fuck he was right.

i didn't want to believe him before. i wanted to prove him wrong. but i just couldn't.

really? wow you really are gullible.

didn't i already tell you to shut up?

do you really think i would listen to some stupid fuck?

i would have liked you to do so.

when will you learn?

learn what?

he was finally silent. i was scared but relieved at the same time. relieved because i no longer had a bulging headache. scared because i felt like he knew something i didn't.

later that night, i felt like crying. so that's what i did. i silently sobbed until it was too hard to breathe. it hurt. what was going on? i had no clue. who could i ask for help? i drew a blank.  god, how could i not know so much? i bit my lip. i could go to her. but would she understand more than i do? my lip began to bleed. i could still try.

you're so stupid.

what are you actually?

me? i'm your conscience.

. . .

why? does it not seem that way?

not really.

well I'm gonna treat you just like life will.

like i'm nothing?

you're finally starting to get it.

i found myself crying a lot more than i should have.

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