"It's being a week since my mother and father had divorced while Yoongi was 1 years. He never felt what was like to have no father as he was always drinking while he was 6 months,unfortunately what exactly happened after my parents divorce."

My first abuse started when I was in kindergarten leaving me to have a bruise on my arm. Obviously I hid it so that no one knew except my two best friends Hosoek and Namjoon. We been friends even though they didn't know that I have a brother. Well I didn't want to tell them,so I just erase my memory with my brother when I first met him after he was born. My father always blame me for my mother's divorce.

One day I was late for school and got detention, I didn't tell my father about it as he will beat me unconscious. Don't you believe it like who would abuse their children? How would people get cruel especially when they get blamed for their mistakes. Well that's what my father did to me, blame me for my mother's divorce and Yoongi. He said I was a mistake and maybe that's why people hate me. Ugh ! That really angers me that I just one day want to kill him. Just kidding I don't believe in violence.

Anyway after I got out of detention, my father as usual was drunk started yelling at me for not cooking and cleaning. I told him I had detention and he just started hitting me saying that he had lost his second job and there is no money for rent. I cried in pain as he hit me with his belt especially on my back. Ouch ! That really sounds sad but instead I'm used to it.

I went to my bedroom and cleaned my wounds, dressed into clean clothes and went to sleep. Well you expect me to sleep peacefully, it's not as peaceful at all. I get nightmares of my parents argument while my little brother Yoongi was crying as I just hugged him. He was just a week. I work up from the nightmare I had when my father continues to beat me that when I went for therapy they diagnosed me with PTSD and depression. Can you really believe it I was just a 15 year old suffering from a mental health just because of my asshole father. He really ruined my life.

Now that I'm 18 my very close best friends Hosoek and Namjoon were talking about the new student and how cute he is. I keep wondering who is this new student until I accidentally bumped into a boy wearing a hoodie and ripped jeans. His face was covered with a mask but when he looked up I saw those familiar cat eyes. I thought I was dreaming but he just bowed and apologize as he disappeared.

I just shrugged and went to my next class seeing Hosoek as I went of course I couldn't tell that the mysterious boy was younger so I asked him about the mysterious boy.

He told me that the boy was name was Suga ,he doesn't know his real name but he is 17 loves music and basketball. I didn't know what he dreamt of becoming for the future. Well who cares as the lesson started and saw him walking distance from me, I just ignored and went to hell seeing my father sleeping smelling like alcohol. I really hated that smell so I went to complete my homework. I need to study for science as I keep failing it like the 5th time because of the abuse which really made my education like hell.

My father who just woke up and started banging on my door which I got annoyed and just shouted at him instead wrong move he beated me as a punishment for being rude and I should die. I cried but instead of being a weak person I just limped and went to the bathroom to clean my wounds. I just wished that my life was perfect but instead it's a total nightmare, while having those scariest dreams about me dying. Maybe my father was right, maybe I was a failure and can't defend myself like other kids.

I just said goodnight to my mother and brother. I hugged the picture of Yoongi telling him that I promise that we meet. I might wonder if he is healthy and not suffering like I am. I remembered when he was just crying and I sang a song called Abyss, crying while singing it to show how sad life can be and finally fell asleep.

Author's note

Crying while writing this chapter. The tone from anger to heartbreaking is so emotional. The song Abyss describes his feelings for being lonely and what would happen when Yoongi POV will be introduced. Well this story is basically about the point of view from the time they were together but was faded. What secrets will Yoongi really hide when jin totally find out?

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