The amity between Kiyomi and Chris grew over the months, their attraction was undeniable and their hearts were closer than ever. Kiyomi realize how fun her life was with Chris and all of her other friends. They grew so accessible to each other it made it all so easy for them to open up to one another. She was truly devoted to him and had a true respect, they were honestly a immense bond that couldn't be separated.
"Chris dude you're so childish move" Chris and Kiyomi were playing around with one another.
"how much you wanna bet they'll kiss today" Matt whispers to Nick
"honestly not a feeling of uncertainty in mind, I'm surprised they didn't just kiss and say they're dating"
they both start laughing together, they knew Kiyomi and Chris had true feelings for one another.

I was so comfortable around Kiyomi, I could truly be my self and not feel indifferent, it felt like we were one, she was a balm to my inner child and my peace.

she smiled, I smiled. she laughed, I laughed. she cried, I cried. Kiyomi was my reflection, my person, my everything. She's truthfully capable of putting behind feelings of despair I felt, she calmed me down with a sound of her harmonious voice.

She made my days feel like endless hours that had a countless numbers of possibilities, i just wanted her to be mine. She was my solace, and when our hearts met a thousand lives had begun.

"Chris you wanna play fortnite upstairs"
"yeah sure let's go"
"okay" she smiles at him.
they both approach the stairs and chris picks her up carrying her upstairs causing her to scream.
"Chris put me down"
"no" he plots her on the bed and looks at her, she looks away from him.
"sit down"
They both catch sight of one another while she giggles at the boy as he leans close to her, he makes her stop into her own tracks, their lips touch, her eyes shut, deepening the kiss she pulls away in shock.

"I should've never did that I'm sorry"
"Chris-"

Chris was scared of commitment but he wasn't afraid to love Kiyomi, he simply ran because he got frightened that she might not feel the same way about him.
Matt looks at Chris pacing down the stairs.
"woah kid slow down what happened"
Chris heads to car in the panic of what might happen next.
"Nick im going to go check on him"
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"Matt she pulled away, she pulled away and she doesn't feel the same. i should've never did that." Matt knew Chris held Kiyomi to a high standard in his life.
"hey look at me, what happened Chris?"
"I kissed Kiyomi"
"what?? why are you stressing?"
"I don't think she feels the same."
"Chris I'm speaking from experience here, I used be you. I was so nervous that Aliza didn't feel the same way until I finally told her how I felt about her and now she is my girlfriend. Kiyomi looks for you in every thing she does and no doubt doesn't think twice when it comes to being there for you. I'm no relationship expert but that's true love, the truest love I have ever seen since you two have met. I want you to go back in there and talk to her please?"
"Matt what do I say?"
"words you never said Chris."
"okay"

I sit there blank, Nick repeatedly asks me what wrong but I'm not sure what I feel, I shuffle through all of these emotions. How can a moment be taken away so quickly by emotions. I always waited for this moment, feeling his lips on mine and it's being taken away so soon.
"did I do something wrong Nick? what do I do?"
"Kiyomi calm down, tell me what happened my love"
"we kissed and I pulled away, he ran out. I don't think he was ready to do that."
"you guys kissed? oh my god Kiyomi, don't be anxious. I pretty sure he was scared. I would be scared too if there was a guy I liked for more 2 years and I finally confess my feelings, Chris has always been scared to commit but he is so into you. you two are so inlove with each other it physically pains me."
he lightens up the mood by smiling, we both look at the door revealing Chris and Matt.
"kiyomi you wanna talk upstairs?" Chris fidgeted with his fingers knowing all words he was going to say.
"yeah we can go back to my room"
Me and Chris headed upstairs heading into the room i close the door sitting back in the same spot i was before.

"im sorry if i kissed you Kiyomi, I just got overwhelmed with my feelings because you're so pretty" I laughed at his cuteness.

"Chris I know it's okay, I'm sorry if i made you uncomfortable"
"no need to be sorry, I kissed you yomi"

"we're friends right?" I look at the boy but he hesitates.
"yeah...friends"

Her words absolutely haunted Chris, she knew she didn't see him as a friend. Friends don't look at each other the way Chris looks at her and the way she looked at him with so much admiration. They knew. They were more than platonic, she knew, he knew it was just a revelation that was set in stone for the pair.

"why didn't I say anything Matt?" Chris blurts out. he knew what he was gonna say, the words didn't find the stamp to slip out only because he held back.
"would we still be friends if I would've said something?"

"I don't know Chris, give it time I promise it is worth every single second"

I wish I would've told him how i felt, instead i said "friends" not a single feeling I had would just see Chris as a friend. I wanted to be something more to him, his girl, his girlfriend.
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