ᗩᗪᗴᒪIᑎᗴ ᑭOᐯ

My heart was pounding , what have I done, I was emotional and acted foolishly  ,one stupid memory sent me on a roller coaster and now I don't have a way to get off it. I have never hated myself more than now. I should just die

I'm so stupid, so weak and pathetic. I wish I could disappear. I'm not a princess, I'm not a good wife to neither Aldric or Daruis, I'm not even a good fairy. The queen was right why had I crawled out of the hole I was hiding. If I had the chance I'd go back

ᗪᗩᖇᑌIՏ ᗩᑎᗪ ᗩᑎᗩᗷᗴᒪ ᑭOᐯ

"Do you love me?" these 4 words stole the sounds of the room leaving a depressing silence hanging in the air. Because these words had never been said between the couple, always thought of but never once mouthed. She knew his scars and his hurting relationship with the word 'love' so she always assured herself that he did care for her through his actions ,lately though those actions haven't been assuring. "Why do you ask" he raised his thin face to her

"Then say it" she had an edge in her voice, her words reeking of desperation. His movements sluggish, he tried to reach her but the chains didn't let him, rattling in complaint to his struggles. "I am incapable of such, you know this so why expect it from me now?" she knew what he would say but she hoped that he would prove her wrong but he proved her right. She had a violently outburst and started hitting him, all her held back tears finally released "you coward! for how long will you be like this, for how long will I have to wait. I gave up my soulmate for you, that's how much I love you, why won't you do the same for me" "then go back to him" he responded. She stopped crying though still sobbing she asked "what?"

"Then go back to him. Go back to a man who still has a heart to give, I won't hate you for that. For how long will you put up with me? For how long will you put your happiness aside for an absolute bastard like me?" a tear rolled done his check while he smiled. She screamed and started pulling out her hair and went to him holding his face so roughly "why do hate yourself so much? Why cant you see what I see" he didnt respond , he didnt have to because the answer was so clear

She hugged him still pathetically seeking for comfort, he wanted to embrace her, kiss her and tell her it will be alright but how when he was in chains. "I'm not okay Daruis, my wings are starting to fall out, and the side effects of the mixture are kicking in. So please grant me one thing before I go" Daruis was not from the sea rather he was from the land of ice
. So everything he touched would slowly  freeze and wither away, it was no different for Anabel. She took mixture that allowed her to stand his nature and it came at an extreme price her slowing dying.

"Anything my love" she looked into his eyes, brushing away the hair on his face "let me leave a man behind, something that is whole and isn't broken, let me leave behind a king that this kingdom deserves at least that if not your love" "If that is your wish then do this for me then... go back to him and never come near me again. I'll forever hate myself for killing you. I-I-I care too much"

"it's my choice!" "And it's mine not to kill you!" "please don't make me leave you, please" "I don't want us to end but I think it's time for us to do what we don't want...end" "no you don't mean that" she shook her head "I won't lie I'll hate it seeing another man hold you but I know it's for the better I have to stop being selfish and keeping you all to myself" he chuckled "you won't have to see me with anyone I'm all yours. My love is enough for the both of us" "goodbye my love, be happy for me" he kissed her forehead so innocently that it hurt her soul...he meant it.

"Why do want to hurt me so much" he smiled "you a strong woman, you'll heal and forget even my name. I know that" "no I'll never forget you. Do you know why I love you?" "Because I'm handsome?" that made her smile "that too but the reason is that you are not perfect and you don't try to be. Even after being turned into a fool by the courts you still had a sense of arrogance and pride. You made me happy, you supported me in all my madness and you weren't afraid to be honest with, something that I value so much. Your stubborn brooding pessimistic self .You think so differently, you challenge me and you were mine to love" "it's changed hasn't it? I'm a loser aren't I" "you won my heart didn't you? So that makes you a winner to me" it made him smile, those words touched him, made him feel wanted and special.

"If one day I grow a spin and have my heart healed, you'll have my heart and you'll hear what you have always wanted" she chuckled "don't promise me a fairytale after creating a tragedy" " no a tragedy was that dress you wore on our wedding day. You did always have a terrible sense of style" she playfully hit him "at least I have a style unlike you who's always half naked" "I'm the king of the sea" "that's such a lame excuse"

They chatted like old friends meeting for the first time after a long time. That moment that they shared was perfect, it felt normal ,like how they use to be before it all "I promise to be a better king and a better man for you" "that will be only possible if you conquer Adeline" "don't ruin this moment by saying her cursed name" "alright Coinnech Atticus kiss me till you become sick of it" "oh I think that I can do you one better Evelyn" it couldn't get any more pure than that, saying each other's true name and embracing for the last time.

They kissed right into the night and for the next three days. Till finally they unwillingly let each other go, after another long goodbye Anabel left and returned to her old home in the Spring-court

Now he truly had nothing, the last thing that was pure in his life left. He was now alone, truly at his lowest