what are you planning to do? Hide those feelings until you get older? Or just let Kurapika find another woma—"

"Of course not!" I blurted out, trying to fight the urge to cry. "I will...I will confess to him too! But not now..."

"Y/N, I'm your friend. With Gon and Killua, we'll all support you so don't worry about the outcome."

"O-Okay, Leorio," I said on a hushed tone, wiping the tears that fell off my face. Why am I making this a big deal in the first place? Maybe because no one's making a move? 

Okay Y/N, but why should Kurapika make a move? He don't like you in the first place. I rolled my eyes involuntarily. My thoughts will be the one to kill me, not some dangerous stuffs. Nothing will happen if I keep on sitting on silence.

"Good. Now Y/N, I have to excuse myself. I still got work. Good luck with the both of you."

"Sure! Good luck with yours too!"

"Remember, just work. No kissing—"

"Leorio!"

"Kidding, kidding. Learn to take some jokes sometimes, Y/N. Such a kill joy."

"Whatever, old dude. Bye!"

"Bye."

Leorio ended the call, leaving me by myself again. I put the phone near my chest with heart beating so loud. Should I confess? But what if Kurapika does have a girlfriend already? I mean, he's not opening up to anyone. But what if he doesn't? Okay, this is stressing me!

I stood up, slapping both of my cheeks. 

We're here for work, Y/N! For work! Focus on your job, not on Kurapika, okay?! Okay! Yes, that's the spirit! 

I walked back to my seat but only to see my bag on Kurapika's shoulder and his both hands on his pockets. He looked so...damn handsome! I blushed immediately, involuntarily biting my lower lip.

"We're about to land. Here's your bag," he handed my my stuffs as I gave out a..."Thank you." 

"Next time, don't leave your stuffs like that. Someone might take interest and steal it from you," Like how you steal my heart. Hehe, that one's cheesy.

Taking my bag, I sling it on my shoulder before looking outside the window, random thoughts running on my head. 

I won't wash this bag, ever! And no one's allowed to touch this except for me. Only me! Grrr!

Going back to my seat, I grabbed my water bottle, drinking it straight. I need to calm my heart and nerves or else it's just a matter of time before I'll explode! My cheeks are burning but I hope that Kurapika's ignorant enough for him not to notice.

AAAAAA! I told myself that I'm here for work but how am I going to do my job if I'll always get distracted by this man's beauty?! It's killing me! Someone out there help me!

Closing my eyes, I made my decision. 

After this job, right after this mission, I'll confess everything to Kurapika. If he's going to cut ties with me, then so be it. I'm going to accept any outcome! Any result! My mother kept me on her womb for nine months, not to be downed just by a man. I should be strong!

Looking at the man beside me who is reading a book again, I sighed deeply. 

That's it, no more turning back! No. More. Turning. Back! Fight, fight, fight! 

Kurapika...I like you—no, scratch that. I love you.

[ TIMESKIP ]

"Ugh, what a tiring day!" 

Slumping on the restaurant's chair, I began taking a look at the menu. What should I eat for dinner? I'm so hungry to the point that I don't know what to eat anymore! Thinking too much about my feelings and doing the job at the same time really tired me out.

Mind tasting Kurapika—Leorio! That damn old man, I can hear his voice on my head, goddammit!

I shook my head before peeking at Kurapika in front of me. He's massaging his chin, as if he's really thinking about what dish he could order for tonight. Man, ramen looks good but...

"I don't know what to order—"

"Two curries please," Said Kurapika before closing the menu and giving it to the male waiter beside us.

"Right away, Sir."

Blinking twice, I looked at Kurapika. Curries? Curry doesn't look bad but—, "How dare you order for me?"

"Hmm?" He looked up, his beautiful orbs boring through my soul. "You just said you don't know what to order so I ordered for you."

"W-What? I-I mean..."

"You don't want curry? We can just replace it—"

"N-No, I want you!"

"What?"

"I-I mean, I like curry. It's okay!"  I suddenly blurred out, feeling my cheeks warm. What the hell was that?!

"Are you sick?"

"H-Huh?" 

My eyes widen in shock when Kurapika sat beside me, putting then the back of his palm against my forehead. I'm too surprised to move and my heart beat faster than before, making me a blushing mess.

"You're so red. Should I call Leorio?"

"H-Ha?? No! N-No need to! I'm fine, I'm fine!" 

Shoving his hands off my forehead, I stood up before rushing to the bathroom. How? How am I going to confess like this?! This is not so me! I mean, I'm usually calm and collected but look at me now! I can't even stare at Kurapika properly! And I my confession almost slipped out my mouth earlier!

I slapped both of my cheeks two times!

At this point, he might notice my actions and start suspecting! No, oh Lord, please don't! 

I buried my face on my palms before shaking my head vigorously. Should I ask for help? But to who? Leorio? No! a big NO. Gon? He's just a kid. Killua? He doesn't know stuffs like this!

"I'm doomed!"

"Are you okay, Y/N?" Hearing Kurapika's voice and knock outside the bathroom, I started panicking. 

Oh no, oh no! He heard me? I guess so! I'm so noisy. What should I do? What should I do?! Grabbing my face powder from my bag, I put a handful on my face to hide the blush. Yes, this will do.

"Does your stomach hurt? I'll just take you home and—"

"Hey..." I opened the door, putting up a forced smile, hiding my fidgeting fingers on my back. "I'm fine, K-Kurapika. I just took a pee so no need to worry..."

"Are you sure? You're so red and then you rushed to the bathroom so I thought you're not feeling well."

Stop acting like you care, you're making this harder for me, damn you! It's making me fall harder in love...

"Shh, I'm fine. L-Let's just proceed to our dinner, okay?" 

I reasoned before putting up a sly smile then walking ahead of him, I headed straight for our table. The dishes were now served so to ease the tension I'm feeling, I started to fill my hungry stomach. 

Kurapika, on the other hand, remained worried about me but I just ignored it. Oh God, I thought I'm going to enjoy this oh-so-called lovey-dovey time with Kurapika (it's from Leorio) but in the end, it just made me tense and all nervous! Good thing I performed my job well a while ago so I didn't became too much burned on this blonde boy.

But still...I promised myself to confess at him after the mission but...

"Do you need something, Y/N?"

"H-Ha?"

"You're muttering something. You like soda? Or probably juice or any beverages?"

"Soda will do!" AAAAAAAAA! I'm muttering under my breath, how much reckless could I be?! Goddammit Y/N, you're unbelievable!

Kurapika smiled at me before ordering the soda i told him. man, this will be a tough night for me.

[ TIMESKIP ]

"I'll take you home."

"N-No, no no, no, Kurapika. Mine's too far from yours. I'm good, I can handle myself—"

"No," The blonde man protested, opening his car's door for me. "It's already past 10. C'mon, get inside."

I still want to resist but he's too persistent about telling me that he'll send me home so I guess I have no other choice. Just sitting beside him and watching him drive drives me insane already! I sighed deeply, I'm thinking too much. Should I just retire and never mind confessing? Yeah, I guess so. Maybe this isn't the right time yet. 

My gut's telling me that I'm wrong but some part of me says I'm right. That I should just retreat for now and let fate do it's job. If he's for me, then so be it. It will happen on time but if not...then, what can I do? Sometimes, we can't just plan everything. Probably, just for this time, I should retire from these feelings and—

"Y/N, you're not okay." 

Kurapika suddenly blurted out, breaking the silence. I looked up to him, trying my best to remain calm.

"Of course I am okay—"

"You're not. Since this morning, I sensed you're not...you. You're quiet and I can sense that you're uneasy when I'm around. Do we got a problem?"

He looked at me with his magnificent orbs that makes me want to look at them forever. I can't blink, I can't look away. There's something from it that won't let me go.

"I..."

"Tell me, Y/N. Do you hate me?"

"Hate?! No, hell no. Why would I hate you?"

"Then why do I feel like you're uncomfortable when I'm here---"

"You just don't get it, Kurapika," i looked away, staring outside. You'll never get it.

I know that this conversation will end up on an argument and I don't want that. I don't want to put up a fight with him, knowing his reasons are far more better than mine.

"Then tell me so I can get it! I don't want to look dumb in front of you."

Parking his car beside the street, he looked at me. "Tell me everything that I need to know."

"It's...I mean, there's nothing you need to know, K-Kurapika—"

"There is! You're hiding something from me!"

Switching my anger on, I can't help it but to face him too, this time with fear, anger and nervousness running on my veins. Another thing why I hate arguments is that, I always end up crying! I don't know, the tears just starting to come out and then I can't control everything anymore!

"If I'm hiding something then you don't need to know about it! That's why I'm hiding it, it's just logic, okay?"

"That's a stupid logic then! We're friends that's why you're supposed to—"

"Fucking friends! We're just friends, for Pete's sake." 

Tears started to fall from my eyes, unable to control my emotions anymore. "I...I don't want to stay friends with you anymore..."

I said in a hush tone but it's enough for Kurapika to hear what i'm pointing out. 

"W-Why?"

"Why?! You want know the reason?! You want to know why?! Then here is it!" Here comes the unstoppable mouth of Y/N L/N...

"I like you! No...no! I love you! More than anybody else! You don't get it! You will never get it because you never noticed!" 

Swallowing the lump on my throat, I continued. There's no turning back, okay. So spill what you want to spill! Everything!

"You're a man which is too focused on your career and life. You're a man which is too focused on my role on being JUST your friend! You never noticed! All of my efforts, you won't notice. Two years, Kurapika. I'm hiding this thing for two years already! Almost everybody can sense it but you!"

I got out of his car, only to be greeted by the falling rain. I don't care if I don't have my umbrella with me or I'm going to take a bus all wet, as long as I can get out of this mess, I'm fine. I can't hear his rejection. I just can't! hearing the word, "Sorry...", I might go crazy. I'll accept it, yes, But I just can't—

"Y/N! Come back here!"

I kept on walking, ignoring his voice. I called a taxi and when I was about to get in, someone dragged me by my wrist and then soft lips was all I can feel brushing to mine. I want to cry harder, I want to shout louder but I stood there, frozen, under the heavy rain, with Kurapika kissing me.

Is this a dream? A dream? Then I think I should wake up. 

The kiss lasted for three minutes straight, with him pulling off first. That's my first time holding my breath for three minutes! Straight! No joke!

"This is a dream, Kurapika. We need to wake up—" 

I lowered my head but he just cupped my cheeks with his cold hands, forcing me to look up again.

"This is not a dream, idiot!" 

I can see Kurapika's emotions getting out of hand it's just a matter of seconds before he'll start wanting to slap me. I'm a total idiot, a stupid Hunter! How did I get the license again?!

"You should've told me sooner! Then at least I didn't had a hard time hiding these feelings from you too!"

Excuse me, what? I think I heard him wrong.

"E-Excuse me?"

"I love you too, Y/N! That's it! And this confession is the craziest."

"I..."

"You don't notice it too, right? You don't notice how I kept myself calm and collected when you're around? When you're making funny faces? How I tried my best not to get jealous when you're with Leorio and not with me?"

I...didn't notice that coming. 

"I love you! Maybe you're the first one to fall in love but...I caught you. I didn't let you fall hard on the floor, instead I caught you. Do you get me?!"

I shyly nodded, wiping the tears off my face. I'm such an idiot! See? See how stupid I am! I even made Kurapika stupid stuffs too like this! Closing my eyes, I felt his lips on mine again and this time, making it deeper and wilder than before. 

I'm so happy. I may not express it too much but I'm so happy and words aren't enough to describe this feeling. After two years of chasing Kurapika, I didn't notice he's chasing me back too. I guess I'm too blinded by my own emotions and efforts and became too numb on his feelings for me too. I'm wrong, I should've said sorry.

Breaking the kiss, we put our foreheads together while laughing, Kurapika trying to fight the urge to cry too.

"I'm so glad these feelings bloomed for the both us," I said in a hush tone, making the blonde man blush.

"I'm so glad too, Y/N. And now...you're mine," He said before kissing the top of my head. "Only mine."

We shared an embrace, totally enjoying the moment under the rain. At least I can sleep in peace now, right? And I can't wait to share everything to Leorio and the others. I'm pretty sure they'll be happy on this sudden news too!

"Excuse me..."

I jumped in surprise when someone spoke behind me. Sheesh. Scratching the back of my head, totally admitting I forgot about this one.

"...are you coming inside my taxi or not?"

END.