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After AJ got out of the shower, she walked into her room to find Monica and Matt in the same position she left them in: cuddling, while Monica draws stars on his chest with her pointer finger.

Monica may have only came to hockey camp this summer so AJ would not be alone, but there was not a single ounce of regret in her decision when she looked into Matt's blue eyes. If she would have stayed home and continued on, she never would have known him, and he was worth knowing.

"You guys disgust me" AJ jokes, letting herself fall back onto her bed. She found instant relief and felt free to release a long exhaled breath as the thick blanket and sheets comforted her. They were warm, to her cold body.

"You could have all this if you just asked for it" Matt says playfully, twirling a piece of Monica's hair through his fingertips. The smile on his face indicated he was clueless, and he looked as if there were no thoughts behind his eyes. It was kind of precious, honestly.

"What do you mean?" AJ questions, sitting up but bringing the blanket with her. She allows her back to rest against the white wall as she stared at Monica and Matt, who were both now looking at her

"Don't act like you don't know" He laughs. His laughter was the only noise filling the silence of the room as both girls stare at him in confusion. His chuckling slowly fades out as he becomes the one confused, "Wait...you really don't know?"

Monica and AJ exchanged curious looks. For Matt to act like he was stating the obvious, neither of them had a clue what he was talking about.

"Matt I will pay you to get to the point. You are quite literally taking years, you wonderful human" AJ shakes her head. She loved Matt in a brother way, because he was hilarious and friendly. They may have not known each other for long, but she could tell this was a friendship that would last a long time. But mainly, she loved Matt because he was good to her best friend, and that's all she could really ask for.

That did not change the fact that it takes him ten light years to say what he was needing to say, though.

"I thought it was pretty obvious that Chris likes you" He says. Monica and AJs jaws drop at the same time, as Monica rapidly sits up and covers her mouth with her hand. They both stared at Matt in shock before glancing at the other, equally surprised. "All you would have to do is ask for it and he would be on his knees for you. Chris is a lover at heart."

Matt slowly evolves into the same position as the girls, a small smile creeping on his face, visibly amused.

"What the fuck" Monica says under her breath

"Chris hates my guts. I hate his guts! That's kind of our dynamic if you haven't noticed" AJ shakes her head and lets out a disturbed laugh "No fucking way. That asshole does not have a thing for me"

"Oh please. He would've kicked you to the curb by now if that were true. Maybe he just finds it easier to pretend to hate you, than to admit that you might actually be someone worth the distraction from hockey" Matt shrugs "But what do I know. The kid has only been my brother for eighteen years" He rolls his eyes in sarcasm

Monica and Matt continue to talk about the situation, but AJ zoned out as their words faded away. She was stunned, and a nauseous feeling sat at the bottom of her stomach. Why did the idea of Chris having feelings for her feel so conflicting?

On one hand, Chris was always there when she needed him (and when she didn't). He was easy to open up to, and every time she expressed herself to him it felt right and authentic. She always said that she hated Chris, but was that true? He undoubtedly was attractive. Cheekbones to die for, brunette hair that never seems to fall in the wrong spot, blue eyes that resemble a kind memory. More than just looks, she had seen Chris show his pure, kind heart in many situations. He saved AJ from Wes and his disgusting attempts at sexualizing her. He held her when she finally admitted to herself that her brother was gone.

On the other hand, this was the same guy who has spitted hurtful words and assumptions at her. The same Chris who refuses time from time to even be in the same room as her. Chris, who interrupts her focus on hockey.

Time passes ,but the thought of Chris and his potential feelings stick to AJs mind. Matt eventually went to his own dorm as both of the girls tucked themselves in for the night. Although the room was silent, AJs thoughts were loud.

"Moni?" AJ slightly whispers into the air

"Avarie" Monica slightly groans, halfway asleep. For anyone else she would have pretended to already be asleep, and let the problems save themselves for the morning time. For AJ, she would drop everything just to be able to hear what she had to say.

"What do you think about what Matt said earlier? About Chris and...you know?" AJ asks. The words leave her mouth, but the thought remains. She was scared to hear the answer, and didn't know what would be worse. Chris actually having feelings for her, and the enemy energy just being a persona...or Chris actually hating her.

"Babe, what is the answer you internally wish to hear right now?" Monica answers back "If I told you that Matt was wrong and Chris really does have your name written in his burn book, how would you feel? Would you be okay with that?"

Would AJ be okay with Chris hating her forever? No more electrifying touches. No more getting lost in his eyes. No more being saved. Would she be okay with never being held by him again, or never telling each other deep facts about their pasts? Would she be okay with leaving hockey camp a winner and top of the game, but losing the boy? Would she be okay never seeing him again?

Was the only reason she was afraid to lose him because she actually had feelings herself? When she came to the realization, shock had set in. Did she actually like him? This entire time she had pretended to hate him...to save herself from getting hurt. She's scared to look idiotic or to admit that someone might actually be able to be as important as hockey is to her. She never hated him, she was only afraid.

"Shit" AJ mumbles under her breath as she comes to the realization. She likes Chris, and she really hopes he felt the same.

"There it is. Goodnight" Monica laughs from her side of the room, tucking her blanket under her arms and turning to the side, quickly falling asleep in peace.

Chris was not perfect, but he was enough. But was AJ enough for Chris?

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@monihayes: PUT IT BACK?? THIS IS MY JACKET??
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↳monihayes: i'm well aware, that's why I BOUGHT it

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↳nicolassturniolo: no.

@christophersturniolo: i agree with nick.
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@user2: i simply just do not like her.

@user3: i'm pretty sure that's Matt's jacket

@nathandoe8: i see the vision
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@avyoung: guys i'm sorry, i didn't mean to imply that this was a man's jacket. just my best friend's, don't worry! <3