Okay so last night I decided to finally play c.ai and it was a absolute mistake. I'm wayyyy to addicted to it now. I mean it's weird but it's also addicting like wattpad. Like I've had Russia trying to get into my pants. A masochist Russia. A drunk Russia that has no parents and wants to be adopted and now calling me mommy. A Russia that wants me to go away but not and gives me a stuffed cat. A Russia that thinks that Adolf Hitler is my brother/dad at the same time. And a Prussia that thinks he's amazing so I started to argue with him and somehow I got him to ask me out in the argument (don't ask how I did that). C.ai is fucking bonkers and the ai keeps breaking its own rules. Anyways I hope you enjoy chapter 61.
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Soviet's POV

It's been another week of me being in the hospital and I've slowly started to get a hang of walking agian. Yesterday I did ditch the walker and decided to walk around the courtyard and it surprisingly went well. It was a bit harder keeping myself up on my own and it did take me longer then usual but it was a start, a good start.

I was apparently doing well and recovered enough for me to go home today so now I was in the hospital room sitting up in the bed while playing with Russia. I was waiting for Dr. Walter to come back to tell me if anyone picked up the home phone to bring me back home.

Though I knew it was a 50/50 chance on if Reich would actually bother to pick up the phone. Ever since he came here around a week ago he didn't come back. He was probably getting high and wasted somewhere at the moment.

I then heard the door click open and I looked over to see Dr. Walter standing there. "No one answered, correct." I placed the toy down on the bed and Dr. Walter nodded. "Do you have anymore contacts so they could take you home?" I thought for a second and I then remembered something. "Uhh yeah let me give you their landline." I told Dr. Walter their landline and he walked out of the room once again. I totally forgot that PRC and ROC were in town.

Soon enough Dr. Walter came back and told me that they were coming to pick me up. That took less time then I thought it would be. "Alright thank you." he then nodded. "Well you should get dressed now and I advise you to take the walker with you, you're not 100% better yet." I nodded and he then walked out closing the door behind him.

I looked over and saw a small bag on the chair that sat in the room. PRC brought some clothes here around 2 days ago when we were told I was able to leave sometime this week. I smiled as I remember how happy he was when he came in that day.

He's so caring isn't he.

"Alright Russia I'm going to get dressed in the bathroom okay." he nodded and continued playing with his toys. I got up off the bed and walked over to the little bag, picking it up off the chair. I remember how PRC told me that he bought me some clothes for me to wear when I leave and he seemed pretty proud about it. I haven't looked into it to see what he got because I wanted it to be a surprise. I don't know I just really like surprises.

I walked over to the bathroom door and walked inside closing the door behind me. I took the clothes out of the bag and started to undress myself and putting the new clothes on. I then looked into the small mirror and actually took a look at the clothes PRC bought me.

He had gotten me grey dress pants, a white buttonup shirt, and a simple belt. It wasn't anything extravagant or anything like that but I liked it and thought it looked nice. He had also gotten me some new shoes which I have been wearing around the hospital. Who knows what has been on the hospital floors.

I turned away from the mirror and made my way out of the bathroom and back into the room. I got back on the bed and Russia gave me a smile. "Here play with me agian папа." he said while handing me a toy. "Alright, are we playing the same game?" I took the toy from his hand and he nodded. "Mhm yep!" I smiled a bit and I started to play with Russia.

A hour soon flies by and a knock was heard on the door once agian. I looked up and heard a click as the door opened. I saw PRC and he smiled at me and I smiled back. "Are you ready to leave this place?" he placed his hands on his hips and I laughed a bit. "Of course I am, I've been here for almost a month if not already." he nodded and walked more into the room. "I have no idea how you even lasted that long in this place." I hummed in agreement and looked down at Russia.

"Are you ready to leave now?" he looked at me in confusion and curiosity. "Where are we going?" I smiled brightly at him. "We're going to be able to leave and see your siblings agian." his eyes lit up and he started to slightly bounch on the bed. "We are, we are, we are?!" I nodded. I felt so happy watching him be so excited about leaving. It felt good being able to say we could leave. That I could leave this room and not have to come back.

He started to excitedly giggle as he claimed off the bed and put his shoes on. I also got off the bed and put my shoes on as well. I walked to the chair that has the now empty bag and picked it up. "Alright now lets go." PRC then looked up at me. "By the way I already have everything taken care of so we can just walk out." I nodded and I gave him a warm smile. "Thank you, you really didn't have to PRC."

He then scoffed and crossed his arm's. "Yes I did, I'm your best friend so of course I have to do anything to help you out." I just rolled my eyes while smiling and grabbed his hand. "Yeah yeah come on now." I then looked at Russia. "Are you ready?" he rapidly nodded his head. "Alright come on then." I walked out of the hospital room and made sure Russia was close to me while we walked to the entrance of the building.

We walked through the lobby and I pushed open the 2 glass doors and walked outside of the hospital. I stopped and smiled at seeing the parking lot in front of me. For some reason seeing it made me happy and relieved.

"Umm Soviet." I looked over at PRC and he was slightly looking away. "Your still holding my hand." I looked down and he was right, I was still holding his hand. "Oh sorry." I let go and gave him a apologetic smile. "There's no need to be sorry, you didn't do anything wrong." he rubbed the back of his neck and I nodded.

"So where's your car?" a look of realization crossed his face. "Oh yeah oops, follow me." I laughed a bit and grabbed Russia's hand. "We were going to cross a parking lot so I didn't want him to have the chance to stray away from me.

We finally got to the car and PRC unlocked it and I opened the door for Russia. He claimed in and after I knew he was settled in his seat I closed the door and opened the passenger door going inside. I closed the door and I also heard the door next to me close and the car started up. Soon enough the car was backing out of the parking space and through the parking lot then onto the road driving away.

I let out a sigh and sat back into the chair closing my eyes. "I'm so happy to be out of there." I looked over at PRC and he nodded his head. "Yeah I bet you are." he said not taking his eyes off the road.

I looked out of the window next to me and watched all the trees, buildings, and people flie by as the car made its way down the road. It was oddly way more peaceful then I thought it would be. Maybe because I wasn't in the car with Reich or that I knew I wasn't going to him. I would have to go back at some point but right now I'm not and it was comforting almost. Not being at the edge of my seat being worried on if I would do something wrong or end up doing something wrong in his eyes.

I sighed and leaned my head against the glass. Why was that my life? I just want to feel like I'm good enough for him. The way he made me feel before. I wanted to be happy to see him, I wanted to be excited after a long day away from him. Why didn't I feel that way? What did he even want from me?

I didn't even realize that the car stopped until I felt a tap on my shoulder. I looked over and saw PRC. We're here and it seems like Russia's asleep. I looked behind me and sure enough he is in fact asleep. I felt as a warm smile came onto my lips and my eyes softened at the sight. I just looked at the small child in the seat, his chest moving up and down from his slow breathing.

I felt like I was hit by a truck and my eyes started to water and tears slowly started to drip down my face. Looking at the slow movements of his chest, the faint sounds of his breath, some of the movements he would make while he's sleeping. Knowing that I heard his laugh and his voice, knowing I got to see his smile, actions, and pure child energy just for another day. That I didn't completely lose it all.

I could have lost that, all of that.

I put a shaky hand up to my mouth as I tried not to let out any sound. I could have lost him to the hands of my own husband and I couldn't do anything about it. I couldn't protect him all because I couldn't shut up.

I turned back around and sat my head down in front of me while crying. Something as simple as seeing a breath could make me cry so hard. That I could see my child take one more breath. Just one more breath of life.

I felt PRC slowly wrap his arms around me and set his head down on my shoulder. I just continued to cry, to let everything out at once. Now that I was out of the hospital and not worrying about if I would come out alive or not everything just came crashing down on me.

That he could have died that day. That if I did survive then I wouldn't be able to see that breath, that movement, that laugh, that smile. Instead I would see a little boy lifeless in a coffin. Getting ready to be lowered 6ft into the cold world. That my son would be ripped away from my hold forever.

He's here though I can see and hear him agian. That my own husband didn't rip his life away from him. That I get to watch him grow up into a nice and wonderful young man. That I get to continue hearing him call me his father.

That I get to see him take another breath of life.

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I wasn't expecting for the end to be angsty but I somehow did. I mean my life goal is to be the angst queen so I'm just trying my best to get that title. Also I did watch the Barbie movie yesterday and that somehow was the first movie I cried at so that also could be why.

Anyways I hope you have a good day/morning/night or whatever time you are reading this.

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