Jungkook's perspective

It was unbelievable how many months passed in school, I was getting closer to completing my one year. The place always felt like home, benevolent and comfortable. Children were dedicated and this helped me a lot through my job.

Taehyung's constant support and encouragement had always strengthened my resolve but what I didn't know before that day was that his own resolve was far gone.

The day was fine like others, I was in full enthusiasm to serve my best. The morning was warm and shiny too and this had my mind all freshened for the day.

I visited school earlier than usual. My smile was spreading widely on my lips which was surely his impact of bringing the best of me.

Summer vacations were around the corner and I had my mind to visit Busan because Jimin had been constantly bickering about my busy schedule. Oh and yes, Yoongi was in Busan too, he found a job as an editor in the publishing department. What an ease that I could see both at once.

Their constant demand to see Taehyung had me finally thinking of a day to visit and Yoongi was more than just excitement. I didn't take too much time to make Taehyung aware of this tiny man and he was surely glad to see them in future too.

There was still a difficulty, though teachers could take the opportunity of the summer break to relish their time but the caretakers needed to stay to take care of the children.

And that gave me another sign of long separation and I had to conclude something in between. I decided to stay for a week or so but that to be with Taehyung himself because like me, I know he missed home too.

It was the last day in school because the summer break was starting from the next day and I had everything planned for the children's holiday assignment which I kept reliable, enjoyable and logically because the main motto of holidays is to get relished again, not to be tense.

I walked into the building now, making my way to St. Jung's office. I walked leisurely, fixing my wrist watch in hand with an erupting smile, reminding me that I needed to see someone soon but before entering his office room, I stopped in tracks as a familiar voice fell into my ears and I heard the whole conversation.

"Taehyung, you don't look fine at all. You should've stayed home."

"No St. Jung, I am all good, don't worry it's just the effect of the hot summer maybe... it's okay I'm fine."

"No, this is not a thing to argue about at all. Stop lying Taehyung, you're not fine at all."

"Hyung, I am fine. I had to arrive today. I would not be able to see before the holidays if I wouldn't have come."

"But-"

"Please hyung, don't worry I am all fine and don't tell Jungkook about it. I don't want to pull him in worries."

"You think you can keep this forever? One day he will know."

And then a moment of silence filled the room, asking me to step in, which I did.

My eyes landed on Taehyung, sitting on one of the chairs in front of St. Jung's desk and the look on St. Jung's face was something I had never seen before. It was as if the sunshine on his face was clouded somewhere.

"Jungkook?" St. Jung called as he found me entering, making Taehyung's eyes to land on me and he swiftly stood up.

"Good morning Jungkook." He greeted me with joy, a fake joy which he thought would fool me but I was not too foolish.

"Taehyung...what is it?" I finally asked, the weight on my chest was making my knees weak and legs turn into jelly.

My eyes wandered on his face, he looked so pale and weak which I noticed earlier but he always brushed away, saying summers don't suit him but it was not an effect of summer at all.

"Tell me Taehyung, what is it?" I asked again, eyes curiously wandering on his face and he bit his bottom lip again before peering at my face with a saddening smile.

"It's nothing Jungkook... you don't have to worry about it." He spoke, all words were a lie and I took a step back in disbelief.

"St. Jung, tell me what is it? What is it that he is hiding?" I asked desperately looking for an answer because now the anxiety was building up in me.

St. Jung hung his head low and only raised to see Taehyung.

"What is it?" I demanded with my crackling voice.

No one answered, testing my patience which I lost soon.

"Taehyung, what is it? Why don't you tell me? Oh God, please, please say Taehyung what is it? I can see it in your eyes. You're hiding. You had always been hiding."

All I received was silence in return. I knew this had something to do with the mystery in his eyes. I wasn't a fool, I had always seen something odd in his eyes. The worst part of it all was that he kept it to himself. I had been vocal to all my emotions, always letting him know about my feelings because I saw my God in him but maybe he didn't think of me as a deserving one to know what he felt and this had my heart torn apart for the nth time.

"You don't want me to know... w-why?" I asked but his silence tested me well now. I had enough.

Tears had started rushing now but he remained silent. Why? Didn't I deserve to know what he was keeping from me?

His gaze was fixed down and I remained standing there like a stone in the desert. I lost my determination to stand still because if I didn't, I would end up screaming like a fool which I didn't want and I decided to leave.

"Guess what? You will never hear of me again." I whispered deliberately without even thinking of what I said because I was hurt. I turned my way around to finally walk away.

With one step across the door frame, a thud sound made me turn my head around and I was left thunderstruck.

"TAEHYUNG!" I rushed quickly, bringing his fragile body in my arms.

It was unexpected how everything turned out to be. My heart skipped a beat and anxiety rushed into my body. It took me a while to analyse what happened.

"St. Jung, c-call an ambulance p-please..." I demanded and he quickly stood up to dial the number.

"T-taehyung... Tae... hey..." I patted his cheek. This time too, all I received was just silence.

My body tensed. I was witnessing something worse than a nightmare. He seemed so vulnerable in my arms. I held him closer to me, repeating his name again and again. My tears landed on his fragile cheek and I kept him near my chest, holding him tight as to feel his heartbeat somehow.

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Now it was me to stay in silence. Regret had me sinking in a deep sorrow when I saw his body laying on bed, eyes closed and his hand in mine when I sat next to him.

Eyes were constantly leaving tears when I saw his pale face, his eyelashes were resting on his cheeks, his lips were chaste and hair messily falling on his forehead. His sight had me in constant tears. What was he doing to himself?

My hands softly brushed his hair, fixing it and a whimper released my lips when my fingertips touched his delicate skin. He seemed so delicate, as if I would break if I would touch.

I buried my head down on his hand fixed in mine. I kissed it several times.

"I love you... oh lord. I love you so much." I whispered and now my body shook with the heavy sobs.

A warm hand rubbed my back which I knew belonged to St. Jung. He sat next to us but I was too busy in releasing my agony and then all of it washed away in an instant when a hand softly brushed through my hair.

"Jungkook..." his soft voice made me face him and I quickly came back to life.

"Hey..." he called in a hoarse weak voice and I leaned my head on his chest now.

"I am fine." He laughed it off casually but for me this was nothing to laugh at.

I finally calmed myself as he brushed his hand on my cheeks.

"You shouldn't have said that." He whispered with a saddened gaze.

"I am sorry." This was all I could say and he wiped the tears of my eyes.

"Jungkookie?" I nodded slightly, peering into his eyes.

"Will you take me to Busan? I need to see f-father..." his voice cracked in the end with a tear scrolling through his eyes.

I nodded repeatedly, palming his hand on my cheek.

"I will take you home, Tae." I whispered, kissing his hand once again.

He finally smiled at me which didn't reach his eyes and the way he sounded grew an anxiety in me. I needed to know many more things but I couldn't force him to but things started showing the colours to me and I was not still ready for what was awaiting.

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I feel bad for Tae.

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