It took a lot of effort for me to walk or even drive the car. Since the accident, it scared me, but I pulled myself together. I had already completed my job with Jinwoo before and spread rumors about a new cartel that I wanted to call черный. 

Jinwoo mobilized his most trustworthy men. I sat in the car and decided to watch Dante. The urge to see him was too strong. In life, you only realize the importance of things when you've lost them. From a distance, I saw a young beautiful woman leaving the building of his biotech company with an older man who looked annoyed. My heart sank. What was this woman doing there? Her long curly black hair shone in the sun. She was perfectly tanned with a perfect body, a button nose, her lips plump and round. She wore a medium-length dark red wine dress. I took a photo of them both to conduct further research later. 

Unintentionally, I bit into my hand out of frustration. I couldn't see him, and he couldn't see me, and he would probably kill me. I slowly started driving again because I had an appointment with the gynecologist for the baby. It made me nervous because I didn't know whether to keep it or not. I stopped at the red light and turned my head briefly to the side, massaging my temples from stress, and casually glanced from the driver's side at the car next to mine. My breath caught in shock. Dante was in his car next to mine. He looked at me, but the light turned green, and I stepped on the gas. 

Luckily, I was wearing black sunglasses; otherwise, he might have recognized me through my eyes. I covered my mouth with my hand out of shock and trembled. He looked so different. So broken. He had dark circles under his eyes, his beard was unkempt, he looked like he hadn't slept for days, he wore a black suit, his hair was tousled, his eyeballs were red, and he had this cold look. He must have been devastated by Elena's and his mother's deaths, unable to sleep, and even cried. Does he still think about me? No, definitely not. He probably despises me, and that's exactly why Collon must be held accountable, and I have to prove to Dante that it wasn't me. 

At the next intersection, he turned left, and I turned right. For now, our paths diverged. 

The doctor's office wasn't far, and I parked the car and got out. I opened the door and went to the reception desk. 

"Do you have an appointment?" she smiled at me. 

"Yes, under the name Asna Suei," and I handed her my health insurance card. Of course I got a Fake identity again

 She scanned it quickly. 

"Ah, yes, I have you. Please have a seat."

 I nodded and sat down. I received a message and took out my phone. A photo of my mother from Jinwoo. She wore a medium-length black dress and was crying in front of Dante. I covered my mouth with my hand, and tears welled up. 

"It looks like she's under Dante's protection or surveillance. I wouldn't risk going there if I were you."

 "Thank you," I replied, and he sent a thumbs-up emoji. 

I let my phone spin in my hand and bit my lips out of frustration.

 Doctor Susann called me, and I startled, stood up, and went into the room. She closed the door and pointed to the bed. I lay down. She was a quite young doctor, with blonde hair and glasses. She wore a white coat with blue jeans. 

She smiled kindly at me. "My name is Susann, nice to meet you, Asna." 

I smiled back at her. 

"What seems to be the problem, Asna?" 

I hesitated for a moment. "Well, I'm pregnant, about four weeks along." 

She smiled even wider. "Oh, that's lovely."

 I smiled back, but internally, I thought it wasn't so lovely.

 "Please lift or unbutton your clothing." 

She turned around and prepared the ultrasound. I opened my jacket and pulled down my skirt a bit.

"So, don't be alarmed, the gel is cold," she said. 

I looked at the monitor. She rubbed on my belly and looked confused at the monitor.

 She asked me with concern, "Has anything happened in the last few days?"

 I looked worriedly at the monitor and then at her. 

"I had a car accident." 

She concentrated even more and rubbed even more. 

"The baby is not visible anywhere. It's possible you had a miscarriage and didn't even notice it." 

I took a sharp breath and suppressed my tears, leaning my head back. Why did the thought make me so sad that I lost my baby? 

Then she exclaimed happily, "I FOUND IT!"

 I looked happily at the monitor and saw a small lump. It touched my heart in a different way. How can I describe it best? Jinwoo mentioning that I was pregnant didn't make me happy at all, but seeing it on the monitor did. I suddenly cried at the thought. She gently rubbed my arm and smiled at me. 

"I'm sorry for scaring you like that. Your baby looks very healthy!" 

"Really?"

 She nodded at me. I had to smile. She wiped away the gel, and I put on my jacket again and adjusted my skirt. 

"You'll get an appointment for the next check-up, and if anything happens, please contact us immediately." 

"Of course." 

I stood up and went out, receiving a paper with the appointment written on it, and went back to the car. I started to cry heavily. The thought of having a baby brought up various feelings in me that I couldn't describe. But the thought frustrated me without having the father involved and not being able to tell my mother. I looked frustrated out the window.

———-

Exactly 11 months ago, I went to the gynecologist for the first time. How quickly time flies, right? 

A lot has happened in that time. I went to my appointments every month, started shopping as soon as I knew the gender, rented my own apartment even though Jinwoo offered me to live with him, but I declined. I had lovingly decorated the nursery. I had a girl. I named her Anastasiya, like Dante's mother. I felt I owed her that, as I had done research to find out her name. 

Meanwhile, I had established my own cartel, and I found out that Collon had gone into hiding with the Cardigans. Ironically, it was the same group that had visited Dante 11 months ago.

 I occasionally observed Dante, and once I even saw him go to the sea where I had the accident.

 I opened the door to the nursery and sang cheerfully, "How is my sweet daughter doing?" 

I saw Jin holding her in his arms, playing with her, and she laughed.

 I pushed my way to him, "Give her to me, I missed her so much!"

 He looked annoyed, "You were only gone for 20 minutes!" 

I scoffed and took her from him. 

She smiled directly at me, and I smiled back, rubbing my nose against hers and playing, "Who's the cutest baby?" and lifted her up, "YOUUU." 

She laughed so beautifully.

 Jin's eyes didn't leave me, and I glared at him, "What?" 

He shrugged, "Nothing," and left the room.

 Weird guy. 

I smiled sadly at her and then held her properly in my arms, "Wouldn't it be nice if Dad were here, huh?" 

She pouted at me.

 In the past few months, I had become a true stalker of Dante. I checked up on everything about him, especially when it came to women. He had been improving in appearance over the past few months and looked healthier. That lifted my heart. Also, I only now understood how much my mother missed me because of Anastasiya, and I missed her too.

I laid her back in her play area and walked out of the room to Jin. He turned to me, "So, did you do what you planned?" 

I nodded, "I've made La Casa aware of us, don't worry." 

He grinned at me.