Jungkook's perspective

The solitary winter of the miserable year somehow passed by shedding tears and longing for something that would never be there when I wanted it to be.

Now life turned upside down when my school days were getting closer to be over. In a matter of days, I would be graduating. Focusing on session ending exams was a whole different level of pressure but time flew by like a petal in the wind.

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The grand day had finally arrived, my graduation day. I couldn't believe how I ended up being school's one of the shining armour, maybe Taehyung's impact was really very massive on me to bring out the best of me.

“You will be grown up to be a strong man, Jungkook and I am already proud of you.” 

His every said word was like a music to the empty ears of my heart and his memories were its melody. 

I wore my school uniform for the last time as I checked myself in the mirror. An eighteen years old boy with no dreams or passion in eyes but a mystery of love and hopelessness. 

Though my lips were sealed but my reflection said a lot to me. I had changed completely. I had grown up, became an adult and now ready to start a new journey after graduating.

A sorrowful sigh released my lips when I ran my fingertips on the sewn letters on the pocket in the left side of my coat, reading my school's name which brought me there, in the blissful place where I experienced such new things.

I took a deep breath before checking myself again. A warm smile spread on my lips when I saw a certain boy waving his hands to me when I peered down through the window of my bedroom.

"Jungkook, you don't want us to get late, do you?" Jimin yelled and I smiled before giving him a nod.

I went downstairs where I was greeted by my parents.

"Oh, look at my boy. Looks so good looking and mature." My mother was never the sweet wording person but this really made me smile.

"Thanks mom." 

"Ah, wish you all the good luck my son. I am proud of you." My father whispered something really appreciative in a while as he looked into my eyes which was unusual for me. 

My eyes started filling up but I just couldn't let my guards down in front of them, not on a very special day. I just gave a small nod, biting my bottom lip slightly to resist it from whimpering.

"We will be there by 9, when the event will start. Okay?" My mother and I nodded. She quickly engulfed me in a hug and mother's magic touch would always relieve me.

My intovercy was the only reason that I couldn't open up about my feelings with my parents. They had their own issues and being unable to help them with it made me feel helpless and useless. But on that day, I could genuinely feel the vibes of love and admiration coming from them and I knew I needed to make them more proud in future.

Mom pecked my cheek lovingly when I was about to walk out of home.

"Ah, Jungkook…" she called from behind, making me turn to face her.

"There's this bouquet with a letter by an unknown sender, congratulating you for graduation day." She said, carrying the bouquet and the letter closer to me and I frowned looking at it.

"Ah, thanks mom." I received it in my hands from her as I looked at it.

"Ah Jungkook what's taking you so long?" Jimin came in and instantly mumbled a sorry for being loud after finding my parents there.

"Good morning." He bowed and greeted my parents who smiled at him.

"Good morning dear!" Mom and Dad replied in unison

"Wish you a very nice day." Mom greeted, squeezing one of the cheeks of his favourite kid around.

"Thank you." Jimin smiled sheepishly.

"Ah, Jungkook let's go." He whispered and I turned to face him and then looked at the bouquet in my hands.

"Yes Jungkook you should be leaving already or else you'll be late." Mom said and I nodded, handing her the bouquet and letter again before leaving.

"I will see it later mom." I said before being dragged by Jimin.

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The school hall was filled with my fellows on our graduation day. The teachers were on stage and our school was looking extremely alluring as it was decorated with flowers and shiny satin silk drapes like a bride at her wedding.

The event began with a speech by our principal sir, welcoming us in school for the very last day as students. 

This day signified our accomplishments of the past. The day when we feel the warmth and comfort of the school around us for the last day. This wasn't an end but a whole new beginning of a bright future.

Soon we started being awarded with certificates of our accomplishments and a bouquet holding fragile flowers like us fragile students who grew up in this garden of school by teachers as playing the role of the gardners.

When I stepped on stage, I could feel that terrifying feeling of being noticed by hundreds of people around. I felt shy and my legs started to quiver but I still managed to receive my certificate and bouquet with a trophy for my academic excellence which had me in tears.

The crowd cheered and the hall was filled with applause. And somewhere in the crowd, I could see my parents, clapping their hands happily for me and my chest widened with pride.

“One day, you will make everyone proud of you. I have faith in you Jungkook.”

I walked closer to the mic now. I had no specific message to deliver but I just shared my thoughts as a speech, trying my best not to stutter because hundreds of eyes were fixed on me. I started my speech with the basics about graduation day and school. I paid my gratitude to teachers management and my fellows before finally presenting my inner thoughts.

"... In the end I would like to say that whatever your life gives you, whatever you experience, it's all yours, fully yours to keep. Try to embrace all your emotions whether they are delightful or gloomy because only they can teach you patience and enhance the strength to walk further. 

Thank you so much!" 

I ended my speech and the hall was filled with cheers again. My eyes fell on Jimin, giving me standing applause which made me chuckle in delight. And then I saw my parents, wiping tears from their eyes, making my heart clench with inexpressible emotions. 

Yes, I was really happy.

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It was finally night now, I laid on my bed with my gaze fixed on the ceiling. It was an unforgettable and busy day, completely dedicated to Jimin who insisted me to go out with him and now I was finally home.

I sat up again when I realised that there was something else I was forgetting and I was quickly reminded when I found the same bouquet on my study table with the same letter.

"Maybe, mom had placed it here." 

I quickly carried it in my hands as I smelled the flowers after closing my eyes and that feeling of nostalgia hit me like a thunderstorm.

The flower scent was very familiar. The boquest was having lavender, orchids, wax flowers, amaranthus and roses, the flowers that Taehyung generally used to grow in his garden.

I quickly opened up my eyes as the realisation hit me. I quickly carried the letter laying on the table. I opened it up hastily and the crunch sound of paper was still not louder than the sound of my heartbeats.

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Dear Jungkook,

I am sending you a lot of good wishes and love for your graduation day. I can't express in words how much I am proud of you. I will always pray for your well being and strength. I hope you still think of me the same way I always do. I wish these breezes always surround you in the embrace of my love. 

I miss you so much. 

- Taehyung

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With a thud sound, I knelt down broken. The heavy drops of tears landed on the paper which I hugged closer to my chest as if it was his fragile body wrapped with a robe, sending me his warmth. I kissed it several times, not getting enough of it.

My heart ached in my chest so badly. This sickening feeling of helplessness was brutally killing me but I still embraced all those feelings because they belonged to him and I treasured them so much.

The curtains started flowing with the breezes entering through the open window. I closed my eyes, letting it engulf me completely as if Taehyung was hugging me warmly, vanishing all my pain and sorrow away.

"I miss you so much too…"

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I tried to complete it without crying but failed.

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