So.... I was just bored scrolling through my old messages....and I found my ex best friend...and I look through some of our conversation....and I came across this..

(I crossed out my real name bc I don't like my real name that much)

I saw this message and it made me kinda sad..but also kinda mad....it made me remember all the good times her and I had...then it made me remember that she broke my fucking heart....and she doesn't even know it...and I know she's never gonna read this...yeah, she has a wattpad account, but she doesn't use it...I don't think she has the app on her phone anymore....if she ever saw this, idk what I would do...sigh...I'm not ready to go back to school....it's literally around the corner...idk if she's gonna be in any of my classes this year...if she has any of my classes, I'm just gonna try my best not to talk to her...or be upset...even though I know I'm gonna wanna talk to her....I'm gonna want to talk her into being my friend again...we had so many good memories....and it hurts to just think that we won't have those memories anymore...I remember this one time, her and I talked about how cool it would be if we went to the same college....thinking about that hurts me...because even if we do get into the same college, it wouldn't be how we imagined it...it would probably be awkward...I really wanna tell her how I feel...but I know I can't do that...I just can't...because I'm scared if I do, she's not gonna care and she might hurt me again...

I shouldn't care about her anymore....but it's so hard....

She's probably already stopped caring about me....she probably doesn't care that I still think about her....

Sigh...