Why am I still feeling like this? Why do I keep going back to the past ? Why ?
I want to forget but I can't . I always end up to that moment my heart got shattered in to a million pieces .
I'll never recover from this I'm sure . I act tough I act brave but inside I'm dying slowly each day .
I'll never love again . What's the point ? Love is pointless it doesn't exist . People around here see love as a game . They jump to the next person like its nothing not taking the other person's feelings in to consideration. Like they don't matter like they don't feel like they don't get hurt .
Well I'm human too I cry , I shed blood just like you , I breath the same air as you , and I'll someday die just like you will someday . So don't take my feelings like they are nothing . Because I still feel pain .
Some of you are so I can't even think of the word for it , but I hate you for this .
I want to be the same person I was before this all happened before I met these people . I want to smile and laugh and just feel love and kindness .

But I can't I try so hard and I can't I just can't . Padmé isn't strong enough not anymore . She's broken in to a million pieces .

So to those that played with my heart thank you for hurting me ? thank you for using me thank you for treating me like I was nothing . Because thanks to you I've grown to hate you .

I don't know why I'm ranting about this now I guess I just felt like my heart will never heal . I don't want your sympathy I don't want your pity I just want you to understand that I will never be the same again .

I sound harsh , I sound cold , and I'm sorry I am really sorry . I don't want to sound like some heartless person . Because I'm not I just been hurt by many .. That I say things without thinking twice .

Betrayed
Hurt
Used
Lied
Cheated

I'm so done with men -_- I'm so done with you

~Padmé ~