43. "I Can't Do This Anymore."
I wish that I could give you what you deserve
'Cause nothing can ever, ever replace you
Nothing can make me feel like you do, yeah!
Justin's P.O.V
Who does he think he is? Coming here and asking out my girlfriend in front of me!? Not only that, he touched her ass. He touched what's mine. How dare he do that!?
I was far more than furious. This whole sneaking thing was now getting up on my nerves. I hated how immature boys think they can ask my girlfriend out whenever they want to. I hated how they think they can flirt with my girlfriend in front of me. I was so fucking tired of this.
I wanted to tell everyone that Charlotte was mine and I was hers. I wanted to hold her hand in front of everyone. I wanted to kiss her in front of everyone. I wanted everyone to know that there was an us.
But I couldn't.
And I can't take this anymore. "Let's go home." I mumbled and Charlotte's eyes slightly widened. "Why? Jay, don't let him get into your mind." She said. "I said, let's go home now." I repeated myself. "And I want to stay at the beach." She said. "Don't test me baby." I lowly growled. "Justin why-"
"-I said now!" I almost yelled and she flinched looking at me with her widened teary eyes. I took some deep breathes, trying to calm myself for Charlotte's sake.
"I'm sorry for yelling babygirl. But please let's just go home." I said softly and she slowly nodded before she started grabbing our things and I started helping her.
Once, we had gathered everything, I put it in the backseat and we both got in the car. As I was starting the car, I saw Liam and the anger that I had tried to calm was back again. I felt like a volcano which could erupt any moment now.
I growled before starting up the car and driving away.
"Justin why are speeding up?" Charlotte asked after a while when she saw me speeding up. "Just shut up. Let me drive!" I spat. "What has gotten into you!? Why are you being so mean to me all of the sudden!?" She said throwing her hands up in the air.
"Charlotte, I'm not really in a mood to to talk so just shut up!" I said. "I won't just shut up! You'll tell me what's wrong? Is it about Liam-"
"-I'll tell you everything once we reach home. Just stop talking for now!" I said, interrupting her. I tightened my grip on the steering wheel making the veins on my hands pop up. "You better tell me everything." She mumbled wrapping her arms around her chest.
For the rest of the ride, none of us uttered a single word.
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"Now tell me what's wrong? Was it about Liam asking me out? But I did say no to him." Charlotte said.
"I'm tired okay. I am so fucking tired." I said, taking a deep breath. "I can't do this anymore." I said. "What do you mean you cannot do this anymore? Are you--are you breaking up with me?" She said as a tear slipped down from her eyes.
There's nothing like us
There's nothing like you for me
Together through the storm
There's nothing like us
There's nothing like you for me, together
Charlotte's P.O.V
"I'm tired okay. I am so fucking tired." Justin said taking a deep breath. "I can't do this anymore." He added.
He cannot do this anymore? My heart started pounding in my chest as soon as I heard him say that. Did he meant he didn't wanted to be with me anymore? Was he tired of us?
"What do you mean you cannot do this anymore? Are you--are you breaking up with me?" I said as a tear slipped down from my eyes.
"What!?" He yelled. "Are you fucking stupid? Why would you think that?" He said cupping my face in his hands. "You aren't tired of us?" I whispered and he immediately shook his head. "No baby. I'm not. I'm tired of us sneaking all the time. I tired of those immature horny teenager boys who think they can flirt with you in front of me." He said.
"I'm tired of not being able to tell anyone about us. I want everyone to know that you are mine and I am yours." He said.
"You know we cannot do that just yet." I said softly. "I don't care now! Okay!? I don't fucking care about the world. I don't care what they have to say!" He yelled.
"We cannot do that Justin. Don't do anything out of anger!" I said trying to stay calm, grabbing his upper arm in my hand.
"Why should not I, huh? Why? Don't you see what is happening around you?" He yelled. "Don't you see how those boys look at you, don't you see how they eye fuck you in front of me and I cannot do anything about it because I am forced to keep us a secret? Don't you see these things?" He yelled.
"You think you are the only one who feel this way?" I yelled not being able to control myself anymore. "Do you really think you are the only one huh!?" I said. "No Justin you aren't. Have you seen how girls flirt with you in front of me. Do you see that? Do you see how I try not to let my jealousy take over me and create a scene in front of everyone? I cannot say anything about it Justin. Why? Because you fucking adopted me and technically I am your fucking daughter." I yelled.
"No you aren't! You know we aren't biologically related!" He yelled, denying my statement. "Maybe we aren't but legally I am. How do you think I feel about other girls flirting with you?" I said. "I feel exactly like you do..... Don't you trust me?" I said, staring at his face. "I trust you but I don't trust them." He said.
"I don't trust their horny asses around you." He said. "Then trust me. Nothing will happen because you know I won't cheat on you." I said.
"We cannot tell anyone anything and we cannot do anything about this Jay and you know it!" I said.
"Then what should we do huh? Stay hidden for the rest of our lives; being scared of this fucked up world?" He said furiously. "I don't want to do this anymore." He said cupping my face in his hands again and resting his forehead against mine.
"I don't want that. I'm fuckin' tired of it. I want to be able to hold your hands in the public. I want to be able to kiss you in public without caring about anyone. I want everyone to know that you are mine and I am yours. I want everyone to know how much I love you. I want to write songs about you and proudly say that it is for you in front of everyone. I just can't do this anymore." He said, looking really frustrated.
"I want them to know to." I whispered. "I want to hold your hands too. I want to kiss you in front of everyone without caring too. I want to tell everyone how much I love you. I'm tired too. But we cannot do it. Not now at least. We will have to wait." I said. "I d-don't want to wait." His voice cracked.
I held his hands which were cupping my face and closed my eyes. I kinda knew we would have this conversation in future. Both of us were really annoyed and tired of this whole sneaking out.
It was getting up on our nerves. Whenever we were out, someone would always come and flirt with one and the other one really couldn't say anything because we were forced to stay quiet.
I was tired too but we really didn't had any other choice left other than waiting.
"I know what to do." He sniffled before pulling away. I opened my eyes and saw Justin taking his phone out of his pocket.
"Jay what are you doing?" I said when I saw him unlocking his phone. "I am telling everyone about us. I don't give a fuck now. I will tweet and post on Instagram telling everyone about us." He said and my eyes widened.
"You cannot do that." I said. "I will do it!" He spat. "Jay no. Don't do something out of frustration and anger." I said. He simply ignored me and started typing.
"Justin please don't." I said. "Why are you stopping me!? Don't you want everyone to know about us!?" He yelled not looking up from his phone.
"I DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU JUSTIN!" I screamed and he froze at his spot and stopped typing. He looked up at me in shock. "What?" He whispered. "I don't want to lose you." I cried walking walking towards him.
"Hey hey hey princess, don't cry." He said desperately wiping away my tears. "I k-know you really want to tell everyone... and so d-do I but please not like this. I-I don't want to lose you." I sobbed closing my eyes and hugging him tightly.
He hugged me back and started rubbing my back softly.
"I won't do anything out of anger, okay. Please don't cry." He said desperately trying to make me stop crying.
"How about we talk to some elders?" He asked. "We can talk to Mom, Dad or Scooter about it. How about that?" He asked. "They are more mature and experienced than us. They'll know what we should do." He said.
"Do you want to do that?" He asked softly and I sighed and slowly nodded against his chest.
"Okay we'll talk about this to them. Please don't cry." He said squeezing my body.
I looked up from his chest and rested my chin on it. He stared down at my face and placed his lips on mine, pulling me into a loving and passionate kiss.
"Hopefully we won't have to wait for too long." He mumbled when we pulled away.
I hoped so too.
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To be honest, I don't know how I didπ¬
But I tried my best.
How do you think the talk would go? Will they have to wait longer? Or not too long?π
Anyways,
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