I see what is meant to be mine. I might not remember everything but I remember enough to know that I was robbed from my glory. 

"It's time..." my trail of thoughts were interrupted by Darius. I question him time for what, but he does not reply rather he offers his hand and I take it it. I had a little shock when I touched his hands, forgetting how cold he is. 

He guided me to the center of the room, the music quickly changed from a fast paced tempo to a slow weary mood. Soon everyone stopped to look at us. The ball fell silent except for us and the music

"As honoree invitees we must dance for all, that is tradition" He whispered lightly into my ears. 

"I don't know how to dance" I told him

"shhh, let me do the work" And then I felt possessed by a force after he spoke those words. All of a sudden I knew the steps and I confidently kept up with the pace.

 I hated his touch, all it did to me was torment me. It was sickening how we had to put on this act. I know what I did to him and what he did to me. But when I looked at those colorless white eyes, I remember something ...

I was in my more youthful years and I was in a meadow under the moon. I was not alone but with a figure that I could not clearly tell his identify. His touch was like fire against my skin, sparking every nerve ending with a scorching intensity that made me gasp. I melted into his embrace, my fingertips tracing the contours of his body with an almost desperate need. Their lips locked in a fierce kiss, a collision of want and hunger that sought to consume us them both.

"I want you to be first...and I want you to be my last" I whispered when I pulled from the kiss

"You mean right here? right now?"

"Where else? if not now then when?" I questioned him and that was enough

My nails dug into his back as he kissed the curve of my neck, sending chills of thrill through my veins. I arched against him, my body a symphony of sensations as he worshiped me with unending devotion.

Our motions became frenetic, with each thrust bringing waves of satisfaction rushing down like a tidal wave of bliss. We were lost in each other, two souls engulfed by the flames of need as we flew to ecstatic heights we had never experienced before.

"Now you are truly mine, there is now no part of you that I do not" he spoke with satisfaction

"I wouldn't have it any other way" we locked lips once more and when he pulled away only then did I know who he was...

"Adeline are you well ?" I was pulled back into reality when I heard his voice

All of a sudden his hands around my waist did not feel so cold rather they burned against my clothes. I was no longer disgusted or sickened by him rather I felt disgusted in myself.  He was my first and likely my last, for I never laid with any other man after that, including Alderic.

"Yes I am well, just a little light headed"

"The dance is about to end, you will have your rest"

I did not want the dance to end. I thought to myself were the same thoughts going through his head ? if they did he made sure not to show that.

 I tried to console myself that this was only lust, something that I would grow out of. These were mere feelings caused by nostalgia. We are different people now, the kind of people that we are could never share any real chemistry. Too much has been broken for me to go there. That was forbidden territory and I was dangerously close at the boarder. Why won't my mind stop torturing me.  At the back of my mind a thought that refused to die stayed...he was still my destined mate. I can never leave him for if I do I'll die. 

Then the dance ended and he pulled away ,his cold embrace was now gone and the force that he possessed me with had also faded