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Not everyone has the strength to let go.

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Katsuki had listened to every word that Eijiro had spoken, soaking in his misery as the boy spilled his truth. Eijiro had lived a life that no one should have to bear alone, and the redhead was alone for so long, being used and tossed around as if he was nothing but a toy to be used ad thrown away.

After Eijiro had fallen asleep, Katsuki stayed by his side, holding him close and letting all the information process within his own mind. Eijiro had been raped several times, scaring his mind to the point where the boy couldn't handle physical contact with but a select few individuals. But even then, the boy was afraid, reserved and shy. Why did he come to such a place after the trauma he had experienced? BDSM is not for the faint of heart and is known to be a quite physical power play type relationship.

Eijiro isn't being honest with him about something, and after spending a month training him and getting to know his reactions to learning about the lifestyle, there was a noticeable passion burning in the redhead's eyes the more he dived into the lifestyle that sparked Katsuki's curiosity. As the boy's dominant, it's his job to know these things to ensure Eiji's safety and sanity. BDSM is often given a bad rap because the public doesn't understand that this type of power play must meet the requirements of being safe, sane, and consensual in order to keep all parties healthy. 

Eiji hadn't gone home after that night, not that Katsuki minded at all. He loved having Eiji in his home all day; it gave them a chance to settle into their new roles within their relationship. Eiji has taken to is role nicely, even though Katsuki hardly required much from the redhead. He needed to make sure the boy was okay before diving into the heavier things.

Eijiro stood in the kitchen, scrambling eggs in a pan on the stove, a little sway in his hips as he hummed a tune under his breath, the radio playing at a soft level as the morning light seeps through the many kitchen windows. 

Katsuki stood behind him, leaning against the wall and smiling at the sight of Eiji's good mood. His pajama bottoms were hanging low on his hips, the band of his boxers showing right above and blending into the boy's firm midsection, a soft six-pack dusting his torso. Eijiro had a firm body with supple curves that gave him an aesthetic and figure that was breathtaking. 

Folding his arms across his chest, Katsuki leaned back against the wall, watching Eijiro do his own thing. It's been a few days and Eijiro had been moping around ever since he told Katsuki about his past, it seems that the boy finally had a breakthrough and has got his bubbly personality back. 

"What are you making?" Eijiro yelped and spun around, the spatula still in his hand as he whirled around with wide eyes. Katsuki chuckled and smirked, trailing his eyes over his boy's figure. 

"You scared me!" Eiji scolded, a frown pulling at his lips as he turned around to focus on the eggs cooking in the pan. Katsuki smirked and walked up behind him, wrapping his arms around the boy's waist and pressing up behind him. The boy shuddered and faltered in his stirring in the pan.

"S - Sir," Eijiro whispered, his breath coming out heavy as his arms break out with gooseflesh. Katsuki pressed his lips to the redhead's shoulder and hummed.

"Focus on cooking, Eiji. If you burn breakfast, I won't be happy." Katsuki hummed and kept his lips brushing softly along the boy's shoulder, trailing his lips over the dip that leads to his neck. After the kiss they shared, Katsuki didn't touch him again, knowing that Ei would need some time to process and relax. However, it's been 3 days and the blond wants nothing more than to mess with his little pet.

"Hngh - Master," He shuddered and scrapped the spatula on the pan, folding and breaking up the eggs until they are scrambled and ready to come off the heat. " I n-need a plate, Katsuki," Eijiro mumbled, earning him a quick smack on his pert ass. He gasped and stiffened up against the blond's chest.

"I've been lenient with you over the past few days, pet. Focus." He ordered, placing a warm kiss to the boy's neck, earning a soft moan from the redhead before Katsuki stepped away and pulled a plate out of the cupboard and handed it to the flushed boy.

"T - Thank you, sir." Smirking, he watched as Eiji dumped the eggs out onto two plates and popped some bread into the toaster. Eiji wore pink cheeks as he placed strips of bacon to the pan, jumping back slightly as the meat sizzled and popped in the hot pan. However, something has been on his mind the longer Eiji had been staying with him.

"Tell me, how do you feel about moving in with me part-time?" He had enjoyed having Eijiro around these past 3 days, and now that Katsuki has taken him as his submissive, it's only normal that the boy would move in with him. Theoretically, his submissive would live with him full-time, but the blond knows Eijiro too well to think he would be comfortable doing that this quickly.

Eijiro turned to face him before quickly looking back to the bacon and poking it with a fork. "I'm not sure, I like having my own space, and moving in with you seems a bit much this soon," Eiji mumbled and Katsuki walked up beside him. 

"I said part-time, Ei. Like you were over the month for training. You'd stay here Friday night until Sunday evening, and then you'd be required to be here one day a week and go to the club one day a week as well, So, two days a week and then the weekend." The bacon popped grease up, making Eiji flinch back. He wasn't wearing a shirt, that's not safe. "Let me do this. Next time you cook, wear a shirt, pet. I don't want you getting burned." Katsuki took over and finished the bacon as Eiji watched at a safe distance.

"That's not too bad then," Eiji mumbled and Katsuki nodded in agreement, taking their plates of food to the kitchen table. "Where is everyone?" Eiji looked around, probably noticing how empty the house felt without all the staff members.

"I gave them the day off so we could talk in private and you would feel more comfortable." Katsuki pulled out Ei's chair and motioned for him to sit down. A blush covered his cheeks as Eiji quickly sat in the chair and bit down on his lip while Katsuki got settled in his chair.

"That was nice of you," Ei smiled timidly, picking up his fork and scooping up some eggs before stuffing his mouth. Katsuki smirked and began eating as well, a comfortable silence taking over the early morning atmosphere.

"So, you will move in part-time then?" Katsuki clarified, knowing he wouldn't demand him stay full-time when this was all new for the boy. Eiji swallowed his food and took a sip of orange juice before swirling his fingers around the lip of the glass.

Eijiro furrowed his brows but nodded his head, and Katsuki wasn't having that. "Talk to me, pet." He ordered softly and watched as Eiji bowed his head, his submissive nature taking over, a habit the boy had when about to say something he was nervous about.

"I don't want to get too attached, sir," Eiji whispered and the blond frowned, his brows arching in confusion. "I don't want to leave Denki alone." He added on as well, and Katsuki knew that was a lie. Denki practically lives with Hanta nowadays and is rarely at the apartment.

"Don't lie to me, pet. I have been very easy-going, but I do not tolerate lying." He snapped and watched as shame coated his boy's expression. Eijiro rolled his bottom lip between his teeth and exhaled through his nose.

"I'm sorry, Master." He apologized quietly and Katsuki walked over to where he was seated and took his face between his two hands, cupping each jaw tenderly and pulling his head up to look him in the eye.

"Why did you lie to me, pet?" Katsuki asked, watching the boy closely. Eiji had never lied to him before, this can't become a habit.

"I'm sorry, I won't do it again," Eiji frowned and Katsuki sighed, shaking his head and leaning down, pressing a kiss to the boy's lips, catching him off guard and relaxing him instantly. Katsuki was shocked at how easily Eiji accepted these kisses. Ever since their first kiss, Eiji had allowed him to steal small kisses here and there. It shocked him more that Ei didn't have any adverse reactions to Katsuki's touches.

Pulling away, Katsuki watched Eiji blink his beautiful eyes as a light flush dusted his cheeks. "I need you to listen to me, Ei. I don't want you to ever lie to me, it will only hurt whatever progress we make as dom and sub. I need to know you are being honest with me so that I can make decisions that are best for you."

The redheaded boy nodded his head and Katsuki smiled down at him. Eiji is adorable, he has always been a looker. His shy attitude that was only shown to Katsuki was often overlooked in high school, but now it highlighted amazing qualities that made Katsuki eager to have him on his knees.

"Yes, Master," The boy whispered and leaned his head into Katsuki's hand. The ash-blond smiled and playfully tapped his nose before going back to his side of the table and finishing his food. "I am worried about becoming dependant on you, Master. I - I already depend on you, and I'm afraid of getting hurt when - when this ends." Eijiro whispered the last part and Katsuki frowned.

"You should depend on me, pet. It's my job as a dominant to guide you in every way. If you don't depend on me, then I would be quite the shitty dominant. Do you think I am a shitty dom?" Katsuki smirked when Eiji looked up quickly and shook his head.

"No, Master! You're perfect!" Eiji clamped his mouth shut and blushed at his outburst, but Katsuki just smiled softly at the display of dedication. It made him proud that the redhead was passionate about him.

"Good boy," Katsuki chuckled under his breath. "I'm glad you think so, and now that you understand how I feel on the matter, and I understand your worries, how about you take a few days and think about it. I will ask you again in two days and I expect an answer, can you do that for me, pet?" Katsuki was trying to be understanding, Eiji as not like any other submissive he had met. He needed a more gentle approach to things.

"I can do that, thank you, Master." Eijiro smiled softly and finished eating his breakfast. Katsuki had plans to explore the boy's limits today before they could finish a contract. Right now, Katsuki had no idea where Eiji's limits are other than the small number of things they had trained for, light bondage, kneeling, following orders, and so on. That's not nearly enough to make a contract with the boy; he needs more information.

"Come with me, I want to do something today that will help us both learn a bit more about each other." Katsuki stood up and walked over to the boy, holding his hand out for Eiji to talk hold. He slowly slipped his hand into the blond's and helped him stand up. 

"What are we going to do?" His voice was curious but hesitant. One day Eiji won't be worried about the things Katsuki wants to show him. One day he will trust him and work past the fears that are holding him back.

"Trust me, pet. We are going to explore your limits a bit more. I can't write a contract with you yet if I don't know your limits. A contract is to lay out rules and limits between us both, and if I don't know how much you can take then the contract is pointless and would be updated repetitively." Katsuki explained and Eiji hummed by his side, following him as Katsuki lead him to the his bedroom, opting to wait on bringing him in the playroom until he was more confident and their trust was built more.

"Do you understand what we will be doing? I will explain things as we go as well, pet. You are safe and I will always respect your safe words and feelings." Katsuki was calm, needing Eiji to understand that he would never do something to hurt him or take advantage of him as those men in his past had. 

Eiji smiled only a tiny bit, nodding his head as they stood in the middle of Katsuki's bedroom. "I trust you, but -" Eiji blushed and bit his lip. Katsuki brushed his thumb over the boy's lip, pulling it from between his teeth and smirking.

"Continue, pet. Talk to me," He ordered and watched as Eijiro swallowed thickly before nodding.

"I don't want to - umm - have sex," Katsuki chuckled and gently grabbed his chin, tilting his head up and laying a kiss on his lips.

"I wasn't planning on that, sweetheart. I wouldn't force you into anything. I do ask that you let me touch you a little bit. I need to let you have the chance to explore this with me so I can learn your limits and your body, but you always have the right to stop things. How do you feel about what I've just said, Ei?" Katsuki carefully searched Eiji's face for distress, but surprisingly only found flushed skin and excitement burning in his eyes.

"Oh - Okay, I think - I think I am okay with that, Master." Katsuki hummed and nodded his head, quickly pressing another kiss to Eiji's addicting lips. The redhead kissed back, parting his lips as the ash-blond dipped his tongue in the boy's mouth, running the wet muscle over Eijiro's teeth and caressing the roof of his mouth before pulling away, leaving the smaller male breathless and panting.

"Strip and go lie on the bed, pet." He ordered and was pleased when Eiji quickly began shedding his pajama bottoms, tugging his boxers down and then crawling onto Katsuki's mattress. The sight of Eiji's tan skin and supple flesh ripple and shift as the boy crawled to the center of the bed before turning on his back and lying down. 

"Good boy," Katsuki raked his eyes over the boy's figure, his defined v-line leading to his already hard member. Eiji was such a natural, his body craved this, and no matter how badly the dominant wanted to ravish his alluring body, his friend's mental health was the most important thing to him. "I'm going to restrain your wrists and ankles, you will be spread out on the bed and I will touch you. Not just here," Katsuki walked to the edge of the bed, trailing a finger up the boy's thigh and stopping at the base of his member. Eiji gasped and shifted his hips at the tickle of the soft touch. "I will explore your whole body, and you will tell me where you like to be touched and when you begin to feel uncomfortable. Understand, pet?"

Eiji's wide eyes are dilated with lust and excitement, his chest rising and falling rapidly as Katsuki watched him closely. "I understand, I will be honest with you, Master," Eiji whispered, his raspy voice giving away his arousal more than the throbbing member between his soft thighs.

"What are your safewords that we discussed, pet?" He asked, grabbing a box of supplies from the closet. He had bought new toys a few days ago when Eiji had made it clear that he wanted to stay with the blond. He wouldn't dare use supplies from another submissive on his new boy, that was disrespectful as well as unsanitary when though everything is cleaned regularly. 

"Mercy if I need to stop, Master," Eiji said, breathlessly as he watched Katsuki bring out thin black leather cuffs with rope. "What do I say if I need to slow down?" Eiji asked with wide eyes as he zoned in on the cuffs dangling from Katsuki's fingers.

The blond raked his eyes over the boy in his bed, naked and panting. His body was tense but in the best way, excitement and anticipation clouded his features, but underneath it all, he could see that the fear poking through. Fear of rejection, of being hurt, disappointed or broken once again.

Eijiro Kirishima was delicate yet strong, and no one had tried to dig through the weeds to find the beautiful roses that lay underneath. Eijiro needed to be uncovered, the bristles surrounding his heart had grown throns, pricking anyone who dared get too close, a defense against the pain he had lived through. Eiji was tender, the flower that grew from a crack in the concrete.

"Master?" His beautiful boy whispered, bright red eyes locking in on the blond male who was lost in his own mind. Katsuki smiled and the boy in his bed blushed a deep shade of scarlet that seemed to only match the aesthetic Eijiro had going on. Eiji's lips tugging into a smile as Katsuki approached the delicate yet dangerous flower in his bed. His flower.

"Roses," Katsuki whispered and a deep shudder raked through Eiji's body, tricking down his spine as the blond approached. Katsuki chuckled and dropped the bundle of restraints on the bed beside him, and the redhead's eyes snapped to the pile of leather, capturing his lip between his teeth quickly before letting it go with a shuddering breath.

"Roses?" Eiji questioned softly while tiling his head, his loose red locks splaying out beautifully on the light grey bedding, his cheeks still deeply tainted with his embarrassment at being compared to a flower somehow. Yet Katsuki found it endearing, sweet, and attractive. Eiji had always been his best friend, but now things were changing. His best friend had been torn apart, this was a new man that needed sculpting, healing, and growth.

"Yes, pet" Katsuki leaned over, pressing his lips firmly to the boy's mouth, kissing him gently before pulling back just a fraction. "Mercy to stop, roses to slow down." He breathed, brushing his lips again Eiji's jaw and back to his lips. "Because he who dares not grasp the thorns, doesn't have the right to crave a rose."