Taehyung still got her things in his room. He still got her clothes hanged in the closet, her perfume, the book she'd read before sleeping at night, and her favourite white slippers she liked to wear.

But he no longer had her in his room.

He missed her on the side of his bed.

Two days without seeing her face. Two days lacking Y/N. The love of his life, the girl who makes his heart flutter. Taehyung didn't blame her for forcing him to leave her alone, it must be hard knowing that you're a mother out of nowhere. Also, the fact that Taehyung carried her baby away from her must have hurt her.

It was tough. Being away from Y/N was hard. And what made it even harder was the fact that he didn't know she was taking time to progress everything that was just revealed to her, or she was intending to be away from him for the rest of his life.

He felt like the loneliest person on this earth when he saw her walking out of the hospital room yesterday. His whole world fell apart, and all he could do was watching her blankly.

"Daddy where is Bee? It's been a very long time since she is in hospital, why isn't she coming back?" Haru asked Taehyung as he helped her change into her sleeping clothes.

Taehyung cradled the small girl's face in his big hands and placed a soft kiss on her forehead. "She'll be back... Soon." He reassured the little girl and let out a sigh. "Now go to sleep. You don't wanna wake up late, do you?"

"Okay. But will you come and lay with me until I fall asleep?"

He flashed her a small smile, his eyes shining seeing the copy of Y/N in front of him. Her eyes shining, the brown colour lighter than the ones of her mother, Y/N.

The shining eyes which always were full of love when she looked at him. The eyes held life and happiness, as well as sadness.

And with those eyes, you could set the whole sky on fire. But you chose to burn me instead.

Taehyung laid beside the daughter of his lover who by now was like his own daughter too. He had never told the little girl that she is not his real child. He had never told her that she has a mother but a mother who had forgotten her and never had seen her.

But when one day Haru came home from school, shedding big thick tears while asking why she does not have a mother like her friends, he told Haru that she does not have a mommy like other kids, and that it is okay and that not everybody has mom or dad.

He had told her that she does not need a mom since she has him. He had said that he will be a very good father to her and that she can always rely on him. Trust him. Cry in front of him. Play with him. Shop with him.

And he told her that he will always love her with his whole heart.

And now while looking at her form in his embrace with closed eyes, he wonders will Y/N take Haru away from me?

He had seen what real pain is; watching your loved ones getting away from you without doing anything.

He still can not forget the day when the doctors informed them about Y/N's lost memories. The day he took mini Y/N and flew away from Y/N.

He still can not forget the pain he felt the first few months being away from his Y/N. It was so tough. So hard, it felt like a stab in his heart every second.

He again gained Y/N back. But yet again he lost her, and he does not want to stand helplessly watching Haru getting away from him too.

His chain of thoughts was interrupted when Haru tapped his chest lightly, trying to get his attention.

"What is it, sweetheart?"

"Can you sing a song for me? I can not fall asleep..." The girl cutely requested. He immediately nodded afterwards, not wanting to break her heart.

"Twinkle twinkle little sta-"

"Not that one! I am not a baby anymore. Sing me a song that you adults listen to, they are way better than these nursery songs you always sing to me."

Taehyung let out a soft chuckle at her words. "Okay then. What kind of song do you want me to sing for you?"

"Hmmm... I think, sad. Because I'm very sad that Bee is not here." She closed her eyes.

Taehyung's heart slammed with pain, feeling what the little one felt. "Okay..."

He thought for a moment, then let out a heavy sigh before starting to explain what he felt through a song he sang.

"Ballons are deflated, guess they look lifeless like me...

We miss you on your side of the bed, mmm...

Still got your things here, and they stare at me like souvenirs...

Don't wanna let you out my head.

Just like the day that I met you, the day I thought forever.

Said that you love me, but that'll last for never.

It's cold outside like when you walked out of my life, why you walk out my life?

I... Get like this every time...

On these days that feel like you and me...

Heartbreak Anniversary...

'Cause I... Remember every time...

On these days that feel like you and me...

Heartbreak Anniversary, do you ever think of me?"

"Daddy, you miss Bee too, don't you?"

"Yeah, I miss her too... I miss her so much."

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Have you felt how hard it is to be living?

It's just so hard that you will not believe it. You feel like that in many different situations. And Y/N felt it too. She found living this life is so tough and annoying sometimes.

She found it hard to breathe whenever she remembered what just happened to her just in a matter of a few days. How her life changed one hundred eighty degrees.

She didn't know what to do, where to go, who to speak to. No one was there, not even Sham who was her best friend. Because she is one of them, they all are the same. They all took my baby away from me.

She was walking mindlessly in the streets, passing by many stores, many groups of friends and families. The sky night was clear, the moon shining over the busy city and the stars twinkling happily.

She wished she was a star as she admired them. She'd rather shine in the black night sky- admired by people- studied on by scientists- and visited by astronauts, than being a weak girl who got happiness and lost it a moment after. She didn't want to taste happiness for a short time.

She thought about Haru. How she always felt some different - a special different - kind of connection to the girl. How she saw familiarity in her face. Her face was like her own one.

Haru had many similarities with Y/N. Her facial features, her behaviours, some of her actions. If a stranger saw them together, they would immediately know that they are a mother and daughter.

Then she thought about another thing. She is my daughter, then she should be with me. But how? Y/N didn't have a good living place, she only had the small house she and her mother lived in which is now almost empty and had old - worn out things since she moved in with Taehyung.

The past few days, she went back there and it was not the best for a child as pure and innocent as Haru to live in. It was not the best for Y/N herself, leave alone Haru.

I'll leave Haru for now till I do something.

A few other moments passed, she saw a bench and felt how bad her legs ached. She went towards it and sat down. She could feel that she was hungry, but did not have the appetite to eat. She could feel that she was very tired but there was nowhere to go except her house.

But she didn't want to go there, it only reminded her of her mother and she didn't want that. Because it only gave her more pain than she already had.

I wish I was dead as you mom, I wish I was there with you now. She thought as she looked up at the sky.

Then someone popped up in her mind. She took her phone out and turned it on. Pressing on the name she wanted to call then bringing the phone up to her ear. It rang a few times then a shuffling sound came followed by a very warm tone.

The kind of tone that is incredibly peaceful and makes the listener feel comforted and content.

"Y/N?"
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After hearing his voice, Y/N could feel the surprise and shock the boy felt.

"Hi, Jungkook..."

"Hi, Y/N. Is everything fine?"

No. "Yes... I guess..." She replied.

Jungkook was a guy who she met long after her waking up from the coma she went through. The guy had no hand in hiding Haru away, she believed. So she thought that Jungkook is the best person she could seek help from.

Even though he was playful and carefree most of the time, he was good and kind too. Not to mention how he looked at Y/N like his sister and he always spent good times with her.

"Do you want me to do anything for you?" He asked, the warmth of his tone giving her comfort.

"Jungkook can you come to pick me up? I feel so lonely. There is nowhere I can go and there is no one to speak to. Please-"

"Where are you?" He cut her off in between her pleading, not baring the pain in her voice. She sighed in somewhat that felt like a relief and gave him her location, hanging up the phone afterwards.

It didn't take too long when Jungkook showed up in his black Mercedes-Benz. He rolled down the window of the passenger seat and lowered his head so he could look at Y/N who was still sitting on the bench.

"Hop in the car, sis."

She stood up, her heavy steps taking her to the side of the car then opening the door. She slides in quietly and closed the door afterwards. Jungkook looked at her for a few moments before sighing and stepping on the gas pedal.

"Are you okay?" Jungkook asked.

"I don't know, kook. I don't know anything anymore..." She said, a sudden wave of emotions hitting her. She blinked her tears away as she looked out through the window.

"I feel so much that I'm starting to feel nothing."

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I couldn't publish this chapter, it's been 5 days since I'm trying but I just can't.

I divided it to 2 parts and I published the 1st one yesterday but it's available here too. I'm gonna delete the one from yesterday.

And Y'all I'm in love with (Heartbreak Anniversary) 😢.

And It relates to this chapter I guess?

Anyway, have a nice day/night💖

-Taehyung's Soulmate