To whoever tf flagged the picture of my scars, sincerely fuck you. It was there for a reason. To show people that they're not alone along with many other reasons. I do not like showing them off and it is a big thing for me to be as open as I am on this platform. Mainly to try and help people. I no longer have those photos so I cannot re-add them so fucking thanks

I've been tagged by NoHomoAllBromo to tell 10 things about me. So, I mean, I've got some facts I guess.

1) My father got meningitis two years ago and came out of his coma deaf. Despite this, he is still a DJ. And despite his double vision and non-dilating pupil in one eye, he still works part-time as a cook. (He hasn't been working during Corona don't worry. Also, I guess this is kind of a fact on my dad?)

2) I've always been intrigued by the supernatural/mythology, especially magic related. My favorite book series as a child was Magic Treehouse. I have my own Harry Potter wand (and it's my own, not a replica.)

3) I am an extremely detailed person. I feel the need for people to understand the whole story of whatever the situation is. My seventh-grade teacher often told me my essays were perfect, but they were overly detailed.

4) I'm also extremely analytical. I like getting into complex emotions and reasonings and how small actions lead to later events. This goes for my reading and writing (and just everyday things.) I LOVE small details that people might not notice that actually have a big impact on future events or are just cool little references or whatever.

5) When I was five I split my head open while my family was fishing. I was playing on rocks and sliding down one and got bored of it so I changed rocks. Unbeknownst to me, the rock was really slippery so when I stepped on it, I slipped and dove head first into sharp rocks. It was super glued back together and I had a scab/dried glue for like two years before I finally pulled it off myself. I have a scar and a permanent dent in my head from it. 

6) When I was seven I split my lip open on a trash can. I was getting ready for a shower and was all nakey and somehow slipped on the dry floor and slammed my lip into the trash. 

7) When I was 11 (?) I split my eyebrow at a Sizzler. (This was the only time I went to a Sizzler and I have been salty ever since.) I went under the table to grab my flip flop cus it fell off and I couldn't reach it and the metal bar under the table was horizontal and vertical, so I slammed my head into it when I was trying to get back up. It wasn't horrible, I just got a butterfly stitch bandage put on it and it healed but I do have a scar from it. (Honestly wish I had hit like halfway on my eyebrow so I could have a cool scar but it's at the front of my eyebrow.)

8) When I was fifteen I tried to commit suicide. I was in a very abuse (mainly verbal and psychological) relationship and I'd just had enough. It was Christmas and we were fighting once again (I think he had cheated again or was accusing me of cheating again, idk) and he told me to "jump off a bridge before I do it myself because I'm tired of you and this toxic ass relationship." It was Christmas. So, Christmas and the day after I brought a razor to my wrists (a place I said I wouldn't do it again because I wanted it to be hidden but I thought I wouldn't have to deal with it afterward and wanted the highest probability of me not making it through) and tried. I remember being so mad because they just wouldn't keep bleeding so I kept doing it. I now have to deal with arms COVERED in deep, gnarly-looking scars because of this. But it's alright, because I wasn't supposed to die. I even tried to slit my throat and it didn't work. Four years later and my mental health is in the best place it's been since before grade six and I haven't hurt myself in three years. I'm very proud of myself. 😊

(This is where the picture was but...yeah. I'm salty rn don't mind me)

(So when I say I understand, I'm not just spewing shit. If you really wanna know more about the awful parts of my life and think it could help you, go look at my story Bridge to the Other Side.)

9) I love rocks. Love, love, love them. Many of you know I am a spiritualist so I believe that everything holds energy and that you can access that energy (from yourself or others) at any time. Some people are harder than others as some are more open, but yeah. I believe there is a collective of information from everyone ever that you can subconsciously access (like when you say something but have no idea how you knew that or where it came from or when words just spew from your mouth without you even thinking about it.) I believe that rocks hold energy and certain types can do and help with different things. I've felt it and can feel the difference in my rocks when they're cleansed of negative energies. My favorite is amethyst and my second favorite is obsidian. The bracelet on my right wrist in the above picture has two pieces of amethyst on it. (You can see one of them.)

10) I'm a nut for music. (As most of you know, I'm literally obsessed with 5SOS and I'm in love with Michael Clifford.) My dad is a DJ and I've spent my life around speakers and loud music and learning about music from different eras. Unlike most people my age, I have a wide spectrum of musical tastes and like music that most kids and young adults don't even know anymore. You can give me music from 1D to Metalica to Volbeat to Escape the Fate to Queen to Abba to Grateful Dead to Blackbear and I'll love it all. I even like country (I don't really like any new country, but I was raised on stuff like She Thinks My Tractor's Sexy, American Honey, and Red Dirt Road.) There is certain music I don't like though. Like, I will not listen to that bullshit that people call rap nowadays. That is not rap. That's just bullshit. (However, I do like actual rap; aka random artistic poetry. Shit that has meaning. Shit that is actual words and not just a bunch of mumbled crap promoting drugs and demeaning women.) I also don't really like opera. I don't have any negative feelings towards it, I just don't really like it. And I don't really like heavy screamo/metal.  

🎶 I be taggin: 🎶

Angel_Winchester_03
Nicoismysenpai
parker_stilinski
dylan_obabe
MeiczyslawMcCall

Have a good day my beautiful weirdos