•ʏ/ɴ's ᴘᴏᴠ•

I woke up in an unfamiliar white room ," oh! you're up" , I heard a unfamiliar voice and a doctor stepped in front of me, "Hi , I'm doctor Lee" , "hello" , I tried to smile.
"I have a bad news for you "

"W-What is it? "

"You have asthma, a severe one" , he sighed, I nodded before speaking "please don't tell my brothers " , I said looking down, "why? " , he said looking at me , "because I don't want them to worry about me. I'll tell them once I'm ready. ", he sharply exhaled, "ok but you have to take some medicines and you'll also need an inhaler " , I nodded and he walked out.

I was happy as well as sad . I don't know what to think or do, I was confused , so I decided to meet eomma , usually my brothers won't let me go to her but I sneak in her room at night, secretly . I closed my eyes and slept.

- Ａｔ Ｎｉｇｈｔ-

I get out of my bed and tip toed to eomma's room (A/N: she is in same hospital as her mother) , I went in and closed the door behind me, I sat on a stool next to her bed and held her hand in mine.

"Hi eomma , it's me Y/N , I really miss you and sorry to say but I won't be able to keep my promise" , I sat there silent for a few minutes, "I-I have severe asthma ", my voice begin to crack, "I don't know what to think or do , eomma I need you , I need help , you know I don't have any friend and oppas, they hate me " , I cried and cried till there was no tear left.

I walked back to my room and laid on the bed . I tried to sleep but I can't. After several hours of struggle I finally slept.

- Ｉｎ Ｔｈｅ Ｍｏｒｎｉｎｇ-

It was already 11 in the morning but no one came to pick me. 'Really Y/N , how can you expect them to come', I said to myself. I told doctor and he permitted me to go and gave my medicines and inhaler.

I walked back to my home thinking about how will my brothers react today. "whatever they do I still have to keep my promise" , I murmured . I stopped my train of thoughts when I bumped into someone and we both fell on the cold ground. "I'm really sorry " , I said getting up , "it's ok " , the person said , his voice was familiar, I looked at him and recognised him immediately, his name is Bambam , we study in same school and this boy always try to seek my attention , we talked a few times but he is to shy to hold a conversation . I smiled at him before walking away.

-Ａｔ ＢＴＳ Ｍａｎｓｉｏｎ-

Finally I'm here , the hell called home. I opened the main door quietly hoping not to get seen but to my bad luck my brothers were watching tv in the living room , I decided to ignore them and rush to my room but Namjoon blocked my way , "please let me go " , I pleaded not wanting to get hurt right now . "What took you so long hah? " , he asked . I kept quite not knowing what to say and the next moment I was on the floor. He slapped me , everyone was not surrounding me , ready to hit me again.

"Jin hyung have to cook again because you were not here " , taehyung said kicking me. " We had to pay a high bill for your stupid acting " , jimin grabbed my hairs and pulled me up and then slapped me. "P-Please let me go " , I begged but they keep on hitting me till Jin oppa stopped them , "why are you wasting time on this pathetic girl , come and eat now" , they all left me there and went to eat. I got up and ran to my room locking the door . I fell on my knees and cried my heart out. After crying my eyes out I decided to take a shower. I removed my clothes leaving myself only in undergarments . I got up to admire myself in the mirror, "How pretty " , I said out loud , bruises and scars all over my body accompanied with cut I made , dark circles under my eyes and puffy red eyes. I smiled at my reflection , then grabbed the cutter from my study table and made 4 new cuts on both legs and 6 on left arm . I was laughing like crazy when I realised I left my medicines in the living room. I quickly wore my clothes and ran downstairs.

•ᴊᴜɴɢᴋᴏᴏᴋ's ᴘᴏᴠ•

After eating I went back in living room and found a white plastic bag lying on the floor. I picked it up to see what was inside but someone snatched it , I look up and saw Y/N with a scared look on her face, "what is in this? " , I asked firmly, "it's n-nothing " , I snatched it back, "tell me", I was about to open it when she literally yelled, " there are sanitary pads in that", I dropped the bag and she grabbed it and run away.

•ʏ/ɴ's ᴘᴏᴠ•

I ran to my room and quickly locked the door behind me, "that was close " , I murmured and laid on my bed. I was thinking weather to tell them or not , what would be their reactions ? Will they treat me right? Will they be worried? , but I can't make them worry about me . My train of thoughts stopped when I heard my name being called. " But I was going to take a shower", I said to myself pouting. I quickly ran down stairs not wanting to get beaten up again, "yes brother" , I said catching my breath, "go and clean our rooms " , hoseok oppa said , I nodded and went to clean their rooms .

I was cleaning Namjoon oppa's room when I noticed a picture in the frame, it was family before that incident. I picked it up analysing the happy faces, "I hope we could be like this again " , I said placing the frame back at its place but my elbow hit another frame and it fell on the floor and thank god it didn't shattered . I bend down to pick it up when I noticed the picture , it was 10 years old me on a swing and Namjoon oppa pushing it. I really miss those day . But wait, he still have this picture on his nightstand, I smiled with tears in my eyes, "maybe they still care", I said to myself. After placing it back I cleaned the room and went to others room to clean them.

After cleaning I went to my room and laid on my bed , it was already time to cook dinner so I gathered my strength and went down to the kitchen. After cooking I came back in my room, took a shower and slept .

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