You know what's cool? What's cool is that I actually don't have anything to say ;-;. Well I hope you enjoy chapter 66.
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Soviet's POV
November 9, 1939

I shouldn't feel guilty anymore. I still did though. I hated the feeling so much. It was something so little but for some odd reason my brain it treating it like it was this giant thing.

Kissing someone else isn't some big thing.

I was days ago, probably almost a week ago if not already. Though I still feel just as much guilt then when it first happened. I don't even know why I did it. I don't even know how I can get rid of this guilt anyways.

I layed there in the bed while staring at the wall. I was deep in thought about the whole kissing PRC thing. PRC and ROC left to go back to Nanjing a few days ago because J.E practically forced them to. I mean it's probably for the best anyways. I don't need to keep pulling shit on PRC when I don't even know the reason why I do it.

I don't like him in that way at all and even if I did then that would definitely be one-sided. I love Reich, it's the reason why I even married him. It's the reason why I'm not even with Weimar at this point in my life. It's because I love Reich.

Maybe I should just tell him what I did.

He deserves to know what I did. Hiding it won't do any good and maybe it would get rid of the guilt. Yeah I should probably tell him what happened.

I looked over at the bathroom door. Reich went in there a few minutes ago to get ready for bed and all that so I was just waiting for him. Maybe I should tell him when he gets out. Like I said Reich deserves to know.

I looked back at the wall and sighed before closing my eyes. I brought the blanket closer to my mouth as I got comfortable in the sheets. A few minutes later I heard the bathroom door open and footsteps walk into the room. The bed dipped a bit from added weight and I opened my eyes to look up at the German.

He was facing away from me and I could tell he was taking off the eye patch that covering his left eye. He then got under the covers but he didn't lay down just yet. He turned his head to me and we made eye contact.

Reich's left eye was all types of messed up. He didn't have a eye anyways. There was also a scar across his eye which was small enough to be covered by the eye patch. He never told me how it happened. I mean he did but he didn't tell me how he even got into that predicament.

I felt as anxiety or something started to build up in my stomach. Making it twist and knot up which made me a bit queasy. Maybe I shouldn't tell him, maybe I should just go to bed and not say a word.

"Speak, I can tell you want to tell me something."

The queasy feeling in my stomach intensified when I heard what he said. How could he tell that I was going to say something to him? How did he always know everything that I was feeling or thinking like I was a mirror?

"I- umm." I stopped myself as I looked away a bit. "Hurry up, I don't have all night." I looked back up at him and I could tell just from his voice that he was getting impatient.

Reich was never a patient person. When he asked or waited for something then he expected to get a answer or that something as soon as possible. Which as soon as possible to him was the second he asked for it.

I covered my mouth with the blankets fully as I quietly said my answer. I could hear Reich sigh as he grabbed the blanket and pulled it away from my mouth. "Say that again and actually look at me when you're talking." I looked up at him and that impatient expression didn't leave his face.

"Uh- umm" I sunk more into the bed as I looked up at him. My heart raced as I thought of all the ways he could react. This was a bad idea, I shouldn't tell him at all.

"I will tell you tomorrow." I said before I brought the blanket back up to my face. Reich's expression turned into annoyance and a bit of anger. "No you've already started to tell me so tell me now." he ripped the blanket out of my hands again and I scooted back in the bed a bit.

"T-then you have to promise not to get mad at me." I said to him as his eyes narrowed a bit. "Yeah yeah now spit it out." it took me a few seconds to actually start speaking. I just didn't want Reich to be mad at me or well to mad at me.

"Well I- umm I made a mistake a few days ago when I was with PRC." the look of annoyance became more noticeable on his face when I mentioned PRC. I sunk even more into the bed when I noticed this. Reich definitely wasn't going to be anywhere near happy with me.

"And what did you do?" his voice was laced with a bit of anger. It was kinda threatening. I opened my mouth but closed it shut agian. I knew what I was going to say but for some reason it wouldn't come out. "I asked you a question Soviet. What did you do?" I looked at him for a few more seconds before I looked down.

"I kissed him." I blurted out.

I was expecting for Reich to yell at me or hit me or something but there was absolutely nothing. I looked up a bit at him and he was just staring at me. There wasn't any emotion on his face as he stared at me.

After a few seconds he started to speak. "You did what." a lump formed in my throat when he spoke. I couldn't even tell what he was feeling from the tone in his voice. "I kissed him, PRC." Reich looked away from me and his gaze landed on the wall in front of him.

He just sat there lost in thought. I couldn't tell what he was thinking about or what he was feeling. He was just blank as he sat there.

"That Chinese bastard isn't going to live to see another day." Reich snapped out of his thoughts as he got out of bed. I shot up in the bed as I looked at him. "What do you mean? What are you doing?" a bit of worry started to bubble up in me. "Well I'm going to call J.E and tell her to make sure that fucking bastard is fucking dead." he looked at me and a firy rage burned in his eyes.

"What no don't do that!" I grabbed his wrist before he left. He turned to look at me and it was like he had gotten angrier with me. "He didn't do anything wrong. It was my fault, I promise." he angrily looked at me for a few seconds before raising his hand and slapping me in the face.

A loud slap sound went around the room as my cheek burned. I probably deserved that honestly.

I looked back at him and he still had that angry look. "Why would you ever do that?! You can't just go around kissing people!" his voice grew with rage as he yelled at me. "You chose me to be with not him! I've worked my ass off to have this relationship but here you are kissing that fucking Chinese!" he started walking around the room while yelling about what I told him and how much he truly hated PRC.

After a little bit he stopped yelling and glared at me. He walked over to me and placed his hands on my shoulders and leand closer to my ear. "I swear if you ever do anything like that again, go near him, look at him, or even breath the same fucking air as him then I won't hesitate to fucking kill you and him. You won't fucking see him agian nor are you allowed to even fucking leave. Do you understand?" I froze a bit at Reich's demanding tone. The way he said those words to me sent shivers up my spine.

"I said do fucking you understand?" he shook me a bit and his grip tightened on my shoulders when he said that and I nodded my head. "Yes I understand." he let go and got back onto the bed. I slowly got back onto the bed as well and I got into the same position that I was in before.

"Do you not love me anymore?" he asked me and my eyes widen a bit. "No no no I do love you." he looked at me and his eyes showed sadness. "Then why would you even think about doing that?" I opened my mouth to answer his question but nothing came out.

I didn't have a answer to his question.

I didn't know why I did it I just did. I still couldn't find a answer to that question, the question that's been flouting around in my mind since it happened. "I don't.......I don't know why I did it." I quietly said as I looked at him.

He looked away and turned off the lamp that was on his side table. After he did that he laid down with his back facing me. Everything went extremely quietly. I got closer to him and wrapped my arms around his waist but he just pushed my arms away from him.

"I'm sorry I really didn't mean it." he just stayed quiet and I sunk into the bed. "Reich please, I'm sorry." I tried apologizing again but he still didn't respond to me so I just gave up. When Reich had his mind set on something then there was no changing his mind.

I brought the blanket closer to my face as I looked at him. I just wanted to hold him and give him all the love in the world but I couldn't give him that. He wouldn't let me give him that to at least try to make things better.

I really shouldn't have told Reich.

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Duolingo is so violent I swear. I have the Duolingo widget thing on my home screen and because I didn't do a lesson until 11pm yesterday Duolingo looked like he was going to come out of my fucking phone. He was going to fucking kill me last night I swear. Anyways I have a picture of Reichy poo today so here.

Reich hates Weimar so much that he doesn't want anything to do with him at this point. If Reich was asked what was the best achievement he actually completed in his life then he would respond with killing Weimar. This is from Dein_Kamerad_ on X (RIP Twitter)

"I may be small and probably look harmless but I can definitely pack a punch."
-Republic of Estonia
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