Hey neighbor,

If you ever stumble upon this random letter that I've written, then I guess... it's the end?

I was the kid with the heart problem ever since I grew up. My parents were too overprotective, and that led me to not experiencing what most people call 'having fun'. But that's fine. I knew my heart was weak, and from that moment on, I knew I wouldn't live long.

Was that too morbid? Sorry.

Anyway, I apologize for ignoring you the first time that you tried to be friends with me. I did not have any friends, and I mostly stay in a hospital so I'm not that sociable.

You're noisy and very talkative, but I don't mind. Also, I know that you could hear my cries since the walls are not sound proofed. Again, I apologize for that.

You're bubbly. I admire that about you. I know that you're also struggling with your health condition, but I think you're very brave. I envy you.

It was you who taught me that I could still enjoy life, even in the little things. You made the four corners of this hospital room bearable. You made me enjoy eating gummy worms.

With you, I experienced what 'having fun' feels like.

And... I start to slowly regret being born like this.

I wanted a normal life.

I know that's impossible, but it was the first time that I had the willingness to live. To fight for my life.

I want to live, Nishimura. I want to continue living... and to continue living with you.

Is that too much to ask?

I've only known life and death, Riki. But meeting you has made me realize that there's more to that. It's not just life and death.

Because between life and death, there lies something else.

Between life and death... is hope.

You gave me hope, my neighbor. Now, I don't pray a lot... but I always talk to God. I told Him to give you another chance. To give you another life.

I always sound desperate so I know He'll probably grant my wish. So you don't have to worry, you'll be alright. You will get through this.

You are my light, Riki.

Thank you, for giving light to my life... for making me see through this dark tunnel.

You must not regret anything, okay? Don't cry too much now that I'm not around to hug you. Mr. Bear is yours now. Take care of him, and always take care of yourself.

We may have met briefly shortly- but throughout those days, I have learned to love you.

Thank you for saving my life. You are my saving grace in this world, Riki.

My heart will always remember you.

forever and always,
kim sunoo