I stopped breathing.

Everything went silent.

Neither me nor Jungkook realised that my brothers and mom were listening too.

I was frozen, until Taehyung spoke up first, "You are leaving?"

Jungkook looks down and nods, "I have to,"

Namjoon drags both me and him to the couch and everyone sits down.

"Why all of a sudden?" Jin asks.

"It's not sudden, Hyung. This was planned already three months ago, that as soon as my college ends, I will leave for London to study literature further."

"When is your graduation?" Namjoon asks.

"Tomorrow,"

I swear to god I will murder Jungkook.

"You idiot," I sneer, and everyone looks at me.

I look up, tears in my eyes and anger evident on my face, "You knew this all along, and didn't even bother to tell me!?"

Jungkook flinches, so does Taehyung.

"Suyo—"

I shush them up with a motion of my hands, "You are leaving in a week! And I dont even know!"

Tears fall, "And to think that I was finally falling for you!"

Jungkook starts crying, "I-I'm sorry, Noona..."

"Wait, Jungkook what's your age?" my mom finally steps in.

Jungkook manages to reply her within his broken sobs, "Twenty one in a month,"

I scoff, "And we won't be able to celebrate your birthday!"

Mom nods, "So young love, but Suyo ain't young anymore. She turns thirty the next month as well,"

Everyone gives her a blank look, "Mom,"

She chuckles and nods, "Sorry...So, London Huh?"

I stopped paying attention to her.

"So we have one week before you go to London, Huh?"

Jungkook nods.

"One week," I grit my teeth, "Is all we have left,"

"For how long?"

"One year," Jungkook looks up at me, "One year is all I need,"

I nod, "A year is a long time,"

"Why don't you come with me, Suyo?" mom suggests and all of us look at her with wide eyes.

She smiles, "He is going to London, right? And I stay in London, so what if you come with me? You can stay with him as well, you guys love each other after all,"

We four siblings look at each other, eyes wide.

Taehyung gulps, "S...So you mean you will take Suyo with you? We possibly can't go since we have work here,"

Mom nods, as her gaze saddens, "That's right, you will be away from each other for a year,"

What?

But I can't possibly breath without them, how will I live without them? For a year?

I can't stay away from Namjoon at least, he is my twin, and you know how emotional twins are.

Whom will I cuddle with?

What will I do?

Will I be able to leave them?

For a year?

For a boy?

A boy that loves me too much.

He isn't just a boy, he is Jungkook, the one who claimed himself as mine.

Who does that?

I couldn't withstand the tension and grab Jungkook before dashing out of the house, also making sure to grab the car keys.

We get in the car and I drive to my usual hangout, my personal spot.

"Where are we going?" Jungkook asks.
"Somewhere I will make sure to make you remember,"

We arrive at the hilly area of Seoul, which usually no one came to, and start walking towards the edge, when we reach there, it was already evening by the time.

I made sure to text Joon that I am with Jungkook, so no one had to worry.

Jungkook gasps at the scenery.

"It's beautiful," he whispers.

I nod and smile, "Soothing, isn't it?"

You could see all of Seoul from here, as sun let it's orange hues on the tall buildings, the sky orange, and the sun Now slowly preparing for its departure.

This edge of the mountain was surrounded with trees, and only one large rock was there, on which I usually say on.

We stood there in silence, a comfortable one.

Until Jungkook broke it, "About what your mom said....will you really go with her and me?"

I gulp and I look at the scenery, "I don't know, honestly. I'm hurt by your sudden outburst, but I can't blame it, you have your own life too."

He sighs shakily, "I am sorry..."

I nod.

Another silence.

"Will you really leave Hyungs?" he asks.

I stay silent for a moment, my gaze never leaving the scenery, before I shake my head.

"No, I won't," I sigh and I look away and to Jungkook, "I can't. I don't know how to live without them, they have always been there for me, they were there for me through my ups and downs, that I became dependent on them, I can't live without them,"

Jungkook grabs hold of your hands, tears in his eyes, "Please Suyo, one year is all I need, just a year..."

I start tearing up too, "But a year is a long time,"

"I can't stay away from you..." he sobs.
I smile, "I can't too...Let's do this Jungkook."

Jungkook shakes his head, "Please..."

"One year, you use this one year to stand up on your feet,"

He continues pleading.

Now tears were falling from my eyes as well, "And I will use this one year, to fully recover. I promise you, that when you return, I will openly heartedly be yours, just yours. I promise that this is the last time you will see my broken state, and the next time, a whole new Suyo would he there...

"I promise you. This is the last time I would be rejecting you because when you return, we will start a new."

We both cry in silence, a paining one at that.

"I will mend up with everyone, I will become stronger, I promise to you, Jeon Jungkook."

I hug him, he just wraps his arms around me, as I lay my head on his chest.

We were still crying.

"You already taught me to love. You taught me so many things Jungkook. So many things. You taught me that love doesn't need a face and words, it's just need two hearts and souls it needs.

You taught me that age is just a number. It really doesn't matter. Just because I'm too much older for you doesn't stop you from loving me and it shouldn't stop me either. You taught me that all you need is someone who loves you for you, not because of your beauty."

I look up and smile.

"Thanks for loving me, Jeon Jungkook. Thanks for teaching me how to love again."

Jungkook sniffles and smiles, his face glistening with the tears.

"You taught me a new side of the world too, Suyo. It's because of you I realised that love is not always so easy to occur. It's a connection of understanding and trust between two souls, the trust that never breaks even when two souls seperate."

I sob.

"I love you, Kim Suyo, to the moon and back," he sobs.

"I won't confess to you, Jungkook. I won't tie you down. Maybe you will find someone better there, maybe you will fall in love again. So I won't confess. If you return back with the same feelings for me, then I will always be ready to confess to you."

He nods, "I understand. Though you have my word I won't be able to like any of the girls there."

We chuckle, "Maybe yeah. But a year from now on, I promise, if you return, I will be waiting right here for at this time, to confess my love for you."

He grins, "You better not break it."

I laugh, "I ain't a kid."

Another silence.

"Just remember, the coconut wants you." he grins.

I kiss him.

"I know, and forever will. You know, even if I don't get the chance to confess you, I will forever keep you in my heart. Because you are an important figure in my life,"

"I will forever keep you in my heart too, Suyo, as for you are my first love."

We smile.

I could never forget you Jeon Jungkook.

You taught me that Age Matters are not something that should be stopping someone from loving one, or doing anything.

After all, it's just a word.

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Two more chapters.

Aurora! ❤