June, 2017

IMESSAGE

Fucker!
I've been home
for a couple days
and you haven't
come to see me...
Read 2:19AM

Fucker!
Bubba, please talk to
me. I want you to
tell me what's wrong
because I know
it's not just what
I said, which was
awful and again
I'm so sorry
Read 2:21AM

Fucker!
I went back and
read through our
argument. Do you
really feel like that?
Do you really think
that I'm ashamed to
be with you?
Read 2:30AM

Fucker!
I'm not. I'm not at
all. I don't care if
you aren't "famous."
You've been my best
friend for as long as
I can remember,
and you've supported
me through anything.
I'm not ashamed of
you, Lila. You are my
favorite person,
you're the most
important person
in my life (don't tell Nick)
Read 2:33AM

Fucker!
I don't want to tell
the public about us
for the sake of you,
not me. I've seen the
things that people
already comment
about you, and it scares
me so fucking bad.
I don't want you to
see that. I don't want
you to have to deal with
that, and realize that
being with me isn't worth it.

Lila 🌻
You are worth it.
That's the problem.

Fucker!
I'm so so sorry,
Lila. I didn't know it
made you feel like that.
I never want you to feel
like you're unwanted,
or that you aren't good
enough for me because
you fucking are. What
I said was just out of
pure anger and it wasn't
true at all. I love you.
You don't have to answer,
but I just have to say it.
I want you. I want to be
with you. Always.
Read 2:40AM

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YOU HAVE CHANGED FUCKER!'s CONTACT NAME TO FINN.

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REAL LIFE

"Lila, can you open the door?"

"No."

"Yes! I'm your brother you have to let me in!"

"No I don't, go away."

"Finn dropped something off."

"He what?"

"Oh, so NOW you open the door! But here, it's just an envelope."

"Okay, thanks. You can leave now!"

"No! I wanna see what it is."

"It just looks like a note, go away!"

"No!"

"Fuck you! Fine!"

"What does it say?"

Bubba,

I know you're mad at me right now, and I won't be mad if you say no, but Calpurnia has its first concert tomorrow night. I really want you to come, but it's okay if you don't.

I love you.

Always,
Finn

"Are those tickets?"

"Yeah. It looks like a plane ticket and a VIP pass..."

"Are you going to go?"

"No. I don't feel like dealing with a bunch of screaming girls all over my boyfriend. I'll just watch someone's live stream of it."

"I still think you should at least hear what I have to say-"

"No! Lucas, I'm not going to break up with him. Leave it alone. Now get out of my room, I'm serious this time."

"Okay. I'm just worried, Lila."

"You don't need to worry. It's Finn."