Sometimes I'm just to generous and that's one of the reasons I get used a lot, like for example those people that have hurt me in the past I'm suddenly feeling bad .. But I don't feel bad for them I feel bad for myself .

Meaning I want to talk to them and just apologize to them like ten million times and mend things with them . But then I think hard about it and I just don't know what to do .
Like do I have problems for thinking like that? I don't like fighting with people  and after a while I feel guilty for how we left things between us .

I don't know if it's just me who feels like this sometimes ,but I really don't like fighting with people I'm not a fighter unless I have to , but I really hate that side of me because every time I fight with someone I start to quiver and the bad things I want to say to them just sounds like I'm preaching .

I've blocked at least 4 people on this account and they were all because of fights / bullying or me being blamed for whatever .
Like yea I get that sometimes I'm the culprit in some situations but most of the time I'm just being picked on for having friends (which is stupid btw)

Or because I have plenty of followers ; but whatever the reason is that they think it's cool to pick on someone it's just sad ...

Wow this turned in to a rant OMG XD I'm sorry I made this a tad longer than I expected okay I'm done

~Padmé ~