One Shot

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Your eyes slowly open

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You take a shaky breath

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The smell of disinfectant overwhelms you, but you force yourself to ignore it and look around. The walls are white and you can't seem to hear anything except the monitor that's displaying your, now increasing, heart rate.

A nurse rushes in.

"Ms. Y/N, just take deep breaths and relax okay?" she says soothingly

You nod slowly, closing your eyes and passing out once again.
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You open your eyes; this time someone is sleeping in the chair besides your bed, his head laying on the edge of your mattress. You can't see his face so you try to sit up, pain immediately coursing through your body.

You gasp loudly, for a couple seconds you couldn't breathe, and the man jerks awake. He looks up at you with his eyes wide as if seeing you for the first time; for you, this was the first time.

You stare for a couple more seconds and you open your dry, peeling lips and quietly whisper,

"Who are you?.."

The man's eyes widen further but this time with anguish, you don't understand why though. He stands abruptly, and leaves the room, making you feel like you've said something wrong. Before you could analyze it any further, you black out again.
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This time you open your eyes and see the man watching you carefully. He stands and hands you a glass of water which you quickly down, now coughing because you drank it too fast. He laughs softly and you raise a brow towards him.

He stops, looks at you tenderly and introduces himself

"I'm Kim Namjoon" he says, watching your face for any reaction.

You don't recognize it so you introduce yourself too, noticing the flash of pain that passes his eyes only momentarily before he brings back his smile.

"So, who are you?" you ask curiously. He breathes in sharply

"Y/N... I... I'm your-" He shakily starts, but he cuts himself off for a second and seems to change his answer "-your close friend"

You don't know why you don't believe him; but who were you to deny otherwise... you couldn't remember anything.

"...What happened to me?" you say, panic rising, wondering why you couldn't remember the man who claimed he was your close friend. You would've recognized him right?...

"You were in an accident... A car accident... You barely got out alive, but I think..." he swallows audibly, "I think you've lost your memories..." he finishes and then asks you what the last thing you remember doing was, before you woke up in the hospital room.

You try to think back, closing your eyes as you concentrate. You were heading to a cafe yesterday, on a beautiful sunday morning. It's July 2015 and you were meeting someone but you couldn't remember who or why... Everything before that was clear and everything after that was fuzzy. You tell him and see his face pale.

Before you lost confidence you asked with dread "...What day is it?", already having a feeling you weren't going to like what you heard. You feel your pulse quicken anxiously, and start tearing up when he looks at you sadly

"March 12....2017..."

Your heart skips a beat and you let out a painful, heart wrenching sob.
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Weeks have passed and now you were being discharged; Namjoon helping you slowly, as he took you to his place, or rather the place you both were sharing. He explained earlier that you were his roommate ever since 2015 and you only nod solemnly, cursing at yourself for not remembering.

In the weeks after he told you the current date, you were despondent. You hated not being able to recall anything that happened in the last two years and wonder what crucial memories you had lost.

Namjoon was the only constant in your bitter experience and you were so thankful to have someone like that for you; knowing that you had no direct blood relatives alive anymore.

Every now and then you noticed him sending you looks, sometimes of sadness, other times full of devotion but each sending waves of butterflies in your stomach. You don't really know why, but you reckon that there was nothing platonic between the both of you, prior to the accident... That was the only way to explain how you were reacting... Pushing your thoughts aside, you both get settled in and he gives you a weary smile before telling you to get some rest.

Still not fully recovered, you agree and drift to sleep.
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"...you think I like this?"

"You need to tell her..."

You waken to the sound of two voices in an argument. Slowly you get out of your bed and silently walk in it's direction.

"She deserves to know Joon..." you peer in through the cracks of the door, seeing Namjoon and another man talking.

"I want to tell her so badly, Hyung but I can't... I won't be able to take it if she doesn't want me, even after she finds out." Namjoon says in frustration

"Joon, it's not your choice to make... She needs to know that-" His friend is cut off by Namjoon walking up towards him angrily.

"That what Yoongi? She needs to know that I fell in love with her in the summer of 2015, finally got her to date me a couple months after that and then...proposed to her the year after? You mean to tell me that you want me to tell my WIFE, who thinks we're only friends, that we've spent years together and possibly lose her when she realizes she doesn't want me?? IS THAT WHAT YOU WANTED ME TO SAY? SHE DOESN'T REMEMBER ANYTHING; EVERY SINGLE MEMORY, EVERY TOUCH, EVERY KISS AND EVERY MOMENT WE SPENT TOGETHER. Nothing...and it's breaking me because all I want to do is hold her... But I lost everything and I can't afford to lose her now, even if she doesn't love me..." Namjoon finishes now with tears streaming down his face as Yoongi slowly pulls him in for a hug.

He lets out a heart wrenching sob.

You place a fist in your mouth trying to hold back your wails in devastation, as you cry for every pain you've unknowingly inflicted onto Namjoon. Making up your mind, you knew what you had to do. You push the door open.

"...But that doesn't mean I can't learn to love you again Joon..." you say out loud, tears still streaming, as you entered the room. Both men look up at you, startled. Namjoon, brokenly, but full of love, looked at you and stood up slowly. Yoongi stands as well and, deciding that he needed the let the both of you sort out your situation, leaves quietly.

"Y/N..." he whispers, as you walk towards him with newfound confidence.

"You've known me for more than 2 years and I've only known you for around 2 months" you start, speaking with a purpose.

"But I can tell you one thing that I've learned in these two months and it's that every day I'm with you, I learn more about everything I was and everything you are, and that makes me feel normal"

You point at his chest.

"Even without my memories, my heart is connected to yours so if you think that not being able to remember anything about is a problem, I'll rediscover it. Every memory I've forgotten, we'll recreate. Every touch I can't recall, we'll redo, and every kiss I've missed out on, we'll make up for.
Namjoon, even if I never remember our past, we still have the future." you finish, breathing heavily at getting everything you needed to say, all out of your chest.

"After all, the body remembers what the mind forgets right?" you say as you draw him into a hug. "Mine is telling me that it's already in love with you, my mind just needs to catch up" you say jokingly, eyes prickling with tears, as he holds onto you tighter.

He doesn't say a word, just continues to holds you. And you know that no matter what problems you have hereon, the both of you will be able to overcome it, together.

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Here's the next one shot!

Sorry for bringing in the angst, but I felt like I needed to write one to get rid of all the frustration that's been piling up in the last couple of days. Love you guys lots

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