Jungkook's perspective

Taehyung's request was my duty which I needed to fulfill. We were finally going home together, returning back to the same place where it all started, Busan. 

The summer shone brightly, the sky blue as the ocean and mountains covered with blossoming trees settled in the scenery outside the window of the shuffling train which I peered at comfortably with a hand fixed in mine and head resting against my shoulder.

His eyes were relaxing as he shut them in a comfortable manner. His breaths were steady after a while. I know it's odd how we ended up that way but he was fully unaware of this.

We chose to sit facing each other on the different berths but his eyelids later clasped as the train gained it's pace and I shifted to his side, bringing his head on my shoulder so that he could comfortably rest. 

I didn't know what I noticed in him but he seemed a little exhausted all that time.His health condition questioned me but he excused saying, 'nothing but summer'. Anxiety and curiosity never left my side but what else didn't leave my side was hope. I was hoping to fix everything which we couldn't fix before. 

Mutualism is beneficial in every case and relationships were no exception. I needed his emotions to be transferred to me because the mystery in his eyes had me constantly wondering if what he was keeping.

His gestures always were loud but never clear enough for me to distinguish between his love and sympathy. I never wanted to be burdensome with my confessions but all I needed was his consideration for it. 

He knew that I loved him so much but why did he never say anything regarding his feelings? I was ready to dedicate my life to him but I never knew what he thought of me, what place I held in his heart? Was I even there?

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I didn't even realise how I ended up in a deep slumber with my head resting against his. The loud whistles had me shaken in realization and I quickly opened up my eyes, just to only find us connected in an adorable manner that I just didn't want to break us apart.

His face was adorned with his closed eyes, his eyelashes falling on his cheeks and lips puckered up slightly. The mole on his nose was insisting me to boop on it slightly but I just couldn't let my inner side to hover over me. That day I saw how ethereal he was from even closer, like ten times prettier. 

His one hand was fixed with mine and another was tugging my shirt. My eyes couldn't help but softened at his adorableness. He was something to be protected and insured forever, too pure for this rushing world.

"Tae…" I finally whispered under my breath, patting his cheek softly and making him blink rapidly.

"We're home." I spoke and he sat still now, blinking and yawning shyly to bring him back to reality.

My lips couldn't help but smile when he looked down after stretching his arms. His cheeks puffy as he batted his eyelashes cutely.

"You want some water?" I asked after offering the water bottle which he accepted and I found time to carry out our bags.

The crowd was already rushing out and I took time for us to leave. I put the bags down when my eyes deliberately fell on him when he drank the water slowly. 

There was something very odd about him that day. He didn't speak nor share any glance and all he did was just staring into space all this time, not aware of the fact how he had my heart clenching at his actions.

"Tae…" I whispered again and he hummed softly.

"What is it?" I asked and he slightly shook his head, handing me the bottle before stretching his hand to carry the bag.

"I got this, let's go." I replied, not letting him carry the bag and I held his hand instead.

"You don't have-"

"It's okay, let's go, yeah?" 

I slowly led us out of the train to finally step in the station and there was a moment of silence when he both breathed the familiar air after a very long time. 

The surroundings were all familiar, the aroma was the same scented and heartwarming. 

He closed his eyes, sighing before taking a deep breath and my eyes couldn't look away from him. He opened his eyes and the tears glistened. My hands impulsively brushed his cheeks and he smiled softly.

"I missed this place." He whispered, eyes wandering on every corner around his town and mine wandering on his.

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After ringing a call, we stood out of the station, waiting for Jimin and Yoongi to get us.

"It's been so long right?" I asked and he nodded, biting his lip softly at the thought.

"I missed him so much." 

"I did too."

And then a car parked in front of us and two tiny men rushed out of it. My hand instinctively waved at them and Yoongi caught me in a hug first because Jimin was busy hugging the life out of Taehyung.

"I missed you, I missed you so much. Taehyung… oh my God, I missed you." Jimin repeated as he cried like a freak, making me take a deep breath at how he was making me emotional.

"I missed you too." Taehyung whispered, digging his head in Jimin's shoulder when they both embraced each other for a long good time and I just couldn't interrupt them.

"He is literally ethereal." Yoongi whispered to me with a gummy smile on his face and eyes a bit shiny.

"Oh c'mon Jimin you're making us cry here. Won't you introduce me to him?" Yoongi finally whined and bickered a little with Jimin about it and I turned my back to them, taking time to clear my eyes because my heart became suddenly heavy.

I had all of them three with me together at the same time. The most beautiful moment I could ever live.

"Taehyung, Yoongi. Yoongi, Taehyung." I heard Jimin saying to which Yoongi whined again.

"Aish, what a lame way of introducing."

"Oh hi Taehyung, nice to meet you. I am Yoongi, Jungkook's friend and Jimin's foe."

"Ahhhh Yoongie…." Jimin whined and Taehyung chuckled at them.

"Nice to meet you too, I am Taehyung. Heard a lot about you."

"Oh I heard a lot too, no doubt."

And then I felt someone snaking his arms around my waist from back, making me wipe my tears in a quick manner.

"I missed you so much Jungkook." I heard Jimin whispering against my back and I finally turned around to hug him tightly.

"Oh, I missed more." I replied and this time we shared a tight long hug.

"Ah, you never hugged me this way." Yoongi whined at Jimin and I chuckled softly before pulling away, making my way to stand next to Taehyung.

"What are you even talking about? Didn't I always do when you used to visit here with Jungkook?"

And they just bickered again but I made myself busy admiring Taehyung who was admiring them with shiny eyes.

"So Jimin finally found someone?" He whispered as he admired the two and I stood there like a fool.

If you could see their love, why couldn't you see mine?

"So Taehyung, my parents are desperate to see you. Let's go home." Jimin offered, watching Taehyung with bright eyes.

"Ah, I would love to but maybe later." 

"Ahh, why?" Jimin and Yoongi whined together.

"Still have to see father, I missed him so much. Mind if I join later?" And all had to agree at his request.

"Okay then I will be joining you guys later too." I said, handing my bag to them.

"No it's okay, you should-"

"I will take you there." I spoke while looking in his eyes and slid down my hand to hold his hand.

"Okay, we will be waiting. Let us drop you." And I nodded at them before carrying Taehyung's bag in another hand.

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Our feet were in perfect synchronisation as we both took leisure steps together to the church. Jimin and Yoongi had dropped us on the road and we decided to walk the rest of the way to the church together.

My heart throbbed inside my chest as we walked into the depth of nature. Nothing was changed. Everything was the same from the chirping of the birds to the buzzing of the bugs, from scented flowers to greenery and from cherry blossoms to the remembrance of the past.

I was drowning in the feeling of nostalgia and closed my eyes to catch the glimpse of memories of the past.

I opened up my eyes and found myself in my school uniform, the bag in hand turned into my school bag and I turned to face him, smiling at me with wide lips and crimson freckles on his cheeks. His cheeks were so round and eyes doe and shiny, no clue of any mystery or pain, just pure bliss and optimism.

I offered my hand to him which he accepted as we both walked, swinging our hands. No misery, only delight, no pain, only euphoria because back then we had no clue.

"We're here." And I was jolted back to reality by his sudden voice.

I blinked rapidly, staring in front to see the church and one familiar figure caught my attention, flowering the plants as Taehyung used to do with kittens purring in the surrounding.

"Father…" Taehyung whispered with whimpering lips and father turned to see us and the water pot almost dropped off his hands which he slowly landed down to catch Taehyung running to him.

"Oh lord, Taehyung, my boy. I missed you. Oh I missed you so much." 

And I witnessed their encounter after a very long heartbreaking separation.

"Oh father…" and they remained in a hug, crying together and I wiped my silent tears too.

The kittens purred and meowed, some walked to me. I sat down, bringing them in my arms and some clung on my shoulder.

They were four only and no sign of Miss. Daisy.

"Where's Mommy?" I whispered, stroking their fur. 

"She passed away some days ago." Father whispered and I was not ready for how Taehyung started crying at the loss.

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After what happened to Miss. Daisy and a long separation with father, Taehyung really broke down into tears which I had never seen before. His pain had me in constant tears too.

I remained standing under the tree with Taehyung by my side, standing silent next to me because father was busy in prayers now. 

I tried my best to ignore the fact that we were standing under the same cherry blossom tree who witnessed our first meeting and separation but I eventually failed when I turned around to see something that was still there like my love for him.

‘Jungkook ♡ Taehyung’

And I rested my head against the trunk, finally letting myself break down in tears as my fingers brushed against our carved names. 

I heard sniffles in the back and I turned my head around to see him walking away but I clutched his hand again. The feeling of deja vu struck us and he turned to face me with those teary eyes with shock laced in it.

"T-taehyung…" I finally stepped, facing him from closer.

"I'm sorry but-"

"No..." he shook his head, not wanting me to say what I was about to say.

"I l-love you, I still do and will always do. I love you so much. Don't reply to me, don't say you do too but just consider it that I love you so much and that I just can't live w-without you. Oh God, you have no idea how much I l-love… Taehyung I…" and he slid his hand away, hitting me brutally like a thunderbolt.

Not again.

"You will try to escape again, I know but Taehyung, tell me. I need to know. Just tell me if the mystery in your eyes is just your sympathy or love. I need your answer, I need to know what you feel… just say please… if having me bothers you, t-then I can leave, for forever but tell me what you feel just say…" I pleaded while crying like a freak and blocked his way and he didn't even look at me once.

"Say it Tae… Do you love me too?" I had enough and I shook his shoulders but what I got in response had my world fallen apart.

He collapsed in my arms again with what felt like a seizure as his breaths hitched when his body started shaking dangerously in my arms.

"TAEHYUNG!!! TAEHYUNG!!!!" I screamed and his ocean blue eyes landed on my face before his hands curled to my neck.

"J-jung…"

And he closed his eyes.

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