lily's pov

a lot has happened since i found out that vic and ronnie slaughtered my dog. dad was livid as that was the first time that i have seen him that angry. because he never gets angry or loses his temper. it has been a struggle for me because mom had given me ruby before she died, so that's why i loved ruby a lot because she was a gift from my mom.

i still have her collar as i may be crazy for sleeping with it but i don't give a shit. but can you blame me, no thank you. i obviously still have everything that was ruby's, because i am never getting rid of her stuff. like her toys, her cage, her blanket, her collar and food and water dishes, also her leash. though it could be adjusted for runt. i might give cal ruby's toys food and water dishes and things like that. but as long as i can keep her blanket i am good.

"hey, baby girl." i hear dad say as he walked into my room as i am in my pajamas not bothering to care if i go out in public like this. at this point i could give two shots about anyone's opinion.

"hi." i say deadpanned to him as he barely smiled as he typically does. he knows why i'm acting like this. he brought me into a hug as i sobbed onto his shoulder and he rubbed my back at this point i just broke down.

"don't kill me, but it's going to be okay. you have people around you that love you so much, love." he says as he kissed my head. once dad knew i was okay, he let go which i desperately wished he hadn't because his clothes smelled like paint and vinegar which was oddly satisfying. but that's the way his clothes always smell, may not exactly be the smell of vinegar but he always smells like paint.

"i'll be in the garage if you need me i will be in the garage." he says as he kissed my head again as i nodded my head. he left my room and i got my earbuds and my phone, and i climbed out of my window as there was a tree right next to it. i got down from the tree as my bedroom is at the back of the house.

i saw dad's classic car collection as i had my earbuds in playing a song, as i was mouthing the lyrics as i put my phone in my side pocket, as i went to a car and opened the door from the inside, and got in the driver's seat, not going anywhere just wanting some peace and quiet in my life. getting my thoughts sorted out, for now.

after i got situated in the car, i turned on the car and rolled down the windows and opened the sun roof as i took the keys from dad a while ago but he hadn't noticed. okay, i didn't technically take the keys but he gave me the keys after I got my driver's permit, so technically the car is under my name.

i grab my wallet that was in the car well one of them as i have a couple different wallets. i got bored and started sorting out the wallet then i heard a knock on the car as i looked up and saw cal.

i motioned him to come in the car, as he came in the passenger side and sat down before looking out the window. "kinda thought you'd be out here because you weren't in your room." cal says as i laid the seat back and sighed.

"what did your dad tell you?" he asks me without looking at me as i leaned my head onto his shoulder.

"basically what you said, as long as i didn't kill him." i say with a baby smile as i felt him rub my back.

"come 'ere." he says as i nodded as i unbuckled my seat belt and climbed onto his lap as i sniffles my nose. "don't kill me, please." cal says as he wrapped his arms around me as i smiled a little as i leaned my head on his chest.

"like i will." i say which resulted in me getting bopped up the head as i giggled a little as cal still rubbed my back which felt good actually.

"can, i tell you something?" he asked me as i turned to look at him so fucking confused.

"which is....?" i say to him as he moved a strain of my hair behind my ear, and next thing i knew was that we kissed each other, and not just like in the hospital room from when i was in the coma. we both went deep in the kiss.

we pulled from the kiss and it felt like the fucking gods were looking down at us, in one of dad's cars just kissing each other. i leaned my head on his chest as he had his arms around my back.

"i love you lily." cal says as i just smiled as he rubbed circles in my back as if he keeps doing that i might just fall asleep, but i wouldn't care because at least i fell asleep with cal, and not some rando.

"i love you too." i say as i felt my eyes growing heavy as i was in the warmth of his arms. maybe loving your best friend isn't that bad, but i definitely won't admit it.

"someone's getting sleepy." cal says as i tried not to smile but i couldn't help it, then i saw a figure as it was...sawyer. i immediately got up and dashed towards my cousin who gave me a huge hug. i might've scared the shit out of cal but it was fine. its my cousin.

"uncle jack told me what happened." sawyer says as i felt another wave of emotion hit me but this time it felt harder. i couldn't think of any words to say at that point. it made me madder, more guilt, more anger at what those dipshits did to my fucking dog.

if it wasn't for cal, i probably would've been in prison already for a double murder, but even that doesn't feel that it's the right punishment for what they did. i mean they took her fucking heart out of her body and decapitated her fucking head for fucks sake.

murder doesn't feel like it's the right punishment. i could probably think of something more sinister than that, but either way i'd go to prison. probably for life with zero parole.

"just whatever you do, do not retaliate. it'll really make things worse on your part." sawyer says before giving me one last hug before he gave cal a quick hug and then she left. probably because uncle aiden had other places to go and they just stopped by, just so that sawyer could quickly talk to me.

"i know one thing that'll cheer you up." cal says as he had a small smile on his face when he said that as he had the keys spinning around his index finger. i grinned knowing what it meant. starbucks.

"let's go before i want to murder anyone." i say as cal nodded his head at me as we got in the car and drove off, of course in a cloud of dust, like those fast and furious movies. which are amazing if you ask me. of course my favorite is brian o'conner, i'm no idiot.

after we got our drinks i'm guessing that we are going to the mall. which is fine with me as cal knows i wouldn't say no to go to the mall. well i would but he knows it cheers me up. when we got there i was surprised to see eden there too. how i knew was that it was one of dad's cars. that was how it gave away.

"i'm guessing eden is here too?" cal asks as i hummed a reply as we both got out of the car and made our way inside where i also saw gabriella too.

i just rolled my eyes as i picked up my walking pace with cal behind me catching up. once I knew that we were in the clear i stopped walking fast.

"wait was that gabriella?" cal asks as i whipped out my phone like some assassin getting their gun. god, i need to stop watching marvel movies. haha, never will do. #marvelislife.

i also saw gia shes gabriella's twin sister, she's alright not as annoying. how i actually know gia and not because if her sister well because gia used to date zach. the relationship started like four years ago when cecily invited gia to my uncle aiden's barbecue for mine and eden's birthday party four years ago. they found out that they had a lot in common and that what started the relationship. even though they broke up they are still close friends, aiden actually liked gia so he was a little shocked to find out that him and gia broke up.

"whoa gia is here too?" cal says a little excited as i took a long drink from my coffee from the best place ever. starbucks.

"someone's excited to see gia." i say to cal as we went into some clothing store not caring what store it was.

"in my defense, i haven't seen her at school for two years." cal says as i shook my head with a smile. yeah the reason why gia has been gone from school isn't because she was arrested or something. she's insanely smart and she went to college. college. of all places college.

i don't know what she went in for at all i forgot what it was, i wasn't paying attention to it. i got bored when she started talking about smart-sy stuff much like a famous avenger. he is tony stark if you hadn't noticed.

i also wasnt extremely close to gia though we had a couple things in common. we would've had a lot more in common but somebody was into DC. i tried to get her into marvel. tried.

what broke me out of my thoughts was a cute leather jacket. it was this like brown biker jacket but it's the same thing.

it was cute though but i didnt know if i wanted to get it, sometimes my eyes could say one thing but my brain says another thing. there is always a miss communication between the two. okay not sometimes. there is.

"should i get this? i think i have something i could wear with this." i say to cal as he looked at the jacket and then at me before nodding his head.

"yeah, it looks cute." he says as he kissed my lips aoftot as i smiled as we both pulled from the kiss. "what's the damage on it?" he asks as he looked at the tag as it was $25.00.

it's not that bad, i've seen more expensive jackets as we head to the cash register and see a lady in her early 20s chewing gum. by chewing i mean smacking. god, it's annoying.

"will that be all?" the girl says as i confirmed my answer as i have a bright smile on my face as i'm excited over a jacket. but do, i care....no, no i do not.

"yes actually." i say to her as she didn't even acknowledge me as she kept smacking her gum, as i mentally rolled my eyes at her. she put the jacket in a bag and sorta threw the receipt in the bag.

"here you go." she said as me and cal shared a look but brushed it off as i smiled a thank you and grabbed the bag and walked our of the store.

"okay, that was something." i say to mainly myself and to no one in particular. "god, i hate that."

i heard cal laugh which made me smile as i switched the hand that had the jacket in. "oh, please do amuse me master?" i joked as he burst into laughter at my comment.

"she was doing this..." he says trailing off and mocking her smacking which made me burst into laughter as i shook my head.

"oh my fucking god." i say still laughing as i start snorting as its something i do when i'm laughing then we both continued to laugh when i was snorting.

"okay, piggy. the farmer said it's time to go in the pen." he said as i flipped him off as we walked to the food court of the mall and we both sighed at smelling all the different types of food. "i'm not going to ask if you're hungry because that's a stupid question." he added as i nodded my head.

"yeah and i'd thump your ass." i say to him as he just smirked at me as we got to the food court.

"you love me though." he says as i shake my head with a smile.

"debatable." i say as he gave me a look which made me only smile more as i playfully hit his arm.

"owie." he says with a pout on his face as i smirked at him as we walked to a random restaurant at the food court.

after we ordered our food and walked to the table and sat down i saw my sister entering the food court with gia. gia noticed me but my sister didn't as i furrowed my eyebrows as gia told my sister something and she laughed.

"whatcha lookin' at?" cal says with a mouthful of a fry in his mouth.

"eden and gia." i say to him as he gave me a confused look as i averted my gaze to them which was behind cal. he turned around to see the two and then turned back around.

"yeah, so." he says as i rolled my eyes. "she's allowed to have friends lil." he says to me as i took a sip from our shared drink.

"i don't like it. somethings up." i say as he looked at me for a second before nodding his head. "it's a gut feeling ya know." i whisper to him as i lowered my voice so no one else heard our conversation.

he knows if i have a gut feeling that something is up, then it's serious. he would also feel it too just not right away.

before we could say anything a voice made me get out of my thoughts as it startled me. "hey, lily." a voice made me jump a little as i turned around to see my sister and gia. i had a tight-lip smile on my face as cal had the same tight smile.

"sup." i say with a fake half-ass smile on my face as i didn't want to deal with my sister and or gia. i know it sound bad but i don't want to deal with them right now.

"how are you?" gia asks as i rolled my eyes as cal took a sip from the drink as gia and eden pulled up a chair and joined me and cal at our table. as i mentally groaned as i knew i had to talk to them even if i don't want to.

"eh, hanging in there." i say as gia smiles at me as me and her made eye contact for a moment before i broke our contact.

"sorry, about ruby. it's a shame of what happened." gia says as she rubbed my arm a little as i gave her a side-eyed look as i don't feel comfortable anymore. before i could say anything cal said something.

"how are you, gia?" he asked her as her mouth curved up a little but it went down as soon as it came up. my suspicions were growing more uncomfortable. something isn't right, how can someone be so calm. i've seen enough of crime shows to know that my 'danger' senses are going off.

"good." she flatly says as me and cal made eye contact giving each other the 'something is up' look. we both softly nodded our head at each other having our own language that we came up with.

"well we gotta go. just wanted to say hi." eden says as she abruptly got up as gia gave me a last look with a small smirk on her face as it made me feel more uncomfortable as it felt like a 'spell-like' gaze and not in a good way either.

after, gia and eden walked away me and cal made a bee-line towards the other side of the mall to a quieter more secluded area.

"say, 'i' if something is up, with gia." me and cal say in unison as we tried to catch our breaths.

"i." we both said in unison as he leaned against a wall and dug into his pocket and dialed a number as i did the same. i called sawyer and cal called borgie.

we told them to meet us at the mall as it's an emergency, also gave them a note that none of us are dying but it's super important.

within fifteen minutes sawyer and borgie got to where me and cal were at as they both caught their breaths. "you, have your suspicions don't you. so do i." sawyer says as she brought me into a hug as borgie brought cal into a bro-hug.

"how, can someone stay so fucking calm like that, give me weird looks like she's up to something, while giving out 'danger' vibes. yeah i have my suspicions." i say all in one breath as borgie and sawyer nodded their head agreeing with me.

"loud and clear." sawyer and borgie say in unison.

"gia, was also giving lil, creepy stares." cal added to what i said as sawyer and borgie nod their heads.

"i hate to say it but i have my suspicions that she held fucker one and bitch two. but that's just me." i say as i take my hair out of its ponytail and shake my hair around as it's starting to give me a headache.

"yeah, that gives out 'danger', okay fuck it, it screams danger." borgie says.

"no, shit sherlock." i say to him. maybe i shoulda just brought sawyer, oh wait i did and brainless cal brought borgie. the two of them have zero brains.

"anything else?" sawyer asked as she re-tied her shoes before she falls on her face she did when she was ten. it was hilarious but i felt bad. i mainly laughed but oh well.

"why you talking to me, we all know my brain doesn't work that way. thinking hurts." i say as cal snickered as i hit his stomach and he winced.

"we'll think of something." cal says before we left the mall, as we were going to keep contact until one of us has a genius idea.

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"hey, lil. hi, cal." dad says with a soft smile on his face as he kissed my head and brought cal in for a hug. we went up to my room as i forgot that ruby was no longer here.

"don't kill me for saying this, but everything is going to be okay. you got an entire support system to back you up, okay." cal says as i just gave him a sad look without a single smile. he brought me into his arms for a hug which i didn't object.

ya, know sometimes when someone is upset all, they need is a hug and cal knew just that. then again we've been thick as thieves since we were kids so what do you expect.

"you got an grub?" he says as i went to my dresser where my secret stash of gummy bears is at. i grabbed it and plopped myself on the bed and opened the jar of gummy bears and shoved an entire handful in my mouth.

"yeah, but buzz off." i say to him as he held his hands up in defense before heading downstairs to get something to eat. i grab my phone from my back pocket and opened the group chat of me, cal, cecily, borgie and sawyer.

me: losers, got anything?

sawyer: excuse you, who you calling loser?

me: everyone else.

borgie: i got a lead.

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i'm back with the cliffhangers.

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