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A/N :

I DIDNT HAVE IT IN MYSELF TO GO WITH GRACEEE

please I'm like so obsessed with Anakin is unhealthy now, IS IT POSSIBLE TO DO A SLOW BURN AND YET THEM ALREADY MARRYING IN THIS CHAPTER? 

you'll have to find outtt

say "here" if y'all are reading this

⚠warnings⚠

literally just cringy stuff, like, prepare you people

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He took way too seriously to forget about everything

That was my first thought as we continued talking after the call form his mother. 

Dinner came soon after the appetizer , cutting the awkward silence between the both of us, R2 stood beside Anakin's leg, he'd move now and then comforting him. I poked the food, playing the message in my head repeatedly.

I heard some sound in the background, maybe that could be a clue. What if she was being held hostage? Or, maybe it was just the senate? Or maybe...

-You  haven't touched your food- His voice called me, I looked up, his eyes were looking into mine and he gave me a little smile. I smiled back, that's all I could do. -So... what do you do here for fun? You know, besides drinking.- 

He said in a joking tone, making me giggle nervously. -It was just... one time, alright?- he hummed, -That's not what they told me, sunshine. It isn't something you should be ashamed of, it's not like I don't drink.- 

-I can have fun without drinking, Anakin.- 

-I'd like to hear about it, you're acting all shy, I hate that.- 

-Fine, I won't act "all shy", if that's what you want.- He settled back in his seat, spreading his legs slightly

-Go on- He answered me in a lower tone, sure he was teasing me. I'm not going down that path. 

-I like ice-cream.- I blurted out. He looked at me with confusion on is face, heck, I was even confused. 

I paused for a moment... 

-and I like dresses, and braiding peoples hair- I kept going, like my tongue rolled words without even thinking about it before. I wasn't even thinking about it. 

-I'm also competitive, but I try not to show it out of politeness.-  I looked at the table now,  and started concentrating on the things I said, what are my deepest dreams? I thought in the back of my head

-When I get tired, I lay on the floor, cause even my bed feels annoying to me. I love walking on town, but I hate doing it alone, at least most of the times. It's like... feeling like I can have a little fun, so I pretend I'm a tourist so I don't have the pressure on my shoulders.- 

I exhaled, I said all that in just one breath, I mentally shook my head. -I like that, that's better than just smiling and nodding.- He stated. I bit my lip, what  I should have done a few seconds ago, before I opened my big mouth.

-I think neither of us will eat- I added, looking at both of our plates, his not even touched. 

-There's always room for dessert, you know?- I chuckled, and called for our plates to be removed, so we could have dessert... I hope he was talking about this type of dessert. 

-maker, this is delicious- He blurted with his mouth full. -I know, right! Purgills eat these too- I replied. -Do they, now?- 

-Yeah! I once visited them, and I was allowed to fed them, their energy is unexplainable. Once I gave them these, they made flips around the whole sky.

It was like they made a little show for us, it was cute.- the corners of my mouth turned up, and so did his -Didn't they knock you off or something?- I raised an eyebrow, huh? 

-Yeah, I actually died and was re-born again- I answered sarcastically, but he did not react. 

Well isn't he a tough audience?

-If I, for some unexplainable reason, let you braid my hair... would you do it?-

-Is that even a question Anakin? Of course I would! I could even do it now if you soo badly want me to.- I smirked at him, he touched his hair immediately with worry in his face.

-I said for unexplainable reasons, not now!- 

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I can feel his stare at me, we're walking side by side in the garden now. Just a few minutes ago we finished up out dinner (only dessert) after the awkward meeting with Clovis, and the disturbing call from his mother.

We ended up in the garden, adorned with wild flowers and big trees.

-So purrgils, huh?- he chuckled

-Oh come on, they're the best creature in the whole galaxy! I could talk about them for hours.- 

I answered with a smile on my face, we kept speaking about my home planet, I've always been a nerd about our history. How we ended up here, being one of the greatest provedors in the system. 

-My mother used to talk about them, since I was a kid. But not with so much heart as you do, they really are that special?- 

-The best.-  He half smiled at my answer.

I yawned, it was late after all. He stood up and held his hand out for me to grab. -We should get to our chambers. It's late, sunshine. 

I looked into his sky blue in his eyes, that same voice that annoyed me so much a few days ago, just made my heart make a jump. Or two. 

We finally arrived at my door. 

-Thank you for having dinner with me... I really appreciate it- 

-I enjoyed it too, we should do that again... tomorrow?- I tilted my head, waiting for him to say the one thing I'm wanting... but no.

-Goodnight sunshine- He gave me a sweet smile and bowed respectfully, before I closed my door slowly. 

Turning my back hitting the big cold door, I saw his shadow peeking through the bottom of it. He didn't move, nor did I. 

Till he finally did, I exhaled the air I had in my lungs, like a heavy weight was off my shoulders. 

what the heck was all of that..

I was in my balcony, the flowers that adorned the border of it, I felt like when I was a child. I used to have this huge crush on one of my internship colleagues, a few years older than me, he had dark curly hair and shiny eyes. I used to picked flowers, picked petal by petal. "He loves me... loves me not..." till the last petal always ended up in... bingo, loves me not.

I had a pink flower in my hand, started doing that same old ritual I did all those years ago

"He loves me", I started thinking in my head, "he loves me not" I continued slowly picking the petals out. "he loves me ..." and I heard a knock on my door.

 Maker, I cant have 5 minutes alone, can I? 

I stood up with the flower still on my hand, I opened the door to reveal Jyn on the other side.

-Hey, you had a fun time?- she asked while I moved gesturing her to come in. -I... yes? but, uh, not... really- I was kind of disappointed with the ending. 

-oh- she just managed to say, yeah... "oh".

-So, would you like me to help you change?- 

-I'm fine, Can you just help me un-button my dress? Please?- I left the flower on the edge of my bed. She helped me do our night routine. Leaving her alone as I was in the bathroom to take my outfit off. 

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I was preparing Vya's bed the way she loved it, but I came across one flower with almost no petals, four remaining looking alone.

I look it and placed it in the bureau next to the door, beside her hairbrush and comb. 

-I'm readyyy- she screamed in excitement. Her own emotion contagious, making me feel like I was on a cloud. It has this unique energy that makes even the bluest person feel like a unique star. 

She threw herself in bed cuddling, covered with millions of her thin blankets. -I'm leaving now, do you need anything?- 

-I'll be fine, thank you Jyn, really appreciate you..-

I turned around to share the same look she gave to me, but something felt off. I couldn't quite catch what, or why this feeling. 

My body was moving towards the door, I tried to stop myself, but had no excuse for it, so I just went on. Leaving her alone in the room. 

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I moved back and forth in my bed, pulling the covers over me, and the next second pulling them off completely. I was not comfortable, I was cold and warm at the same time.

-ugh- I got up from my bed, my bare feet pacing around my room, I drank water from the pitcher on my bureau. But I was still far too thirsty.

I had an unexplainable headache, flashbacks of my little nightmare of a few seconds ago, I felt like I hadn't slept at all. Or just all my sleep was gone in the nightmare. Yellow eyes were still haunting my head.

My feet were moving, but my eyes were still partially closed, I've known this place since birth, it's not like I can get lost in it.

oh I spoke to soon. Like an act of magic my headache was gone, and I was standing before a door. Which opened. 

-Sunshine, what are you doing here?- He asked with worry in his voice. 

-I, nothing I was just...- I inspected him for one second... a... suitcase? -Where are you going?- I asked, even more confused than before. 

He looked to his side, trying to hide it, but I placed my hand on it before he could do so. -Why are you dressed up?- 

-Nothing, you're up too late, do you want me to take you back to your chambers? -I.. uh? No-- 

He placed a his hand behind in my back and like clockwork my feet mover right by the same path I traveled before. In a matter of seconds we were in my dorms door.

 -You don't need to worry about anything, alright?- I turned to look at him, he looked as if he was about to say something, but brutally stopped to look at me right in the eye.

We had a small argument, at least it felt like I did, I was screaming at him, begging him to tell me what is happening, and most of all, why won't he tell me?

I calmed down, understanding he wouldn't answer to me, at least not now. He slowly came close to my face, closing his eyes, grabbing my neck so I wouldn't move my head. Leaving a small, loving kiss at the corner of my lips. It felt like a goodbye kiss. I froze.

He gently pushed me into my room, and closed the door for me. My head was an absolute mess. It felt as if I was screaming, anger confusion and love at the same time. 

I finally reacted. -What the fuck!- I screamed and covered my mouth immediately. 

I grabbed a suitcase out of my big closet, and started to throw all of the essentials I could find, I didn't take the time to accommodate it. I don't know what's happening to me, much less what's happening to him, but if he thinks he can leave by his balls, he's crazy. 

Oh hell no golden boy, you started something here, I promise you, you'll end it. 

I will find you

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OMFG IM SO PROUD OF THIS I FINALLY DID IT 

We're getting somewhere.

and if I got somebody excited because I said like a few weeks ago (MONTHS) I would update soon, I'm sorry, but not sorry. GOSHGOSHGOSH 

I won't promise anything now cause I'm sure I wont make it. Anyways...

Im such a procastinator, and yes, WERE GETTING SOMEHWHERE

everyone want him that was my crime, the wrong place at the RIGHT TIME!

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