- Chapter 37 :

"Hey." Yoongi softly spoke as he sat next to me on a stool. I stared at him before weakly extending my arms. "Hold me." I said softly as he stared at my arms for a minute. The next minute, he pushed me aside a bit and sat next to me in the bed as he held me close to him. I smiled a little as I cuddled into his warm chest.

"Don't blame yourself for anything that happened or happens. It was all my choice Yoongi." I said carefully, knowing he'd blame my death in himself. "I could've stayed with you even after you kicked me out. I chose to leave Yoongi. I chose this path." I said softly as I reached up to caress his cheek.

However my eyes widened when instead my hands came in contact with liquid, Yoongi was crying. He suddenly pulled me closer to him as he let out a pained sob as he perched his chin on my hair. Even after all of this, he didn't want me to see him crying. I felt tears of my own slipping out of my eyes as I patted his chest. "Let it out."

And he did. For a good two minutes all he did was weep and sob and cry. As I held onto him, I myself cried silently, my life span dropping ever second. I finally looked to him and wiped his tears away with my thumbs before smiling up at him. "How're you still smiling?" He asked with a sob and I held his face in my hands.

"Because you're here now." I whispered before sweetly kissing him. He held her tightly as if that could stop me from leaving as he kissed me back with gentleness and. . .pain. I could feel the way he was screaming and fighting on the inside, he was torn and bleeding and it was all because of me.

I gently pushed him away and stared into his eyes. "Hey stop crying. I'll start crying again. I'll always be here somewhere." I said while poking the skin that guarded his heart. Then slowly my hands clasped my necklace and slipped it off as I smoothly attached it around Yoongi's neck, tucking it into his shirt so it wouldn't be seen.

"Now I'll always be here. If you cry, I'll know." I whispered through my tears as tears passed through his eyes as well. "You'll be lonely from now on again." I stared while looking into his eyes. He nodded while hugging me again, trying to feel me again while I was alive and well.

"Don't leave me. . .please." He whined and I felt my heart shatter more. I'd never wanted to live on this planet, my aim always to leave. Now I was here, wishing I could live and stay by his side. I didn't want to leave yet. It was far too soon.

"I don't want to either, Yoongi. Get over me fast eh, forget me and find someone else. Lord why am I saying this when I know that you won't listen anyways." I scolded myself comically as I pecked his lips again. "Hey talk to me." I said worriedly as he looked away.

"It might be your last time being able to talk to me." I quietly said as he looked up with a grief stricken expression. "Don't say that." He seethed as I looked down.

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Yoongi felt his heart slowly shatter and fall as Jihee held tightly onto him, giving him advice for how to live and what to eat, and the reason why people sleep. Tears still streamed down her face as she spoke, wiping his tears. His arms were wrapped around her waist as she was pressed closely up to him.

"Hey. Will you go out with me?" Yoongi suddenly asked. Jihee looked up with a curious look in her eyes. Yoongi had to do it. She'd leave him as his girlfriend and he was set on it. No one could say no to it. Jihee gently caressed his face before nodding, "I'll be your girlfriend." She said in a tiny voice as Yoongi smiled slyly.

"One last request." He said lowly as Jihee tilted her head. "Anything for you." Yoongi smiled at her phrase and nodded. "On my count of three let's both smile at each other. Fully, not some half ass smile. A real loving smile. Okay?" He questioned. Jihee regarded it for a minute before nodding.

"1"

"2"

"3!"

Yoongi smiled a wide gummy smile, and looked at Jihee. His eyes widened as he watched her grin, her lips curled upwards to their fullest potential. She was smiling. Her eyes crinkled at the ends and something told Yoongi that smiling used to be a usual activity for her.

And with that smile, she was gorgeous.

"Jihee." Yoongi breathed as he held her face in his hands. Her grin reduced to a small smile as the pain showed through again. "Yoongi." Jihee replied with great difficulty as her breathing became a tad ragged. Yoongi was pulled back into reality as he realized that this wasn't going to last. She was close to leaving.

"No. You can't leave me. Please." Yoongi sobbed once more as Jihee wrapped herself around him. "Stop making this harder for us both Yoongi." Jihee cried as she smacked his back lightly. "Idiot." She chided as she flicked his forehead.

"Eat regularly. Okay? Bathe and sleep and don't overwork yourself. Show love to the members and receive love as well. Do great out there. I believe in you." Yoongi was about to respond when the monitor began slowly beeping. Both parties turned to it with fear in their eyes.

"No." Yoongi breathed as he held Jihee closer. He had a feeling that by doing so he could protect her from the devils that'd come to claim her. He was keeping her. "Yoongi." The monitor started beeping louder and Yoongi frantically looked at Jihee with tears pouring out.

Jihee kissed him one last time, sending all her emotions and love through it as she backed away and wiped a stray tear. "I have to go now." She said as Yoongi shook his head. "NO YOU CAN'T!" He hollered as Jihee shut her eyes and opened them again, feeling dizzy.

"Yoongi, I love you. I love you I love you I love you so damn much." She groaned as the pain sent her head into excruciating pain. Yoongi pulled her in close to his chest as they both hugged each other. The monitor's noise was blaring by now and Jihee felt her eyes start to close.

In that moment she saw everyone. She saw memories of her parents tucking her into bed and spinning her in the air as she threw her head back and let out childish giggles.

She saw her brother hold her hand as she took her first steps, falling and stumbling as he kneeled down to carry on her on his back like a horse. She could vividly hear the way she screamed 'Go horsey!' and the way her brother heartily laughed back.

She saw how Mina and herself would run off out the house, hands intertwined or the ways she would lie on her sister's lap as Mina read her a story. She remembered the times the two would play with their toys in their room or tickle each other to death and lie to holding hands as they fought to catch their breath.

Then, she saw BTS. She saw the way Min So acted like an elder sister, or the way Jin cooked and shouted at the members who simply laughed back or slapped Jin on the back. She saw how they playfully teased each other or made jokes.

As Jihee witnessed all this, she realized that she was standing in the middle of it and everyone around her couldn't notice or see her. She was alone. Again. However just as that thought scared her, she turned to find Yoongi walking to her, smiling with his hand outstretched.

Jihee ran to him and captured him in a hug as they stood there. And then she felt herself falling into a deep hole. The walls were black as they closed in on her. She brought her hands to her face and covered herself as she slipped into an eternal sleep.

"I love you Yoongi." The phrase left her lips as her last words.

And then she was gone.

The monitor finally stopped its ruckus as Yoongi sat perfectly still, Jihee's body laying in his arms. She didn't move, or breath and suddenly felt cold. Yoongi closed his as he held back his sobs. She was gone. She'd left him to fend for himself in this cruel, cruel world.

"I-I love you too." He finally broke as he rocked Jihee's body in his lap like she was a small child. "I love you more than you know." He finally confessed. He'd finally said it. He'd finally told her that he loved her.

But she didn't know that.

And she never would.

The End.

I'm actually sobbing right now guys. I'm so sorry, I got a tad too attached to Jihee and now it's a bit too hard to try and stop the tears. I'll try to update the bonus chapters today but I might take a small break. I'm sorry for overreacting I just need some time.

Thank you for reading this book and I hope it didn't hit you as hard as it's currently hitting me. I feel stupid for getting attached to fictional characters now.

-lunar1029