Song by: The rose
I do suggest listening to the song while reading. ^^

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Heavy rain flooded into the streets, everything aside from the pounding of constant drops of rain on concrete inaudible. A girl watched as raindrops poured down her, masking her many tears from the few passerbys determined to get home. Her eyes were dark, cold, and hazy; her lips soon began to tremble from the painfully cold rain. "....."

'Do you hear me?
A gloomy day covered in gray fog...
I'm afraid my eyes will get covered,
I've lost hope in everything,'

As thoughts run through her mind she found herself replaying the events that got her to this point, a breaking point, a self-hatred point, hope and love far from her reach. If she reached, a blazing fire would only consume her, she was better off in the rain, alone.

" I can't do this without you... come back. " she spoke softly, more tears disappearing into the rain as they fell off her cheeks. " Why did you leave me...? "

She remembered the funeral from just a few hours ago; where she stood at the casket of her best friend, tears welling up in her eyes as she placed a flower next to him. " Goodbye, Dad, " she had whispered, forcing herself to back up, away from the casket. " I'll miss you.. " before she could begin to cry in front of anyone, she ran, as far away as she could.

'Do you hear me?
I walk the streets and see a different way.
I turn around and there's nothing there,
The dreams that chase me I follow them.'

She stared off the edge of a bridge, unsure of what she should do with herself... if she ended it here, she wouldn't have to suffer anymore, nor would the people around her. She knew the moment she stepped into her home, she would hear that horrible word
...

Perhaps they were right? What if she was that cruel... to have killed her own father... if she wouldn't have missed the bus that rainy day, he would still be here. "I killed him.." she whispered, "It's my fault.."

'I'm dying inside,
I wanna think that it's a lie why, why.
Even if I shout there is no answer.
A flood of loneliness, In the rain, rain, rain,
She's in the rain.'

She stood on the railing of the bridge, her hands trembling in grief "goodbye," she muttered, about to step off the edge with her eyes closed. 'Stay alive, live life for as long as you can, once it's gone, it's gone,' She remembered her father saying to her, 'Even if I were to die, I know you would be okay because you're my strong little girl, {Y/n}.' Her body froze in place, "He wouldn't... want me to, as much as it hurts, he made me promise that day..." She moved backward, stepping down off the railing.

"...although alone." She fell to the ground, and let the rain mask her tears.

'Do you hear me? Even if your hurt you don't show it.
I'm so scared of seeing the end, in your eyes I can see the emptiness, no whoa.
She's dying inside she wants to think its a lie, why, why.
Even if I call her shes not answering, a shower of rain.
in the rain, rain, rain.'

Emptiness, fear, grief, despair, the only emotions she could feel, where could she go now? Who would comfort her? Who would be there for her? She didn't know who she could trust, keeping it to herself was the only option she thought, who would care that she was alone...?

**** First Person ****

"...Let me help you, {Y/n}." I widened my eyes, looking up at the girl right in front of me slowly.

"Why would you want to help me?" I asked in a soft whisper, my voice trembling from crying not long before this.

The girl was silent for a moment before softly replying, "Because, even though I've never lost a parent, I want to help in any way I can, we haven't known each other very long... but please know, I'm here if you ever, and I mean ever, need to talk to someone."

Her words made me feel comfort, for the first time since he's been gone... I felt like someone cared again. "...Thanks, Ha Eun."

' When I look at how beautiful you are, time stops.
It's hard to even open my eyes now, no whoa.
She's in the rain.
In my memory, your traces spread, as if the rain has soaked them up.
I lose track of where to go, in your tears of frozen reality. '

I watched the small girl on my televison play with her father on a playground, both of them smiling so widely, so happily... "Will I ever smile like that again? Will I ever forgive myself..? Should I fogive myself?"

'She's in the rain, you wanna hurt yourself I'll stay with you.'

"...." I felt a hand on my shoulder and slowly looked up to see Ha Eun's gentle but sad smile. "...Remember the good, remember how much he loved you... you don't have to blame someone for what happened... bad things happen, even if we dont want them to..."

'You wanna make yourself go through the pain.'

"And if anyone says otherwise they're wrong. They're taking their stress out on you and it isn't right..."

'It's better to be helped then holding on...'

"So from now on I'll be there to remind you of that."

I looked down at the floor slowly. "can I forgive myself for what happened..? Can I still love myself, and can I accept myself...?

'We're in the rain, in this falling rain.
I fill the scattered you, so I could see how beautiful you are.
No whoa,'

" You will, your already starting down that path... you don't have to be alone anymore, now... 'We're in the rain.'"

Hello, Author here.
I just wanted to say, if your going through a hard time, remember even if you feel alone, you never are.
Their will always be someone who wants to help you, you just might have to reach out to them first, before you can know. ❤

This story is lightly based on a true
experience of mine, do your best! ❤