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You better be happy for this upload or I'm going to be so pissed. This took 3 days to make so be happy with what I do! Okay you don't have to be happy especially from what this chapter has but still. I worked really really hard. Anyways I should let you read now because this is in fact 5.5k words long aka my longest chapter yet. So I hope you enjoy chapter 57.
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Soviet's POV

A few days have passed and again there was no sign of Reich anywhere. It definitely wasn't a understatement if I said I was worried. I wanted Reich to be okay and as safe as possible. I just wanted him back with me in my arms. To make this cold bed feel warmer with another person in it. I want the person I love to be in this bed with me at the moment.

I just layed there not moving a inch for any reason. I layed there listening to every little sound that came from the house. It was something that just became a habit I guess.

After Russia was born I always listened to every single sound in the house. I guess I was just paranoid or something. I mean who wouldn't be paranoid about someone breaking into the house or something going on in the child's room when they first become a parent.

When Russia did grown up and stuff that definitely didn't happen anymore. Just me staying up for hours just listening to every little sound. However, when Reich started to leave the house more and started to do......... Not so amazing things to us all of that just came back.

I just waited to hear the click of the door and the sounds of a jacket being taken off. When I heard that I knew Reich was home but I obviously haven't heard that at all.

It was obvious how bad I wanted him here with me. I just wanted to be with him and I just wanted to hear his voice. I wanted to feel his touch and warmth. I craved him, it was like he was some sort of drug I could never quit. Like I was in some sort of chokehold I could never get out of.

But it's not like I wanted to leave that chokehold he had me in.

For the next few minutes I didn't hear anything other then the unexplainable sounds of the house like the wood floor for example. Though I started to hear the engine of a car then the sounds of doors closing all the way up to the familiar click of the door and a jacket being taken off.

I didn't move from my spot though, I just listened. The sound of shoes clinking against the ground. The sound going from various places around the house. At one point the clinking sound went passed the bedroom door and down the hall. The sound of another door opening could be heard and I just knew Reich's office has been in fact opened.

For a few minutes after that the clinking stopped and was replaced with the distance sounds of drawers being opened and shut. I wasn't really trying to figure out what was happening I was just listening. That's what I seemed to have been doing for these pass few nights. Just listening and waiting for someone to just come to me.

Then the opening and closing of drawers stopped and the clinking made its appearance again. Soon enough it came back to the door but instead of going pass it, it became louder from the person making such noise coming into the room.

I saw as a figure walked around on the other side of the bed and eventually the lamp lit up from being turned on. There stood the Third Reich after days of not seeing him even though I should have days before.

He's still wearing his uniform but the only this that was missing was the jacket that he took off at the door. Though the one thing that stood out to me was the same gun that was in his side table and a dagger that was still on his uniform. I felt a chill go up my spine when I saw them. I definitely didn't feel comfort at all when he had something like that on him.

I drifted my eyes away from the weapons that Reich still had in his possession and up to his face. I was excited to see him again after so long. I really did miss Reich a lot and I was just excited to be able to be in bed with him again.

"Welcome back my love." Reich immediately looked at my direction and I just looked up at him. After he realized I was the one to be talking to him he just groaned and rolled his eyes before walking over to the closet. I then sat up in bed while looking at Reich search through the closet.

"I missed you Reich, did you also miss me?" Reich didn't even spare a glance at me. "Can you shut up, there's a reason why I decided to come back late at night. I didn't want to deal with your fucking bullshit but here I am." Reich then went quiet for a few seconds before stopping again and saying some more things. "Also the answer for your question is no I don't miss you at all. A few seconds ago I missed you but now I really don't. I actually regret even wanting to be with you again." and like the last thing he said, he didn't even look at me.

I just felt a pain in my heart after he said that. He couldn't mean that right? He definitely did miss me he's just tired that's all.

"Well I love you Reich and I-" before I could actually finish what I was saying Reich turned around and gave me a really angry look. "Do you ever shut your fucking mouth? I just wanted silence when I got home but instead I just get a ear full of horse shit....." Reich then started to go on and on about how annoying I was. He then even started to just say shit about me. Anything mean or rude that came to his mind about what he should say to me, he had no shame on saying.

I just looked down at the bedsheets feeling embarrassed I guess. Why did I even decide to say something? I should have just stayed silent then I wouldn't have gonna myself into this situation. I could have gotten what I wanted if I just been quiet.

I just listened to every single word that came out of his mouth. It was like a knife was going through my chest going deeper with every word. I've heard them so many times but they still hurt just as bad.

I started to tear up and grip the bedsheets under me. Why was this my life? I didn't want to be yelled at just for saying a sentence. I hate it, I hate this so so much. Sometimes I really wish I could just disappear.

Soon enough my sadness was washed away and replaced with anger. I was angry at Reich but also at myself. Why would someone that was supposed to love me, hurt me in almost every way? Why didn't I just lay here and stay silent like I should have done? I should have known to be silent when Reich gets back from being away.

I just felt as I was slowly cracking to little pieces from every word I heard. From every thought I had it didn't make things better. I then felt as a tear and then another went down my face. I couldn't do it anymore, I really couldn't handle it anymore.

So I finally snapped

"Are you ever going to be finished?" Reich then stopped and looked at me. "What did you say?" I could still hear the anger in his voice but I couldn't care about it right now.

"I said are you ever going to be finished!? You always fucking do this and I just can't with this bullshit anymore! Why can't you just come home for at least one time and be happy with me?! It's like I'm always doing something wrong and piss you off!"

I just continued to let everything spill out. I even stood up and started to walk around the room. I didn't even know what to do with myself while everything from years just came out. I didn't even care about anything at that moment. I was just finished and done with everything. I just couldn't take it anymore, I really couldn't.

"I can't believe I've been with you for this long! Why did I even decide to spend my life with you and keep up with you for years?! I just wanted live a good life with you but this is what I get!? .........I can't believe I did this with my life instead of staying with your brother because I'm sure I would have been happier with him."

I didn't hear anything at all after I finished. Nothing from Reich or anything in the house it was just dead silent. I didn't think anything of it though, I was just deep in my thoughts. Just re-thinking everything I said. Sure maybe some of it wasn't the best move but that's how I felt. That's how I felt being in this marriage with Reich.

I felt like pure shit.

At some point I did look up at Reich to see what he was doing. He was just staring at the ground and his first were clenched so tightly to the point his knuckles were a ghostly white. His face was just blank, I couldn't tell what he was thinking or feeling.

"So you're not grateful for anything I give you?" I froze a bit from the angry tone in his voice. I never heard him that angry before and I took a little step back. "N-no of course I am Reich, I'm always grateful for what you give me." he then took his gaze away from the floor and to me. A fiery rage was seen in his eyes and at that moment I knew I couldn't take anything back.

"Your saying that nothing I do is apparently enough for you?! I give you everything you would want and you have no idea what I've done for this fucking marriage! Your just a fucking liar you bitch! You picked me over Weimar because you said yourself that he wasn't something you wanted and I was and now you're saying I'm making your life shitty! You really fucked up Soviet- wait no who am I kidding your always fucking up! No wonder why our children are such fuck up's! Especially Russia he's the worst one out of all of them! He never does what I ask, always fucking whining about everything, calls me fucking мама which I know you fucking started, I'm not a woman and never will be as weak and useless as a fucking woman! You fucked my life over Soviet, not the other way around!"

He placed one of his hands over his mouth and hunched over a bit. He started to laugh but at first it was a really quiet one. Then soon enough it got louder. There was just a psychotic look in his eyes as he just laughed. I just felt scared looking at him. I definitely shouldn't have said what I did say.

He then stopped and took his hand off his mouth. There was just a smile on his face but it wasn't something that was sweet. It was a horrifying one and his razor sharp teeth definitely didn't make anything better.

"I will give you a head start." I then got confused. I didn't know what he meant by he will give me a head start. "What do you mean?" I quietly said. "It means you should run." then one of his hands moved to the dagger that was still attached to his uniform. "So you should run." he took if off and he was now holding it his hands, his knuckles still a ghostly white color.

My face drained of color when I understood what was happening. My body went cold and my thoughts went blank. The only thing I could think of doing was doing what Reich told me to do.

So I ran out of the bedroom door and down the hall.

I was half way down the hall before I heard Reich run after me. I didn't know how to feel about anything. My mind was just blank as I ran. I just wanted to get away from him in anyway I could. So in a attempt to get away from Reich I opened a door to a random room and ran inside.

I couldn't close the door in time though because of how fast Reich really is he barged right through. I just looked at him with wide eyes as I backed into a corner. "Hey Reich w-we can talk about this right?" I could hear my blood rush through my body through my ears. I was just filled with a whole bunch of adrenaline.

"You brought this onto yourself Soviet you can't just ran away from it." he then started to walk closer to me. I just wanted this to end, I just wanted to wake up and this all be a dream.

I then felt as the cold blade of the dagger was placed against my neck. I just stared at Reich in terror. I was trapped in a corner like some animal in a cage.

"There isn't anything to talk about Soviet, you said to much. Now don't even try to make a sound or any fucking movement or I'm going to slit your fucking throat and watch you bleed out and die." I nodded my head a bit. I pressed the back on my head against the wall as much as I could to try and at least put some distance between me and that dagger. Then out of no where I heard a very child like voice.

"Мама what are you doing to папа?"

Reich's head then snapped over to where the voice was coming from and he took the dagger away from my throat. I also slightly looked over and Russia was standing there in the door frame. He was wearing bright blue pajamas and he had his favorite teddy bear and pastel yellow blanket in his hands.

I saw as Reich gripped the dagger in his hands and even more angry filled his eyes. "You fucking kid!" he started to walk over to him and my eyes widen.

It was like time came to a complete stop. No, no this can't be happening right now. I just felt as my heart rate was going through the roof at that point. I couldn't let him do it, I couldn't let him hurt my child. I couldn't even live with myself if any of them even got hurt let alone in front of me.

So I decided to make a choice that more then likely won't end well for me.

I then grabbed onto Reich's shoulder, I was going to do the two things he told me not to do. "Reich please stop, he didn't do anything wrong! Please calm down!" he took his attention off of the child and onto me. "Don't fucking touch me you bastard!" he then swung the dagger at me and I felt a sharp pain in my shoulder as the dagger went deep into my skin and back out.

I fell to the ground from the impact and I looked up at Reich but before I could even register what was happening I felt the same pain shoot through me again. I screamed from the pain that hit me as the dagger went deep inside my body and back out. I needed to get away, I had to.

I tried to back up but I just felt chained to the floor as I kept getting stabbed over and over again. I felt as tears started to rush down my face and blood gather up in my mouth. All I could taste was the horrible metallic taste the blood gave off.

He just screamed at me but for some reason I couldn't put any of the words together. It was like my ears refused to work and understand what was being said. My mind was more focused on the pain that shoot through my body and the need to run away.

I then started to cough up blood and I watched it splatter onto the ground. From every cough that I chocked up my entire body hurt more. My body was on fire and screaming at me to get away but I couldn't move.

I didn't even know the stabbing stopped just from all the pain I felt. I could just feel as my own blood soaked my clothes and covered them with my warm crimson blood. I could hear the blood rushing through my body and the sound of my heart in my own ears as I laid there.

I looked over at the door and saw a petrified Russia standing there and looking at me. It broke my heart and all I wanted to do was cry and hold him. I just wanted to hold my baby boy in my arms. He then ran away down the hall and right after Reich ran after him. "Get back here you little bitch!" that was the last thing I heard before a loud ringing filled my ears.

I just layed there hopelessly. I wanted to move I wanted to have my child in my arms to tell him he's okay. I wanted to give him kisses and loves, something that Reich could never do for him.

I felt as even more tears came out of my eyes. I just felt so useless and destroyed. Not being able to do anything to protect my children. Somehow after trying so hard to protect them at any cost I failed. I failed to keep them safe all because I couldn't keep quiet.

I really did fail as a parent did I.

Soon enough black dotes started to appear in my blurry vision. Was this how I was going to die? I was going to die from the hands of my own husband? I just decided to close my eyes anyways and just except it. Then my mind went totally blank but one thing flouted in my mind.

Maybe death is just the best option for me.

Russia's POV

I just stood there just watching my мама hurt папа like that. Hearing the screaming, crying, and yelling scared me so much. I didn't want to hear it anymore and I just wanted to hid away in my room but I couldn't move. I was too shocked from what was happening to move.

Soon enough it all ended and папа was silent. He just looked at me with teary eyes and I just wanted to cry right then in there but I didn't. I couldn't get myself to cry at the moment for some reason.

I looked up at мама and a few seconds later he looked at me as well. He still looked really really angry and it was scaring me. Was мама going to do the same thing to me? I don't want мама to hurt me like that.

Then it was like my legs had a mind of their own as I ran down the hall. I didn't want to get hurt and I'm sure папа also didn't want me to get hurt.

I then heard мама yell at me and he started to run after me. I just needed to get to my room, that's where I wanted to be anyways. I didn't want to be anywhere other then under my blankets. There I would feel safe from everything that has happened out of my room.

I couldn't make it to my room before the back of my shirt was grabbed and I was yanked back. I fell onto the floor with a loud thud and I immediately looked up at мама. But before I could really do anything I felt as something came down onto my neck making me let out a cough.

I then realized that he placed his boot on my neck and slowly added more and more of his weight onto it. I could barley breathe at this point and I clawed at his boot and kicked my legs. I just wanted to get out, I just wanted to be in my room.

I looked up at мама and it was a horrible sight to see. He was covered with папа's blood and the bloody dagger was still in his hands. A smile was still on his face as he looked down at me. I felt as tears started to rush out of my eyes from not only the pain but also from the sight. It hurt having the heel of his boot digging into my neck and blocking air from getting to my lungs or blood from getting to my brain.

"You remind me a lot of your папа, a pathetic coward. I just feel disappointed when I look at you. I can't believe I made a fuck up and a useless child like you. A disappointment you really are. Fuck even your entire birth was a mistake. I wish I never had you because you along with your папа made my life shitty."

Even more tears came out of my eyes when I heard what мама said. Did мама not love me? I thought мама did though.

I felt as my head started to pound and hurt really bad. My neck hurt so bad and I just wanted to hid. I just wanted to hid away from everything.

"Now you better go to your room and I will not see your face for the rest of the night you understand me." I just weakly nodded my head. Then мама stomped onto my neck before taking his boot off my neck entirely. I then went into a loud coughing fit when he did that. It made my neck hurt 10x more but I could care at the moment.

I got up as fast as I possibly could and quickly grabbed my blanket and teddy bear that I most likely let go of when I got thrown back and ran to my room. I just wanted to get to my bed, there I would be safe. Just under my covers just alone in my room.

I quickly ran inside and shut the door. After I did that I ran over to my bed and got ontop of it, going under the covers immediately. I held my legs close to my chest with my teddy bear and blanket.

It was hard to breathe even through my mouth. Every breath I took made my neck hurt so so bad. Why did мама do that to me? Why was мама hurting us like that? I don't think we did anything wrong. Does мама even love me anymore?

I felt as even more tears came rushing out of my eyes. It definitely didn't make my breathing any better and it felt like I was chocking on my own tears.

I looked down at my teddy bear and blanket that I had in my arms. Мама gave them to me when I was little. It was so long ago that I couldn't really remember it but I knew he gave it to me. When he did мама was nice to me. Why wasn't мама nice to me now? Did I do something wrong for мама to hate me? I probably did do something wrong.

A few seconds later I heard a bang on my door and I jumped a little. I didn't know what that sound was and it scared me. I was just so so scared.

I felt as my body started to shake and my tears come down harder. I didn't know what that bang was but it sure did scare me a lot.

I then got the courage to peek my head over the blankets. I looked over at the door and it was the dagger there. It was just sticking through the wood of the door. It was still covered with my папа's blood.

I just covered myself right back up with the covers. I just shook, cried, and laid there for what seemed like hours. Time just seemed to be really really slow. I looked up at the clock every once in a while but most of the time it was the same time as before. I just wanted this entire night to end.

I looked over the blankets again to look at the clock but this time there was a red light shining through my window. Soon enough I could hear people come into the house talking in a language that I didn't know. I got even more scared and decided to curl up into a ball under the covers.

I didn't want to come out ever again. I was just to scared to even lift the covers off of myself at this point.

I heard a few sets of foot steps coming down the hall. I thought they were going to walk passed but instead they stopped right at my door and I can hear the handle start to move. At that point I was definitely petrified. I didn't know what was happening or who came into the house. I just wanted to be left alone and right here. I thought I was safe right here under the comfort of my blankets.

I heard the door open and my eyes went wide as I started to shake uncontrollably. Who was in my room? What was even happening outside and causing that red light?

I then felt as the bed dipped and I knew someone was sitting on it. I backed away a bit and tightly closed my eyes. I didn't want this person to hurt me like мама did.

"I'm not going to do anything to hurt you. I'm here to help and see what's wrong." I didn't move at all, I was just to scared to. "My name is Carmen and I'm here with a friend, his name is Ivan." I didn't really know what to do. What if these people were lying to me?

"Do you want to know something cool?" I then got curious. What was something that's cool that they want to tell me? I just nodded my head and hoped that they could see it from under the covers. "Well I am from France, I think you can tell from the accent and Ivan is from your father's country, more specifically in BSSR or Byelorussian Soviet Socialist Republic." I got a bit excited about that.

I then wanted to go see this person. I thought it was cool to see someone that was born in my папа's country. So I let out a breath which still did hurt my neck and peeked over the blankets so my eyes were just showing. There was a girl that sat on the edge of my bed looking at me and a boy that's standing beside her.

"H-he's from папа's country?" my voice was raspy and broke every so often but I could still say something. The boy named Ivan nodded his head. "Yeah I am from there." I felt happy knowing that for some reason. "So what's your name?" I looked over at the girl named Carmen when I heard her speak. "M-my name's Russian Soviet Federative Socialist Republic, RSFSR, just call me Russia though, my name is just really long."

Carmen then gave me a smile. "Well it's nice to meet you Russia." I nodded my head and fully took my head out of the covers. "It's nice to meet you as well." I then gave her a big smile.

"Your so adorable in person." I then looked at her shocked. "Right Ivan he looks cuter then in the photos." she then looked over at Ivan and he nodded. "Yeah I can't deny that but we have to go remember they said to make it quick." I didn't pay attention to the rest of the things Ivan said I just felt as my face got hot. They really just called me cute.

"Alright Russia is it okay if I can carry you?" I then looked at her in confusion. "Why?" I asked her but she just gave me a smile. "Because I need to bring you to the ambulance." I felt as even more confusion washed over me. "But why do I need to go to the ambulance?" I looked between the both of them. "Because Russia you are hurt and because of that you need to also come to the hospital."

I sat up immediately and the blankets fell off of me. "But what about my siblings?" I started to get worried. I didn't want them to also get hurt. "They have been checked on to so don't worry and they will be here with your other father so I'm sure their going to be fi-" I didn't listen to what Carmen had to say and I cut her off. "No don't leave them here!" she was surprised by my reaction. "I'm sure their going to be fine." I shook my head. "But-" I was then cut off from Ivan. "No buts Russia, their going to be okay we promise."

I was really hesitant about all of this. I didn't want to leave my siblings here but I was hurt so I had to go. "Ivan's right, we promise that everyone will be safe." I looked down at the blankets. "Will I see папа?" I quietly said still looking at the covers. "Yes I'm sure you will later Russia." I looked up at them with a little smile. "You can hold me then." I held out my arms to Carmen and she smiled.

She stood up and leand closer to me, wrapping her arms around me and picking me up from the bed. "Can I have my teddy bear and blanket?" I pointed over to the teddy bear and yellow blanket that sat on my bed. "Yeah I will." Ivan said while picking the two items up. "Do you want any of them?" he asked me and I nodded. "I want my teddy bear please." he then gave it to me and I took it into my hands.

"Are you ready to go now Russia?" I looked at Carmen and nodded my head. Then we started to walk out of my bedroom and through the house. It wasn't dark anymore because when the people were coming in they more then likely turned the lights on.

I put my head down on Carmen's shoulder feeling really tired. From all of that I felt really really worn out.

Soon enough we made it out of the house and onto the front porch. I felt as Carmen started to walk down the stairs and eventually made it onto the grass. I looked up from my head being on her shoulder and at the porch. There I saw мама standing out there looking at us but mostly at me. A smile came onto his face and he gave me a small wave. I felt a chill go up my spine from seeing it. All of it just felt off, really really off.

I just decided to return the wave and be respectful. Maybe if I did do that then мама would like and love me again. I turned away and looked at the ambulances and police car's that were out here. The red light was in fact coming from the police cars. There was still a few people here doing who knows what.

We then got into a ambulance and I was sat down on the little bed that was in there. Ivan then gave me my yellow blanket and I wrapped myself in it and held my teddy bear close.

I was a bit scared but definitely not as scared as I was earlier and sense I knew that Carmen and Ivan was going to keep me safe I definitely felt better. Iven then left the ambulance to do some other things. Me and Carmen sat inside for a few minutes before he came back. When he did Iven shut the ambulance doors and sat down.

The last thing I saw before he shut the doors was the spine chilling smile мама had on his face.

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You know Reich is such a amazing father and husband. I would totally want him as my dad like seriously. I also found out I was just really really evil. Just from this bullshit I write I'm just evil. But this evil stuff I write is good so everything is perfectly fine. Anyways I have a picture for you today so hopefully it makes everything better. (Which more then likely won't (T_T)

I want to try Soviet's cookies now. I mean if Reich is happy with the cookies that means it's really good. This picture is from Seiga on Twitter.

Anyways I hope you have a good day/morning/night or whatever time you are reading this.

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